[[wHo mOvEd mY fRieS]]

2010-02-06T16:31:00.005+08:00

currently listenin' 2 songs on my laptop.

i need speakers..this isn't loud enough..hmm..i'm gona get em' soon.

Smoking as well..well what can i do..it's hard to quit.smokers you know.

really sleepy..only had like 3 or so hours of sleep.was so hard to fall asleep last night.don't know why.and had to wake up at like 6 to get ready for work.work ended half past 2..had some food for brekky..don't think it was cooked well..had stomachache all through work after my half an hour work.slowed down my work speed but still kept going...work was good though..as I was incharge for front of House the younger ones listened to what I needed them to do to run the whole show while i was ther smoothly.the only thing that pissed me off was cleanliness. I hate mess.having to clean up after each one of em' was really annoying and havin to tell em' repeatedly was annoying too.ah wells..

I wana club tonight..but freakin tired atm..prolly some sleep would be helpful..just hope i don't sleep through the night..and wake up tomorrow mornin'..lol.

oh went to singapore couple of weeks back..

man it was the bomb.think im gona go again in july..

i'll book my tix soon.

bfore i have to pay the bills for next month.yikes!

and am thinkin of going KL aswell..for 3days 2nights.meys bdae is in july..

i wana bring her along n treat her..

fancy hotel..i've done my surveys n research..n found the best yet affrdable..

meaning save up!save up! save up!

mums bdae coming up...gona giv her a treat and a treat for myelf too.lol.

spa, body massage..ouhh damn..i really need that.my back ache is getting worst.

what else...yeh thats it hey..

its coming close 2 2yrs..and im proud of myself.

Mey..Me B4 zouk.January 2010.

This was in october 2009.muacks you guys.

2009-11-22T15:02:00.005+08:00

heylooo people.

hmm

sunday morning.

well afternoon to b xact.

woke up late..had like 14hrs of sleep..

shoik man.

thought i sleep in since i havent got anything to do today.=)

everything's clean.nicely in place.

woke up fill up my schedule for work.

was craving for nasi goreng.

so i made some..for 2.

mum n i.

ther was egg n prawns n fishcakes..oooo

nice.

but i ACCIDENTLY poured in too much white pepper..errr...was too spicy..but with the use of sweet soy sauce.blend the taste all together.but m stil not satisfied cuz the taste wasn't the best.

oh woke up with a back ache.arghh..

anyways...................................................................................

thats about it today's jus gona b a day to chill out n sleep in n relax..b4 tomoro another day of work..

but m so looking forward to eating out..n new moon saga..yes ah!!

alright cya...

Loop-de-lye old line up.

My last GIG.Esplanade waterfront.hmmm

2009-11-21T22:26:00.004+08:00

hi.

haha.

i cleaned my room on thursday night.=D
Not cleaN clean.but can actually see the floor already lah.

eh i re-read my previous posts..

errrrr....bad english man.like seriously.if ms hikmah was to read my blog like she used to.

she'd b pretty disappointed!

anyways.

been workin'..

no social(SO SIAL) life.haha.

dad went to Singapore.*Jealous*

i want my ice lemon tea seasons.like fking serious.m like hell craving for it.

should ask dad to buy some right?!

you think the customs will let him through with them drinks?!

anyways.

so yarh didnt get much sleep at all.prolly had like 2 hrs of sleep b4 i had to actually wake up to get ready for work....so tired.

anyways..

so much drama at home today.

aiya.

cant b bothered man.
seriously.

haiz.

shit happens frm time 2 time anyways right?

what kills makes u stronger right?

RIGHT?

LEft?

k mepek.

lol.

thanks 2 nic for hangin out with me.

needed that to destress.

His been there throughout the time when i had my laughs n my crys.

*cbf'ed typing proper english pardon me for my spelling*

man seriously his one of my bros now.

When i mean bros as in real bros.

Yeh ive many frens.or who they so call self proclaimed themselves as my close frens.when i dont think they are.haha.but yeh tis dude his for real.those that i call my bros.

ARE MY FKING BROS that i can bloody depend on.=)

THANKYOU bro.

anyways..

so emosi..no good.

my eyes r barely opened.

cuz.

im tired.

ive only had 2hrs of sleep.

n i was bloody workin my ass off at work.

fking fight at home.

my arms r even more fked up now than before.

not cool.

m stressing out on my work uniform at the moment.

but looking at my room being hell clean..

makes my day man...

LIST OF THINGS TO DO ON MONDAY:-

Work.

Pay NET bill.

Withdraw money to give mom.

Re-enrol at curtin.

Pay Library Fine at curtin.

Go to supre belmont.

GO to the city pay Transperth fine.

Go to supre City.

Go to nandos.(I WANA EAT THIGHs)

Go to Carou-EAT NASI AYAM!=)*fk man cant wait*

WATCH TWILIGHT NEW MOON!

GOOO HOMMEEE

TIDOR MACAM BABI.

List nampak jer mcm panjang.padahal tak .hahahahahah.

k bye.

eh2.

ive been on youtube soo much.fk man.

youtube is my tv now
.azahars blog is the shit man.
my favourite post the,"chop chilli chop".k bye

was gona put up more photos but FKING MALAS.=D

nxt time.

2009-11-19T12:45:00.003+08:00

hey guys.
=)
well from what i know.there are people who actually view my blog!..lol

I THOUGHT I COULD ACTUALLY SLEEP IN BEFORE WORK STARTS AT 4.
But apparently not.=(
I had to go to uni for re-enrolment.we have to do it every bloody semester. I went and the dude there bloody pissed me off. He told me to go home.Because he reckons that the class that everyone re-enrols in was full and i had to come in another day to do my re-enrolment.mind you...i woke up early for this, and it takes half an hour or more to drive up there in the rain.CUNT!
so i chucked a sad.and went to maccas to get my ice coffee to make myself feel better.

Work starts at 4 today..ends at 9..argghh..i havent been to late night shopping at carou for ages...!because i have to work for late night.& it suxs man.but m not complaining m just happy good money's coming in.=)

hmmm..Twilight Saga: New Moon is finally out.
I wana go watch man.
Shall go on tuesday..TIGHT ASS TUESDAY!..meaning cheap tuesday.=)
hopefully I won't be working then.errr..but i know i would be..geezzz.

I'm craving for nandos.ahhh...
shall spend my pay on either monday or tuesday.=)
Hopefully i get a day off on either one of the days.
I'd wana go back 2 uni n talk 2 the right person for my re-enrolment.
Watch a movie.Eat nandos.pay for my fine($100).pay eva for the dresses.Go to Supre and use that birthday gift voucher.=)

I'm gona upload more videos of D & some random photos yeh...not now..tonight. i wana doze off ferst b4 going to work.heee=)
cya...

2009-11-18T20:17:00.010+08:00

My come back?

i've finally found myself sometime to reflect on my daily activities. And definitely its through blogging i can actually reflect on it..let the activities that's occured the whole day play through again. Realise what I did / say and wish i didn't have said or done that, Anyways, lets hope this time round my "willingness" to blog will be more than a couple of months.lol.

Well, what is still fresh on my mind is obviously what i did today.that was..waking up at 6am.(damn that suxs.when was the last time i slept through...and woke up at noon?*hmm July?* )though waking up in the morning suxs.but its soo much better to work in the morning shift from 7 to 2ish than having to do closing.god damnn.anyways..yes i do work at a cafe.yes i do make coffee.laugh ur lungs out i don't give 2 shits.=/

so obviously had work..left work late..as usual.cuz some people forgot i finish at 2,..n they decide to go for lunch and come back late to work.ah wells..knocked off at 2.30 instead of 2..well at least half an hour more pay.=D

It rained today..n still is raining. my plans to go to the pools had to be canceled.cuzzzz.of the rain..yes even though its indoor pools but dude.i can't be fked walkin down to the train stn all drenched before jumping into the pools.

No doubt, I do love the rain..the lazy feeling is soo good..knowing that you got nothing to look forward to the next day.no school.no exam..=) this is a good feeling.well i do have work.n do need to go to uni for re-enrolment.damnit.but it wont be anytime in the morning.=D this is good feeling.

Exams are OVER!

NO SCHOOL UNTIL February 2010...N ITS ONLY NOVEMBER NOW!!..YEAHAAA!!

as mey goes...wah seyy ahh.!.lol.

anyways....

today after work and lunch..practically tucked in bed..msning, skyping, facebooking, youtubing..the usual random stuff you'll do when you surf the net..so yeh..skyped with Noh..i'll put some photos that i took of him.=) n n last nite webcam session with mey and special appearance!..KECIK was there as well..was good seeing her..i took a photo via my hp dun ask me why but i did.i'll put it up as well..

I'm gona put up some photos of my trip to singapore.

THANKYOU friends for being there and practically staying with me at my house for the 6days i were there. was awesome.felt as though i was still in hong kah sec man.seriously. soo much has changed.n i can't believe its been 2 yrs since we graduated from tthat school filled with memories.

m still against the fact that its being demolished.THAT'S OUR MEMORIES MAN!

oh yeh had a birthday..THANKYOU everyone for the wishes, presents and the night that we hang out to celebrate my birthday.=)

Appreciate it loads.

*what a weird ass birthday..got strandered.got pissed off.etc..lol*

Oh i miss THE KAKI GEREK CLAN IN SINGAPORE.

i'll see you guys soon though.xx

TONIGHT: IMRAN, NOH skype session.

Another day..another routine..=(

AM GETTING SICK OF THIS. I WANNA BE A BUM.& HAVE NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO THE FOLLOWING DAY.tsk.

My KAKI GEREK CLAN (some people missing in the photo)

Friday Night.Excuse the drinks and smokes.hahahaah

Check This out.FINALLY 18=D
IDIOT.

So cute right. I thought i'd make him feel better and put this "better looking"photo of him up.lol=P

In Singapore...BRUCE ALMIGHTY..Zaidi

Thanks D i love u lots bro.=) I tear up everytime i watch this.

Zaidi Made this song specially for yanti.Zaidi couldnt reach the high notes.but yanti his effort is the one that counts.Thanks D.=)

2009-03-13T11:49:00.002+08:00

wazzap.

izni in da house.
haaa.
havent been updating ?
yeah
i know..been bz lazying around..school.gym.lol
well yeah tings been goin up down left right eh.
wtf.
well lets see wat been crackin..
ermm.
maria went to geroltn frm sundae?..up til wednesdae..
so i pretty much didnt meet up wif da rest.
cuz its like i meet maria den i mit da rest.
so yeh
been goin to gym afta sch..den slp all da way til nite.
lol.
i had my first test like on monday..n i did pretty well ey..bisnes law scored like 83 out of a 100
so was good.
thou i havent been seen as a geeky freak..bt more of a lazy bum n a nutshell..i did pretty alright.
heee.
ok wat else.
mak su had like a gathering last monday..
was invited..was jus like their whole family came down...cuz kak surina..had her 3weeks holiday n she came by perth cuz she was like outstationed to dubai..al ain actualli..so yeah..n raf who moved up to geroltn came by as well.
so was like a fam gathering for dem..so like im a family fren..so i came luh.lol..
ate..hang out..had couple of drinks.heee.
food was soo good eyy

wat else?
i watched the unborn las thursdae.
gym..
hrmm
i duno wat else larh
oh went out yesterdae wif maria to carou.
due to feelin stressed out cuzs of sum issues.
n a welcum back safely return tingy for maria frm her geroltn trip..we decided to had couple of drinks n chill out..update n shitt.
was good.realli good eyy.
ill upload pics in nxt time i update
so yeh..
tt was it..
today m gyim it..
n gona mit up wif maria at her place n since mirah n da rest r ther..gona hav a lil talk wif sum ppl ther..got issues ..hrmm
i dun wish to blog about my prob here.cuz am nt the type who loves expressing anger.
i rather b seen as happy n joyful to others for sum reason
i reckon tears a sign weakness.
n anger shud b controlled n not b shown 2 others.
im secretive tts for sure.
lol
oklah.
gona hav a smoke n cook maggi b4 goin to marias n to the gym afta.
tc.
bye.

2009-02-18T19:48:00.004+08:00

Okay lah
update lah.
lol
been goin to school.
my god.been goin ther for 1 hour each day
fkin hell.
n am not bloody workin tis week cuz i tot tis week would b hectic.apparently NOT.
im workin on saturdae n since i'll get more per hour..it pretty much cover up for the week.probably get 80 bucks max on satudae cuz am bloody werkin for 5 fkin hours.haa.
am lazy bum i noeeee
well anyway..havent been mittin up wif maria other den bein on fone or texting her.
man...
am doin mum a big big favour ok..stay home..follow her here ther everywher.
lol
someting new.!
I HAD A HAIR CUT.
lol
from fkin long hair.
to no hair.!
haa.
nahh jkin.
yeah i noe fkin lame.
watever lah
if u were in my sch wen i was in sec sch.
u'll probably get the idea.
yeah in school i had short hair..onli after graduation i had extentions n kept my hair long.
so yeah..it looks retarded if i dun straighten it.
hahah.
bt its cool wen i do straighten it.
somehow straightenin dun take long animore.
lol
n da stylin process has been fun each day.
yeahh i mean doodling wif hair everyday..fun watt
for me tt is.
i cant b fucked wif boring hair styles.
damn.
cmon.
bring out the creativity in u.
at least beneficial to urself wat right.
lol.
anyways lun.
yous all noe hw dark i m.
lol.
i got tanned.!
which means im darker.
u cn actualli see the line tt separates the two shades.!
lol.
okay.
am jus bored n no one to talk 2.
god noes wheres noh...
n musa's been fkin annoyin me.
callin me..i dun mind him callin.
bt everytime he calls i wont hear it or pick it up 2 late.
which leaves me to callin back but he wouldnt pick up.
wat game uh?
happy2 call .
alamak.
anuisance.
hahaha
well anyway.
been talkin heaps to imran n mey lah.
lol.
cool u guys.
u guys r cool.
lol.
talked crap 2 mey n all.
she updatin me n stuff.
CUT HAIR MEY.
CUT SO WE JIWE.
DONT WORRY NO ONE CAN FKIN SAY ANITING
cuz ure livin on the other side of the world n people would tink its a coincidence tt we both got short hair.
hahahahaha.
oh oh..
k forgot already..
nvm,.
hahaha.will update soon.
GAJI BESOK man.
oh k its back..
i opened up another account with another bank.
lol.
was a quick decision..due to the great deal tt the bankwest offered i didnt hesistate to do an everyday account so tt it would b easier for me to get a loan at the end of yr for the car im getting.fkin hell i enquired bout the repayment of the amount of money i wanted to borrow..n the interest rate n everyting..
if the economic rate stays constant which obviously wont happen..
its pretty heavy on me man.
bt ive worked it out.i PROBABLY cn handle it if i budget.
gees..
all tt for a brand new car.
its alright.
ive wanted tt car for ages.
n i cnt b fucked wif manual cars.
automatic is alright..as long as it get me places.
This would b my first OWN responsibility.
i told my parents.
If i fuck it up..
i'll b in hot soup.
cuz im nt borrowin from a friend or askin dad to help me pay..
im freakin payin on my own.
so yeahh.
i ought to be discipline.
hopefully i'll still hav enuff to spend in singapore at the end of the year.
lol.
This would mean.
Cut down on smokes.
Bring my own lunch to school.
N no wastin money on unnecessary stuff.
So am not gona shop...till the end of the year.OUCHH lah
but its okay.
the car will satisfy me.
Okay tts about it.
Mum been goin off at me for stinkin up the room wif ciggy smell.
smoke in house canot..smoke outside oso canot..
how to smoke then.
she said stop smoking then.
i told her to f off.hahah nah..u tink i anak derhake isit.
noo man.
i jus shut my mouth lah.
duuhhh
as long as i cn tolerate n control my temper..
i'm still good.
bt the other chick in da house driving me insane by her actions.
its okay.its all good.
as i said..
as long as i cn tolerate n control my temper.
alright then...
i'll update again..
ex text me..
lol.
tellin me his dad pesture him 2 text me.
i doubt it..lol..
ure in camp how can ur dad bug u to text me.
i dun care if ure reading this cuz this is my blog my thoughts n feelings.
i dun hate u.
bt i duno eyy..
im jus neutral bout all this..
ohk lah watever larh.
i wana hang out wif my mates luh b4 real study starts.
bloody hell.
hrmm..
alright.
i cant wait till my 18th..for first time im actualli lookin forward to my birthday.hahaha
get a car...
go singapore.
graduate first year..
Im more crazy then usual now.
lol.
i tink ive thrown tt tense side of me after the hair cut..
as mey always say...buang suway.
i reckon soo
oklah.
tc,
bye cb.
lol.
=)
talk 2 me on msn.
leave me ur email add on frenster NOT your fkin nums u fkin dudes fkin full of urselves.haha
I cant b fkin stuffed to repli on frenster...hahah..myspace.dun even talk bout it.hahahah.
ok done deal.
-izni

oh sori if my blog is fkin boring.no pics of me.
song's wont fkin play.
lol.
i cnt be fucked makin it work.lol.
sorii.

2009-02-14T01:05:00.003+08:00

This is khairi.Maria's son.a.k.a.mr happy & noisy.Birthday boy for the day..13thFeb.Just turned 2.

here we go.
more taggers.!
coolll
thankyou for droppin by.
i know i havent got pics uploaded.tts y its kinda dull
if i reckon so what about u ?
i know what u r.bt wat am i?
lol.
okay tts jus random crap.
lol.
okay..whats crackin this week?
this week dad came..
been hell coooolllll
its so quick gona b saturday soon.
it is saturday already!
lol.
yeah to all u lovebirdie birds.
happy valentines.!
me?
nahh im all good.y shud we give chocs n roses only on this day?
everytime go out with matair buy mentos say i love you can larh.
its the thought tt counts wat.lol
nahh..bt its all good to u lovers..at least u take ur time off to spare a thought for ur loved ones ey?
not oni to your good ol husbands or boyfriends..valentines is for loved ones.so parents?siblings?friends?they fit into them category too.
well anyways, been working tis week.relaxing.
sleeping.
lol.
oh on tuesday i reckon.bloody hell was so tired.
while waiting for boss to cum in the morning.
cuz the door was locked..i sat at one of the chair n put my head down on table..didnt bloody realise my boss was ther.
i slept man..he laughed at me for like good ol 2 mins b4 i got awaken by it.
he told me to go home if i wasnt into it tt day.bt was all good..stayed up till 12.30.overtime okay.
lol.
well yeah..
hang out with maria one of them days too.
dudok2 at her place.
made her get ciggys for me..told dad to fetch me after.lol.
went to carou yesterdae was suppose to watch my bloody valentine 3d.
was soo lookin forward to it thou it was R18.
lol.
but chris, maria's bf said i'll b alright.
but somehow someone wanted me to run errands
tinkin tt it was realli important for her.
n i didnt mind helping.
maria n i ditched watchin the movie n we went round carou gettin her stuff.
how sad.
said hello to khalid n all.
muslim gave us a lift back to maria's place.
bought khairi[maria's son] his birthday present.
Well lepak2 and all.
got home.talked on the fone wif musa.
the very next mornin rite.
like 5 plus?
noh called me.
bloody.!
nvm.
lol.
we talked for like 45 mins.i had to wake up for work at 6 anyways. so its all good.
then tried to hav a shut eye for 10, 15 mins.
bt nooo.
eva said i bought the wrong thing.
i bought her a slice of cake.
cuz no muffins left.
it wasnt for her.
she wanted to giv it to her educator
well.
at least i tried lun.
well anyways.
she fking gave me shit after tt.
turned on my light..goin off at me n shit.
fkin hell.
she bloody threw away tt mudcake for christ sake.
i dont mind buyin her stuff u noe.
bt i jus wan alil appreciation.
at least leave it at home someone else could hav ate it.
i would.lol.bt noo..she threw it away.
well i dun giv a shit animore.
im immune to her attitude..
its alright..bloody 20, 30 bux for someone unappreciative its alright rite.?
lol.
well yeah anyways..dad dropped by my work place..disturbin me.lol.
then after work.
got home.talked 2 dad while chiillin at the backyard.
had couple of beers.lol.nahh jks.
haaha.
well went to sleep.
was dead tired.
slept like a pig up til 6 plus.
text maria.
then went to sahara restaurant.
had sumting to eat.
was somewat a dinner for dad cuz they hadnt seen him for so long.
the parents clan was ther..so was ours lol.
i ordered bloody nasi briyani n satay
couldnt finish it..as usual mus would.
lol.
had couple of smokes.
went home wif parents afterwords.
oh..
dad n mus had a lil drivin action on the road.
lol.
dad tried to disturb muslim on the road.
went up realli close to his car..n put on a high beam.
then started changin lanes n givin each other the tekan minyak sound.lol.i swear to god i dont know wats its called.
lol..they speed on the road man..lil bit..a bit of racing ther.lol.then we broke it off cuz they were goin in a different direction. bid goodbye.n here i am.
bloggin.smoKin.
lol.
okay.tts about it.
tc.!
-izni

2009-02-09T16:35:00.003+08:00

Another day.
another entry.
duh~
lol.
update2.
nothing much actually.
stayed home bloody whole of last week yesterdae was like fking boring.
couldnt sleep at night too.
twist n turn..still wide awake.
you know why, bloody lack of smoke man..
made me grumpy to the slightest ting.
have been eating n eating.
shit lun.
i need to get some today.
went to work today..at 7am ended at bloody 10 am
yeah freaking 3hrs.
pass so bloody fast.
cuz it was jus me n bosses wife; candy.
so we were full on buzy and shit.
heaps of customers.
I burned my thumb n index finger on the coffee machine.
damn it.
its alright.
even the pros gets accidents too what more us little fries still learnin ey.
=)
its all good.
oh let me tell ya sometin.
for the first time in my life i bought bacon.
yeah as in pork as in pig.!
gees and i acted as though i knew what sort n whatever it is thats right.
lol.
"2 lots of 500gs of diced bacon...tt one miss..thankyou.!"
well its not for me..
duh~
the shop larh.
hahaha.
candy made me run some errands bought newspapers n groceries for the shop at woolies.
hahaha.
so yeah.
wanted to stay longer but when my shift was ending, other staff came.
so yeah..too many people..later no work to b done n all..
well yeah, tts it.
lol.
went shift ended signed off.
wanted to buy a donut for dad..cuz his cuming here tonight man.!!!!
lol
fire out lun i miss him heaps.
haa.
so yeah the donut cost like 2.80 but candy told me nt to worry bout it cuz i didnt hav anyting to eat or drink wen i was at work.
so yeah
went off....
called mum.
she came like half a hour late..
told her i could get my ass back home on my own.
bt she jus had to..make me wait.
bt its alright.
headed hhome after tt.
had someting to eat.
slept.
wake up.
bathe.
no one's home man.
bored.
text musa.
he insisted that i shud have texted him earlier..
what for?..
cuz he could cum over earlier..took off from work for like 2 or 3hrs and accompany me.
nawww.
hahahaha.
called maria.
updated her.
bloody hell man..
i miss her.
i havent talk 2 her in ages n havent been mitting up n all.
restrictions n commitments.
c what it can do man??!
ahahaha.
its all good.
i lost 5 kilos ever since i came back from holiday last december.
now.i tink im starting to gain it back.
cuz of being a couch potato.
damnit siak.
see what staying home can do to u?
lol.
its not healthy to stay home.
hahaha
you'll be lazy n fat.
hhaaa
alright..am outs.
take care.
DAD!!!!!! cya tonite lun....!!
lol
laters.
Pssstttt.
am goin out with a singaporen guy.
hahahahahahaha.

2009-02-08T11:39:00.002+08:00

I wan a THUG.
lol.
Nah am just joking.

Okay, Sunday morning.....*takes a deep deep breath*
Nothing much actually.
too early to blog .
had my ice coffee n am bloggin now.
was jus accompanying mum jus then outside..she was trimmin them rose bushes.
I toured around the front n back yard...somehow nature calms me down.
Yesterday,
was home freakin whole day man.
Went out for a lil bit.
wif my tshirt n my blue pj bottoms which had lollipop prints on it.haaa.
drove up to kelmii petrol station; caltex. got newspaper...the dude saw me n smiled.
I went on n said.."sori mate, i just rocked up."lol.
He burst out laughin n said "fair enuff..explains them pants of urs"
i smiled and said " hav a good day lun"
people at the petrol station looked n smiled at me..
well, if i were to wear my pj bottoms in singapore.
minahs n people would b all negative n shit.
but not here.
they laugh n smile or say something positive.
cuz its typical to walk around wif no shirts, no shoes, pj bottoms, watever..no one cares.
Yeah so headed off to buy charcoal chicken n some drinks for the guests.
lol.
charcoal chicken is like bloody the best..friends in singapore..i'll get u sum if u cum here.lol.nyum.
so yeah poltugese chicken is damn good too.lol.
headed home..
had a shower..
re-arranged my room.
guest came by..
had sumting to eat..
kavin crashed at my room..talked n talked n talked.
haaa.
which all others were outside.
his bro came by bt somehow i shooed him..
its alright..we're alright now.
lol.
so yeah after hours n hours.
dey headed home..
chatted to mey..
i miss her hell lots.
babe in any case u need my help i'll try my best to help u in every way i can.
okay im gona b in tears soon if i keep on typing bout all the tings we shared.
movin on..
sooo..
went to bed pretty early cux i got bored.
cuz i sleep wif mum last nite.
n somehow after watchin all them horror movie trailers got me a bit physced up.
lol.so was kind of disturbin mum..making stupid jokes bout her nose n her being short.
haha.
which then lead to her crapping bout me.
i laughed my ass off.
which then mum made me massage her cuz i was wide awake.
which ended 5 mins later.which then i made mum massage me back..lol.
which then put me into the 2nd stage of sleep,
musa called me.
we talked.for some wat 20 mins.
then bit goodbyes which i reallli had to sleep then.
slept..
woke up 11 plus..
finalllyyyyyyyy
i get to wake up "late".
heh.
im freakin workin 3 days nxt week.
bloody shit.
so little days.
meanin so little hours.
haiya.
mampos siak.
its alright.
okay..
its like 3 weeks till school starts.
omg.
omg.
omg.
uni student seyyy
ghahahahaah
okay.
tc.
i need my smoke n berak break.
tc.
=)
cya later alligator.....

2009-02-06T22:02:00.002+08:00

Wazzap lun.
lol.
okay..same ol same ol.
Left the bloody house at 620 in the morning.
Bloody mothabutches was freaking cold..i reckon the season change is starting to kick in..
i walked all the way to armadale central..reached there quarter to 7..
waited n waited till boss n wife came round at about 710..i worked uptil 10am..haa.freaking 3hrs.
time flew by just like that wen its bz..didnt realise that it was quarter pass 10 until one of em girls told me the time.
happily signed off and called mum to pick me up.
was bloody sleepy n tired...havent got much sleep man.
so yeah got home.talked to mum alil bit.went to sleep but got awaken by mum to accompany her to bentley..musa called me up .out of the blue..who musa?..he that turkish dude lun.my friend lun. no strings attached.pfftt.
then maria text me.
then mizah called me..lol..she been calling me heaps.updating tings.she's tinkin of getting back into school but not in singapore.but here wif me.my fren..i'll support u in everyway i can if its beneficial for your future.
...so yeah..tt was it eyy.
fetched eva from joondalup..then back home..called maria..asked her whether she wanted to join me for dinner..so she did..mum, maria n i ate at makan2 cafe..my treat=)
lol.
dropped maria at her place...n the whole clan was there.lol.
khalid muslim hasiibb.mirah.
lol.
its hell funny everytime i mention their names.
totally gave me a flash back to aussie day.haha.!

what i do yesterdae?
oh went to carou.
watched underworld rise of the lycans wif mirah n maria.
met khalid cuz he works there.
hang around carou n ended up waiting for the boys to come round at fast eddys.
mum fetch me after that.alamak..mood spoiler..but its all good lun.
lol.

Whoever from singapore...comes here to visit..lol. ill take u to applecross man.
hahaha.
y?
cuz its the best scenery ever.
i remember the other day we there..n it was jus us all..
sat there till like wat..1 or 2 am?
then had brekky at fast eddys..n cuz muslims car is like bloody modified.
so he had to drive up to my driveway wif no headlights on n slowly so he wouldnt wake mum up.
yeah was all good but..
hahah.

Alright..i dont know what am gona do tomoro.
mum been goin off at me for stupid reasons.hrmm.
Dad's cuming here soon ..
lol.
Im gona sleep in tomoro eyy.
Okay..
am gona go for a smoke.
i'll update yous all soon.
I know my entry is all over the place.
soo many tings happening.
as i said..
work.
hangin out.
n people giving me shit again.
but am immune to it.

By the way,
my school books bloody cost me 700+.
n my school fee cost thousands.!
wana know..ask me.
lol.
n my timetable is all over the place.
i dont go to sch on fridays.
i got mornin classes only on wednesdays.
afternoon classes which starts at 12 n ends at 2.30 on all other days..
more time to work n study n haaa.
alright.
smoke time.
i'll update tomoro if am not lazy or am not out.
take care.

2009-02-02T21:56:00.002+08:00

i havent been updating
i know.
i know no one reads anyway,
lol.
okay lets see.
ermm..pretty much its been a rollercoaster ride.
alright..first of all..i got into curtin uni..yey!
commerce my first choice ...yey!
lol.
startin sch on the 26 feb.
haaa.cool or wat.
alright.been spending lotza time wif friends.
maria especially..haaa.
she's cool.
we pretty much on the same boat.bt hers was much of a rocky ride.
i respect her lots man.
australian day was awesome..
what else..
went out lotz.
chill around lotz.
work3.
help people out lots.
geees.
im tired of it man.
i dont mind helping people outtt.but hrmm..some how the the appreciation that i shud feel isnt there u noe.its shit.
somehow i do not understan how some people roll.
some how i feel numb..no feeling of affection or watsoever no signs i can detect
mayb im too bz wif watever tts going on.
mayb i havent been giving myself a break n giv attention to myself.haiz.
i need my life.
i need my break.
i cant even sleep peacefully w/o anyone waking me up to ask for help.
hrmm.
i did have breakdowns...bt it didnt make tings better.
same old story man.
if life is tis way..
then it is.
its alright.
freedom soon wen i becum independent wif the stable job...hav a house n all.
hrmm..ill have time for myself...i tink.
lol.
oh well.
its alright.
well tts about ittt .
im nt in the best mood.
tc.

2008-10-21T21:04:00.002+08:00

I MISS MY DAD!!!
haiz......
a week can really pas that fast eyy?
haiz.felt as though was just yesterday he was here.
last week when mum n i jalan raye..
dad called to say he was on the midnite flight for that day.
Aww damn was i excited eyy.
went out every single day.
met cik jun.
went to karaoke.
people came by the house.
goshh...
everything's gone noww..
pas so fast.
i didnt talk 2 anyone in the car when sending dad to the airport.
cried when he went in....
n eva mum n i we didnt talk at all when we got home.
eva did try 2 cheer everyone up..
didnt work.
mum cried on my shoulders.so did i on hers.
it's as though loosing one leg...
i guess the family bonding has finally kicked in.
i dont know how long it's gona last.
but having one member separated from the rest.
the feeling is just unbelievable.!
My family is indeed the first priority.....
that's all i need.
yeah i do need friends but without family is just wrong!
when dad was here with us in aust.
the whole house just lits up.
everyone was laughing and happy.
tears of joy i tell ya..
never seen mum as happy as she was.
the thing that made me cry.....was on the first day dad was here.and he said to me ,"this is the first day of raye for me eyy"..hearing him say that when it's like the 3rd week of raye.? i tink
i just broke down.
haiz..
just sad man..
haizz......
this year is the most memorable year ever.=)
broke my life record.
haaa.
never in my life i cried so much.
bf carik pasal cry(now ex horr)
move here cry.
miss singapore cry.
hari raye cry
every month cry cuz dad cum den dad go back singapore.
mum sad cry
dont do well for exams cry.
haaa.
everything oso cry
soooo emotionalllll
haaa!
btw been spending lotza time with cik jun n family.
went for a jog with marie(muz)
besttt perr.
anw..
yeah been seeing lotz of muslim n muzakir and the coolest auntie, cik jun..hee.
alright tc people.
ill update soon
=)

2008-10-13T12:53:00.002+08:00

heyloo everyone
another day, another entry.

Well it's too early to be blogging right?
not much happening here.
well,
lets just update you with the itinerary for today.
GO JALAN RAYA.
=)
Going mak Julies and Cik Tipahs house.
but gona have to head up to mandurah first.
y?..
antar kakak eve's assignment larh.
long way there u know.
like an hour drive....
yeah pretty far.
well anyway.
i've been drinking lotza coke.
buh
mum hates me for drinking coke.
she says it doesnt oni make me boncet..but also decreasing the drinks stock.
heeee.
well blame coke factory for making it taste better ever time i open a new can.
haaaaa!
anyway.
saddiq n I?
i'm not quite suree..
well he says its over.
well i say.
it's better we're friends noww..
but still in contact does that make sense?
yeah it does.
ermm.
yeah..he gone to tioman.
so that's about it.
=)
i'll update later after the whole jalan raye event thingy.
Cik Jun calls me baby..Dad got to know and laughed his head off.and said, so gemok not baby babi uh this one.
MUM agreed.
izni goes"pffftttt"
hehe
tc!
=)
much love izni..
[having thoughts of changing my blog skinnn..what do u think?]

2008-10-11T22:34:00.004+08:00

Best picture from friday.
Same curler.Different effects every day.after the fringe cut.=)

Before the fringe cut.=)

Not much differencE?Well look closer.

Have u ever wished waking up everyday with perfect hair?Every strand in place?

haha.

Just images for this entry.

Pictures are visual text.

Deal with it!

2008-10-11T21:51:00.003+08:00

I just decided to upload all the pics of me sleeping.

hah

Got bored.

Cik Jun's shop..

Like i told u guys about afternoon drowsiness.

I really had to sleep in the train if not i would have puked all over the train.

Cheeky angie and candice had to take a photo of me sleeping.

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL PHOTO WITH MIN AND ANGIE.

[nothing to do with the entry.hee]

Hey to those who actually reads.
Well today has been quite alright.
tiring i suppose.
Went for a jog with muslim and tazii..
People came around the house.
So yeahh.was home bumming around as well.
Went to tazi's place as well.
a pit stop as referred by muslim.a longgg pit stop.
They played a lil of Xbox.Drank some water and lemonade.
He got a freaking nice house!
Tomorrow is his open house.So if mum goes i'll probably go if i ain't lazy.
How did we end up jogging?
Well yesterday went out with Candice and angie to perth and detoured to some other place.
Met candices boyfriend, Jason and his mate Justin..hang out for a lil while..
Was quite alright..until jason's dog started hogging my ass.
Freaked me out.A LOT!
Met mum on the way back then headed to kedai Cik Jun.Her stuff was with mum anyway..so yeah..we waited at Cik Jun's kedai for hourrssss.
But was alright.Entertained by her stories which made me emotional[just some of em'..]
Talked to Kasha because he was there as well to pick his mom up.
Not that i usually talk 2 kasha.I never do actually..
It's usually just the smile and the waves.
So yeah he sat next to me cuz mum usually help cik jun in the kitchen.
Started having small talks.
He is quite alright.
Bit goodbyes when it was like 9++
Mum drop cik Jun at her place in maddington.
as per usual..
The karaoke was blasting from inside.
Carried Cik Juns Stuff from the boot of the car.
The door opened with a welcoming smile from muslim.[new hair cut]
dropped off their stuff.The insist we should stay but..nehh.
Was too late alreadyy.
Muslim walked mum and i to the car.gave me a sibling type of hug and talked a lil and off we went home.
Got home, i texted Muslim.
telling him that's my no.
text on some random stuff.
Kept asking me what i was doing tomorrow.
So i told him im up for a jog.
asked him to tag along with muzakir if he wanted to.
He told me to wake him up at 9.30..but by 8.30 he called me this morning..saying he'll arrive at my place around 9..pffttt..Like a flash i had a shower and got ready by then.
He came with tazi around 9.15.
we went off..
planned to take two laps.
From my place to kelmscott senior high school.back to armadale.
BUT...ended up to kelmscott and back..[as said pit stop at tazi's place]
didnt thought it was pretty farr..and my stamina level has indeed gone down..
I got pissed off with myself actually.from being healthy with all the running i did in singapore all around jurong.to this kinda crapp..
can't even run from one street to the other.
The boys laughed at me.
Mum too.
pfftt.
Didnt really mind.
I knew it was coming.
Muslim invited me to the beach after that..
but nehh
was too tired.!
so that was the story for friday and saturday...
buhhh
ive been having this tendency to sleep really late, wake up really early, afternoon drowsiness.
make it stop eyy.
OKay that is it.
Selamat hari rayeeee..........
[another jog tomorrow morning.!IT'S A MUST!!!!!]
tc
=)
-izni

2008-10-07T12:26:00.005+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya.!

Fat Assss...[Don't really cAre]

One Day Straight Hair One Day Curly hair.
Nice right?
I curled it myself tauu.

Anyway..Went to Cik Juns how yesterday.as said in the previous entry.
So yeah went there after magrib.
Wanted to curl my hair but time didnt allow.
So i jus straightened my fringe and wore High heels with baju kebaye.=)
hehehe.
Finally!! Hari Raye.
For ages sey i wait to celebrate hari raye.
At Cik Juns Place:
Waited and sat there for ages.Yarh i don't have many malay friends here, in aussie.
So yeah, talk 2 some people here and there.

Aniqsha was there.Just smiled to her didnt talk or hang out together.she with her family.i'll be an outsider if i hang around her anyway.
So eventually i sat one side to watch makciks karoake.
buh~ because my mum was helping cik Jun around the house.
Towards the end it got better.
Saw my malay teacher from kelmscott.
He teach accounting.Doesn't teach me but i know he teaches the school i go to.
Yeah his nice.
Did talk 2 him for a little bit.
He went back with his little brother after that. So muslim and i walked them out to his car.
OH HE GOT A SWEET RIDE!
So mum and i were like the last people to leave the place.
Watched sinar lebaran [the one that you guys watch on suria during malam raya.]
yeah it's on some malaysian channel.Cik Juns place has got connection.
Well anyway...
so i spent most of my time hanging around with muslim.
MY GOD THAT KID CAN REALLY EAT.
so yeah we talked and talked and muzakir was on msn with his girlfriend.so yeah didnt talk much with him.
Also because none of em' were wearing baju raye and it slipped my mind to take photos. I don't have any photos from last nights event.
MUM SANG AT CIK JUNS HOUSE!!

MY GODDD!!..SHE KARAOKEED!!

haha.JOKE OF THE YEAR.

should have taken a video.

[as per usual she sang as though she is catching up the music.hehe]

So the day ended peacefully.
Sad news came later..
Dad can't make it here..
He suppose to celebrate raye after i finish my exams.
But he couldn't come due to work.
I pity mum a hell lots.
How many of you guys have parents who can't celebrate raye with you?
gees.
I KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE.
IT DOESN'T FEEL GOOD AT ALL.!
Tried consoling mum.
Which then puts me to sleep [involuntarily]
Had a deep deep deepppp sleep because i didn't sleep for more than 24hrs !
so yeah..got woken up after a nightmare of how bad i did in my accounting paper.
cooked maggie and curled my hair for today.pics uploaded at top.
hrmm..
okay this is the end of my entry.
see you guys soon.boring i noe.!

2008-10-06T13:32:00.005+08:00

3 am maybe?.Lastnight.I like the hair eyy.

Awaken by bitches barking.stupid dogs.!

2 am?.haha.I like the hair.I wan natural wavy hair i like. Yeah its my hair.bt its due to random hair getting tied...buhh..Stay permanent.pls.[yarh stupid dont wash hair will stay permanent like that larh.but later got dandruff..ewwww.]

End of EXAMS!

Selamat Hari Rayyeee.e

lols.

Well not exactly.

i Barely celebrate it here.

Okay wondering how my exams were?

Probably not.

Buhh

i think that explains it all.

heee

Well no matter how upset i am that i reckon i didn't do well.

buhh..its over.!

soo no point sulking.

I had accounting paper just now.n.i havent slept since last night eyy..

Was studying like crazy well not exactly.

hee.

managed to snape some photos during the unconcentratable time.haha no such word okay kids?

haha

Well, today going to aunty juns house for raye.

okay i'm so gona be glamour.!

ggeeezzz no raye ey.so feeling2 larh right?

hhahaha.

anyway..

i feel something is missing.

you know what.

saddiq.

menghilang.ke aku jer yang tk mencarik?

chey222.

watever itis.

its starting 2 make me feel and think in a certain way i don't like.

not that i cant be bothered.

its just i'm exhausted.!

Like to the extreme out of gas.

Need more unleaded petrol.

hahah

k ridiculous.this is wat happens when someone who hasnt slept for 24hrs n did a 3hour exam reacts.

Apparently, i got no feelings to express.

No words to say.

I'll upload pictures of me.[pics at top.lazy 2 pull it down.tata]

Hopefully to snap photos later uh at aunty jun's place. then you guys can see how raye is celebrated in aussie

kan..

bye

oh to hong kah people:-slamat jalan raye tomorrow.[i'm can't go.duhhh]

remember 12th of dec.bbq as well okay.

will spread the message when its nearing.

Cannot wait to meet susyanti anggraini bt sunaryo larh

and many2 else..........=))))

okay

byee.

-izni

2008-10-01T08:18:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin to family and friends.Especially Ayah..

This is the first raya that i'm not celebrating with family and friends.
Saddest one of all..
For the first time..i try my very best to be the closest to ibu and ayah..Trying not to disappoint ibu and ayah in any way..This hari raya is said to me the time of forgiveness and to turnover a new leaf. Now i understand how it feels and to go through it is wonderful but hard.Let alone to celebrate hari raya with an incomplete family is just a big obstacle for me, physcologically.

I feel remouseful eyy for what i did..How i reacted.Its like having all those past memories flashing in my mind on previous rayas that i take for granted.

My godd.....

Now sitting here.Typing this entry listening to Warna...people praying and listening to takbir.
I must say this is the first time i ever cried so much for raye..or for anything actually.

While everyone else is getting ready to celebrate hari raya..
going to grandparents houses..
Opening those jars filled with cookies..
Ketupat and lepat set on the table..
The smell of rendang, sambal goreng, lontong and everything else......
Moms out there still stress cooking in the kitchen..
aha,
im here in my school uniform...getting ready for my maths exam.

well i'll end it here.
selamat hari raye and maaf zahir dan batin to the Oleh family, friends...
and Especially Ayah..
Much Love from me, Izni.

2008-09-08T21:21:00.002+08:00

hello everyone.
yeah i know i haven't updated.
i'll just update u guys what's been happening lately.
School..
Schoolll..
Schoolll.l...
arrrgggh
hahah..
nah school's alright.
exams in 3 weeks and i havent started revising.
God Damn i'm a slacker.!
lols..
well not really i've been going to 4 hr seminars for the past few weekends...
SATURDAY AND SUNDAY okay?
EXHAUSTED!!
anyway...Eva's birthday was like last week..Well happy belated birthday.=)
Happy birthday to Aiman.I love u kid!.
Haziq Izzat happy advanced birthday as well..
woah so many birthdays heyy.....
speaking of which,
On my birthday Chris Brown and Rihanna performing at Burswood Dome..
yeeeeeeeeaaaahhh
hahahaha

Oh happy fathers day dad.=)
We miss you.=)
Hope to see you soon.

Selamat berpuase.
**Missing Singapore...Geylang Bazaar..Thinking of Hari Raya..**

Take care.
-Izni

Love you saddiq.

2008-06-30T17:50:00.006+08:00

hey people.

yes2.

im finally updating.

the term is coming to an end.

The last week of school.!

Then i'll earn my 2 weeks holidays.

No rumour, it is true that i'll be going to singapore for 10 days this holiday.

Yeah i know it's pretty quick ayyy..

Exams was over and done with 2 weeks ago.

I would say my marks aren't satisfying.

I really want to get good marks to get into University.

Well, i've got to try harder...

The weather..

Yes it's winter

It's freezing cold.!

It's been raining for the past few days.

Flooded the school.

i'll upload a video after i finish blabbering.

LOL.

Pretty cute. and you'll see what i mean by a flooded school.

Ouh..

i made some new malay friends.

With great Aussie Ascent.

LOL.

Ouhh.. last week on monday we had this free dress day ..Was pretty cool.=))

Ouhh been working on friday and saturday..

I owe lots to Jen ..

Ouh at freo, on last friday, jen brought me to this ice cream shop.

and there was a huge variety of flavours..Ever tasted white chocolate ice cream?..No?..me neither.haas.Well, how about ferero roche?..pardon me for the spelling error.No ?...I tasted that !.there were others too..like bubblegum ice cream..that's one cool thing the other is, you could choose different kinds of lollies that you want to put into the ice cream..I had caremelo in mine..its cadbury chocolate with caramel in it..so the dude crush the chocolate in my ice cream and mould it together.and within minutes it ended up in my stomach.=))

Dad gone back to singapore yesterday night.

awww...i'm missing his presence.I'm serious.

House seem pretty dead when his not around.

Well the day before he left perth.

I took off from work.

So that i could join the family to go out.

So yeah..

We had a family outing.

Went to Vic Park..then Perth City..then back to Vic Park to meet mum's friend.

Had fun..=)

It's been like forever since we went out as a family to enjoy.=)

Alright..i think that's about it..

Having a migrane...

geess..

Oh2.Tomorrow I'm going to Curtin Uni for a chemistry competition..wish me luck guys.=)

I'll see people in Singapore soon.

take care.

stay healthy and happy always.

Cheers.!

Next week...wednesday..Angela's birthday..

i think i deserve to enjoy at a party..hehehe..

Check out :-Broken Lives book.

2008-06-07T10:02:00.002+08:00

hey guys.
dont worry much bout izni here alright.
lol
thanks for your concern.
well, i must say that i appreciate your concern
probably the reason why i was upset was because heart n soul still in singapore.
well now i can say tt im getting used to this place.
not tt ive totally forgotten abt singapore.
jus...tt i gt a grip of myself n realise tt since im here, i better make the most out of it.=)
okay....tts all..
anw.
ill c you guys soon!
cheers.
real soon.
tc!

2008-04-25T23:50:00.003+08:00

i'm shouting my heart out.but no one hears me.
ever since ive been here myh entries arent happy anymore.theyre all depressing ones.
tts exactly hw i feel everydae when i wake up.
life's a bore.depressing.disappointing.and ive gt no one to turn to.
i feel lyk a loner.
I gt nothing to look forward to.
No one to impress..
No one cares.
No one bothers..
Living in fear even at home..
Tickle the wrong nerve everyone gets fired up.
When one's happy with another..
The other one gets forgotten.
No social life...
School friends only in school....
Awaiting and hoping i'll die soon to end all misery...

2008-04-24T13:19:00.002+08:00

I don't recall the last time I laughed my heart out.
I don't recall the last time i had a blast til I didn't realise what the time was.
I don't recall the last time i felt free, where problems were away..
Probably last year?...
Life relates very much to trains and its tracks.
Fixed. Unless the tracks change,it shows the changes of our journey in life.
In many other ways we could look at it..
From an expect of the trains being fixed to its track. We go through a daily routine in life.
In another way, when we're in the train, we observe the world surrounding us as we're watching not being part of it. Then we start to realise how life is..our lifes that is..
Well that's life, how about death?
From what i learn..it relates very much to each other even though both means the total opposite to each other.
Many people they cry when someone dies. Probably they'll miss them.
Some feel sad because they didn't get to spend much time when the ones who die.
But many others are sad and feel pity about the way the dead dies..
When actually we shouldn't be..
because we should think of how our lives was not the way we die.
The way we die is all destined by god.

My life.Disappointment.
My life.Saddening.
Haiz.
I made a mistake about my friends.
Hey guys, thankyou about for still remembering. I mean those who do okay?
I really appreciate it.
Take care.
izni.

2008-04-06T21:18:00.003+08:00

i'm gona start bloggin again now.
it's the only wat i can let out my emotions.
im currently not in THE very best mood.
oh thanks to people around me.
you tickled the wrong nerve to allow the wrong impulses to get 2 my brain mates.
bloody macaroni.!
Holidays are coming.
i wana go 2 singapore just for a quick holiday dad didnt allow me to.
well i didnt really bother about it first.but mum kept on talking bout it.much enough to get me indulged n think all about singapore.
argh.!
and bf.
true what he says about not wasting money and stuff.
but when i got no bloody mood 2 communicate to anyone.
and anyone who knows my true attitude if i dont wish to talk dont force me to.
i hate it.
i'd leave you alone if u need your own bloody precious quality time with yourself.
piss off mate!
i dont mean to be rude or hurt anybody in anyway but geess..
--------------------------
One thing of it is.
i've always been lazy during the weekends.
Now that the school holidays are coming soon.
it worries me if i wont be able to displine myself to sit and study for long hours like i used to..
damnit.i'll try.i'll try.
bummer....
i feel like shit the past few days.!
anything that makes me feel moody puts me right off from studying.
bloody boyfriend puts me off.
pushes me aside now..
every time lately.
becus why..
since im nt around anymore.he goes out with his friends alot .
i aint important.
his used to nt having me around anymore.
so yerps..fill his time with friends.
i don't mean he should stay home everyday.
but i don't mean he should go out every bloody day.
and forget all about me!
everytime i call.
he'll say like..............................i'll call ya back.
EVERY BLOODY TIME.
shit ol'
you dont even call me.unless we're fighting.and tt is if u bother to call.
shitzu.
so there's no point going back to singapore.
let's see what will make me want to go to singapore?
geee..what i miss?
isn't worth the flight ticket.!
what else friends?
bloody hell they don't even ask me for my bloody updates(but some do).
what happened to the rest.
if its the only reason then probably cuz of my band.
my passion 2 perform.but then again gee..
nothing.
bf...speechless**
if u tink i too over my head.well i am.!
beat it.!
i bet after bf reads this he aint talking to me.
but for sure.
he'll do it again n again.
oh not forgetting...
life here.
freaking laid back.
i can't wait for this year to end.
i'm not looking forward to visit singapore.
people there don't mean much to me.cuz i don't mean much to them.
i want to end this year n get TEE over and done with.
if i get into a uni.
i'd b happy enough.
that's wat i aim for.
sorry if i said anything offensive.
but seriously.
i observe.
from what i observe..
people put up a show at the beginning making you feel important.
make it a month or two.
then you're a ghost.
oh did i mention.
i just realised how much ive been giving in to people making them feel like proud of themselves while i be the one feeling like shit.
but its okay.
i always believe in retribution.
cheers to eevryone who reads this.
if u wish to leave nasty comments i'd reply to you as honest as i can.
because you're really honest 2 tell me indirectly you don't like me.
and to those people who act as though they care oh please stop it.it disgust me
to people who really do care thanks for your concern.
cheers.
=)

2008-03-02T22:10:00.002+08:00

Hey friends.
I reckon no one will actually read my entries due to the condition of my blog and many other reasons.lol.
Anyway if there's anyone who's concerned with my well being,
I'm currently in Australia.
Specifically Perth.
Suburb:-Albany Hwy.
Anyway its been a month plus since i've been here.
School has also commenced some what a month already.
Tonnes of homework and assignments has to be done.
Lots of test has passed and many more waiting to be done.
Nevertheless, i wouldn't denie.
To the fact that tonnes of revision and studying has to be done.
It seems easy well it isn't if you want to get into a university.
Requirements:-
At least a C for 4 subjects[to graduate from high school]
At least 65% for 4 TEE subjects to be eligible to get into a Uni mind you with the ducts around who gets 99% for their TER score.What chance have you got?
So yeah....
Have to be very hardworking.
I'm starting work next week at Jen's Mum's Restaurant to earn extra bucks.
Other then that its pure hardcore mugging though it isn't the examinations.
Well anyway, i reckon im not putting much effort in for this week.This is because all topic test has ended and that we had 2 days off from school due to labour day and of course the Teachers Union Strike. So yeah..But without fail at least a book must be in hand everyday. If you aren't studying at least read a book.
So yep.
I didn't study today but i sure am reading one heck of a complicated book with much descriptive words used that makes u go "WHAT?" after reading a sentence thoroughly.
Practically i'm missing Singapore.
But since i'm here i'm trying to make the best of whatever i have here.
Well alright then friends take care.
Cheers.
[coming to the 4th month of my relationship with Saddiq.]
much love, izni.

2007-11-08T19:50:00.000+08:00

The whole group for jalan raya.SO what if raye is basi
My loves.

Mey and I.

My HOT HOT HOT!CHICK!

Me..wahh.so different kan?

Dzul and i.

A friend who always walks me home.And of course his great tutoring.

Been friends for more than a decade.

My loves.Though i may feel inferior at times.I couldn't careless.

Feeling model.

CB hump so big sia.!

I LOVE YOU FARHAN!

My bestest guy friend

AND THE CAMWHORES!

2007-11-02T11:09:00.000+08:00

Friday.
Another paper down.
Four more to go.
But as many may know and would agree with me.
I declare that the 6th of November sets the end of the O's.
LOL.
okay.
I don't plan to do any intensive studying for today.
Probably i'll just read through Social Studies Sec 3 topics for today.
hurhur.
Hrmm..
I feel lethargic!
Yet i feel the urge to go out and enjoy.
Like What the HECK.!
Okay.
Loop-de-lye has got jamming for today..
I must go.!
BUT.!
I've got no trombone at the moment.
PLUS..
My notebook which contains all my notes for every song that i've ever performed is GONE!
It's not in the trombone casing in school.
And of course i've ransacked my room.Just for that one notebook.
all the hard work to find the notes for those arduous songs......
GOONNEEE!!
I'm Pissed off.
Like to the max.
Sigh.
And it sucks that i can't over that someone.
Damn it's been more than half a year.
8?..9 months.?
wow..
I shed a tear for you.
How i'd wish you knew how vulnerable it meant.
Damn..
Just when i thought the feelings had fade away..
I WAS wrong.
It indeed Hasn't
sheessshh!!
okay.
i shouldn't even care actually.Why should i drewl over something/someone who/that doesn't even care or think of my well-being right?
Yeah.
i tell people to let go when this kind of things happen.
But i can never apply it to myself!
OMG.
IZNI!!..
c'mon you know yourself well enough.
You don't care about this sort of things.
RIDICULOUS.
nyayahahaha.
okay.
IZNI pull yourself back together....
the guys..are going to town today..
LDL has got jamming..
Bob told me to 'turon' not sure where today.
So i have no idea which to follow...
I'M FRUSTRATED.I'M SAD.I'M HAPPY.I'M LETHARGIC.I'M UNDECISIVE.

2007-10-30T19:41:00.000+08:00

Class of 4B..

well.

If you miss those days where the Malay dudes in our class love fooling around..

Here's a video of the compilation of them for this year's second semestor..Enjoy...

2007-10-30T13:20:00.000+08:00

Greetings to everyone.
Hello..=)

Taking the time off to blog.
Well days have been alright.
O'levels...
Izni aren't you stressed?
Actually not at all.!
I reckon its best not to get to worked up for every paper..Before and After that is.
Well i've got friends who feel like giving up after every arduous paper.
They shouldn't have.
Because it will then affect all other paper that is coming up..
Hrmm..
Well have indeed spend my time with friends well.
And of course my new friends are currently at my top list.
What about the rest?
They're still up there.
Just added some more new ones.=)
Well...
I made a promise to someone.
Well it wasn't exactly an agreed type of promise.
Well since i said yes..
So i've got to stick to it.
There was a catch to it.
I feel insipid larh!
ppppfftttt.............
anyway..i've got to take my piercings out..
the one on my upper and lower lip.
though i may feel reluctant to do so.
since i want to keep a friend.....who matters more then my piercings.
i shall sacrifice these piercings for them.
another sacrifice.
It's okay.=)
Examination..will end by next tuesday. I can't wait.!
yahhhooo..

Oh2...
I looked at my calender last night before going to bed..
I saw my ex-boyfriends name on it.
I write memorable things on the calender every month..As in a quote or something like that.
Well for this month it's his name.
which shows that i didn't expect what happened in the past to occur.
Well then..looking at it..
it saddens me..
Nothing much to say.He moved on without feeling the guilt or to spare a thought for me...
I miss him though..it's okay..
Fate has its own way i guess.
i'm going to end it here.
Mizah <3
Kecik<3
Mey<3
okay2..
YANTI<3
UMI<3
NADIAH<3
Yeah my entry is kind of lame.
Sorry.
Oh ms hikmah reads my blog.
OH MY GOD!
hehe
take care.

2007-10-25T19:14:00.000+08:00

O levels has begun.
Mum and dad has return home safely after the trip to australia.
Chemistry and Geography paper are done.
Chemistry..the insipid paper.!
which i mugged 2days before the exam..suck big time.
The paper was easy.Because it was about the things that weren't detailed.The thing that I thought wasn't important.
No major topics appeared on the paper.WTH?!
As for geography..i didn't study much.Simply because i have no interest in the paper.
Secondly, because parent came home..Lots of stories to tell of course.
BUT the paper..
wasn't bad.
What i studied the morning before the exam..came out..and i mean all of the things that i studied for appeared on the examination paper.
A big THANK YOU to nadiah..because i only read her notes for the exam..hugs***
OKAY..
next week going to be hectic.
NON -STOP hit............. one after another.
i've got three papers on monday.
sharks.
Well..anyway.
let's get some updates!
Parents Went To Australia
Cool right..settle some financial stuff and registered me back in Kelmscott Senior High School.
YAHHOO..
I gave dad my 'transperth'.
To tell that izni is coming back.
And of course.the head of whoever..his name is elliot..he remembers me.!
nyehaahhaa.
i was happy like to the extreme!
I'll be back there soon..
hold on alright, aussie friends?
Okay..talked to mom about things that were new.
and how our new home going to be like.
and hell yes..they said its satisfactory..
it'll be about 700m sq2...about 7 times the size of the house that i'm living now.
believe it or not.i put up a picture of it when im there.!
Okay.....
moving on..
FRIENDS.
hrmm.....
new found friends feel like as though i've met them for so long.
especially bob.
dang.!
to me i feel i'm closest to him.=)
yeah yus is cool too.
Well they all narrow now to one similar thing though...wonders of life.haha!
well as for sheq..he is just one of the lads..well he is nice too.=)
The lads.they are freaking cool.hilarious.and of course..i feel good and happy worries are all away when i'm with them..
OKAY!
BUT..
there's more.
i feel ever since mizah and me joined them.
we're nothing but trouble.
I don't think the lads are at their best mood now.
Sorry dudes.
Mizah don't stress2 don't worry kay?
i'll be by your side.now and forever.=)
Just hold on for a couple more days..i'll b there for you 24 hrs.=)

SCHOOL FRIENDS
i haven't been spending much of my time with them..
Just now.after so long i talked to them.
They being same as per usual..Crazy dudes who loves to spar.!
Especially yol.
[School friends i mean the dudes!]

yanti and umi and nadiah..aww i miss talking to them
muacks.!
mey .usual2=)..muahhahah.
kecik i don't see her anymore now.
But i still get updates!
hehe
we're girls.
what can i say..

SISTER EVA!..
nyayaya..
it feels good to be in good terms with her.=)

Well...the only thing that is bugging me is Olevels.
Plus....
that problem that has been making my friend feel miserable.
dudes don't worry..
orang buat taik..one day everything will be revealed.!
okay.
take care.=)
muacks.
happy holidays.happy examination.
cheers.!

P.S.Imran going graduation night with me.[[duhh]]
the best part.he fetching me from home..wow.!
LOL.!

2007-10-15T17:03:00.000+08:00

A month away from now, EVERYTHING will be over.

O level examination will be over.

Officially out of Hong Kah.

wow....

a lot has been going through in my mind.

Well i may be physically here.

But my heart and mind is back in Australia.

I can't wait to be there.

I mean..who wouldn't want to seek a better life, ain't it?

Yeah i've got all my friends back here.[made new friends too.=)]

Well, if i want to succeed and the doors are open for me. Definitely i'll take that opportunity.

Anyway, i had the time to blog but i just didn't want to.

Too much going on..But no words to express them out.

Lately, i made some decisions that really made mum happy.

I've always said this to myself..

i'd take out my piercings with one condition, that mum would be the one who take them out for me.

Well,

apparently..yesterday..mum took four of my piercings out of my face..yes she was terrified to take them out.She had too if she wanted me to be like what she desires.

And yeah i did cry and stuff. BLUEKS!

Anyway..

i have been spending quality time with family..and mizah..we are tie-ing more knots on out bonding rope to tighten our friendship..=)

I do NOT want to throw my coming to 16 years of friendship with her.

For the others...

i'm sorry if i haven't been spending the time i should have with you guys.

[It's hard when you have many2 close friends all around.LOL]

Made peace with people too..like didi.[husna not yet]

I mean come on..

Time to throw away all those sucky memories.

Now, i'm neutral to everyone.

I hate no one.

We got to walk around smiling to people.BAH!~

Until when all the hatred and dispute going to end.

Now everyone wants to be laid back and so called like get settle down, enjoy. Well, i do..

Slamat Hari Raya,Maaf Zahir dan Batin kepada semua okay?

My entry here today is meaningless.

LOL.

but i updated anyways.

Some of the things you've missed.........

More pics nxt time...laggyyyy..

2007-07-28T19:52:00.000+08:00

updates.
cheers everyone.
let's get straight to the entry alright.
lol.
yesterday,
hell of a night.
overnight[ton].
at jurong area.
took tonnes of pictures.
with mey, zaidi, shamir and hakim.
went to watch simpsons on friday.[with more people]
hell that show cracked me up a hell lots.
overall it was cool.
until i got home.[standard.]
to mey.sorry for troubling you so much.
seriously my head is spinning so i'll end it here.
cheers to everyone.
i'll upload the pictures when i get them from mey.
tc.
-izni

2007-07-25T20:04:00.000+08:00

oh.
it's been ages ever since i updated.
okay.
i shall update today!.
and the next.
and the next.
and so on...
hopefully.
okay.
let's start.
school has been amazing.
though there were some mishaps and conflicts between friends happening.[all forgiven]
i carried on with my usual routine.
Been studying a hell lot.
Out of home.though.
in school.extra classes plus group study.
i get much motivation from people around me.
Then again, there are my downfalls.
had my POA test results back that was taken like ages ago.
I failed one test and passed the other[borderline].
I wasn't paying much attention during POA due to some constrains THEN.
Problems that occurred at the wrong time.

Maths has been wonderful.
LOL.
with lots and lots of practice papers issued out, i must say.my marks has been improving.=)
Oh then again.i must thank people like brandon and Jun Liang for helping and criticising me when i'm in doubts.
LOL.
English has been fun too.
Ms hikmah says i'm improving.Writing better compositions and not those trashy ones like i used too.
Okay that's about it for school.
For people who are considered close to me.
lol.
MOST of them, are in love.
lol.
love is very much in the air.
though some seek my advice, i'd help as much as i'm capable off.
But then again, i can never apply them to myself.*wondering why the hell not*.

Kai and his new girlfriend.[zyta]
yanti and her long lasting friend.turn out into a beautiful relationship?i hope.
Mey and him*confidential*.Hopefully.*grins*
Mizah and yan.forever love birds.
sister tina and Q.
and more...
LOL.
oh...word has it..ex boyfriend..got back to his ex girlfriend.
well.
i'm crushed but accept the fact and staying as strong as i possibly could.
may your relationship go as far as possible.=)
SMILES TO EVERYONE.
aww.
okay.
let's update with what is currently happening to me myself.
lol.
family been great.Bonding with sister and mum and dad.been great!
i love.
oh..yet i still wish i could be as close as possible with sister.[eva.blood sister.]
envy those sisters who are damn close with one another.
Moving on..
I've got myself inked again by my favourite tattoo artist, kai.
Thanks kai.
i guess he is the only tattoo artist i trust,and can poke needles and add ink on to my body.LOL
okay.
i've got my upper back inked with my name.
My lower back inked with the treble clef[music theme].As all may know.
Added more holes onto my face.
LOL.
I reckon i look better without all these piercings.
Then again, it is who i am.And i followed this path.
Well, many may say that i'll regret and feel remorseful over my actions and 'sins' that i've created.
But apologies to everyone.
I chose this path.
I'm old enough to think for myself.
I'm not naive anymore.
Because if i was to have that sort of feeling, i'd only try it and stop.
But no, i'm pursuing it. Getting involve in it.
Acceptance is what i need from people around me.I'm changing and growing.
Finding my identity.to say that i'm IZNI.
Support me okay?
Thank you.
LOL.
i'm happy with life now.
Eating is my passion.[yikes i have to cut down!I'm building castles out of fats in my body!]
Stress over o'levels is the negativity in me.
Other then that, i just need a comfy bear to comfort me.[izni is silly.]
okay.
cheers everyone!
-izni

STUDY HARD.PLAY HARD

NOT MINE.zura's back..in the process of getting inked.cool right.

Damn i need to do something with my hair.

Pic almost there.

Picture positioned at where i want it to be.

2007-07-11T15:42:00.001+08:00

ME and hadi.

Hrm...running through memory lane...

ME SHAMIR AND YANTI

ANIQAH.MOLESTER.CUM.HOT BABE.CUM.THE MODEL.

ME AND YANTI AND ZAIDI.

SKA FEST 2007.MEMORABLE.LAST GIG.WHEN's THE NEXT?.I HAVE NO IDEA.

ME AND THEM AGAIN

Me and zura AGAin.LOL

Can you believe it she's only 12?!

Me and them

Me and zura

ZUuu and me.

Me and best guy buddy

Me and my fuck face

Me and Mizah

Zura's tattoo.damn. i love it.!because i edited it.=)

Study3.dang.Nerd attack.

The flag keeps flashing in my mind.calling me to be come HOME.

I've been thinking a lot about this.I can't wait to be back there.

When night falls.When Boredom strikes.[t-shirt given by mizah!]

Boredom stikes.

Boredom stikes.!

When boredom strikes.

Fuck face right?.at Boon lay playground.

While skanking!

Comic and sallys gig.I LOOK FAT.WELL ACTUALLY I AM!

Hendra so gay right.LOL.

Comic and Sallys gig.

Day out with da byrds.

Pictures.are kind of jumbled up..well some pictures are old.

while others are new.thinking bout some memories back then.

2007-07-11T14:42:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!
LOL.
erm,
it's been freaking long ever since i wrote an entry here.
Let's just update about life here.
Hrm..
school has been great.awesome!
Friends.as per usual.
Relationship..erm..i don't have one to brag about.
Went for a gig lately.
damn.
The whole LDL family was there.
and i loved it!
Saw people that i love, once loved, hate.
Everyone was there.
as in the subculture.
People who weren't suppose to be there.
were there too.
sharks!
I love mizah.what more should i say.
Yanti.she been a cool chick.
taking all my crap.
Mui wei.
there to calm me down.
Mey..
happy belated birthday.
went to her birthday party.
was cool.=)
MUM.
i love her.
THANKS A HELL LOTS FOR EVERYTHING.
lol.
sister went for a trip to thailand the other time.
bought me a dress and damn i love it.!
Seriously, i enjoyed my time with the cultured kids.=)
Especially the byrds..zura zuu and niq.
OH BEWARE!
NIQ IS A MOLESTER!
LOL.
haha.
dont be mad okay?
lol.
other then that,.
ccheers to everyone.sorry if my post is lame.
if you're expecting something more.i'm sorry.
lol.
been buzy with everything else and studies.
OH DAMN i need sleep.
have been an OWL for the last two days.TEST2!
ok take care everyone.
=)
P.S.you're back in my thoughts.I can't denie.I'm still deeply in love with you.<3

2007-06-08T12:42:00.000+08:00

On the way back home from Sentosa.That was what i wore.=)
Me and tasha.=)

self obsession.LOL

Yanti Look so grandma like.hehe

When things get ugly.LOL

ONE of My Dearest

ME!ME!

yAnti Look so hornyy!

Me.so fair suddenly right.haha

Yanti wanabee model only.haha.izni act cute.WTF!

Blurry2.

Bulges!Bulges!

I lOve her!

2007-06-08T12:19:00.000+08:00

Updates.
okay.
had tonnes of fun yesterday and the day before.
Went to JE library to meet yanti.
Well she went there to study on her own.
So i decided to join her.
Sat at LJS to study.
Wasn't long till we lost concentration and decided to go to the gym.
Me with make up.
LOL.
oh well.
Lucky i was in proper attire.
Exchange bottoms with yanti.
She wore my long pants and i wore her PE shorts due to the fact that she was from school before that.Why would anyone wear their PE shorts out to so far right?DUHH~
Well anyway..
We excercised like nobody's business.
LOL.
saw my volunteered trainer there.LOL.
he misses me i guess.haha
well.he asked where i've been.because it's been so long since i excercised at the gym.
I'm always running on tracks though.
Not to be some athelete.Its just to loose weight.
After excercising.headed to the wash room and took tonnes of pictures before heading home.
Walked home..Was a fun day.
Chatted with some friends on MSN before i was off to bed.
AWW...chatted with twiggy..as in sister tina.LOL.
yeah.had fun chatting with her.
Oh amir too.
LOL.
HE IS GAY.
well that's good right.
So cannot have girls around him.
LOL.
izni is paranoid.
Anyways..
He read my blog.
So he knows.
But yet there isn't any chemistry.
hurhur.talked to mizah after that before sleeping.
The following day, went to band.
LOL.
they were shocked to see me.
I MISS MY JUNIORS!
I LOVE THEM!
ESPECIALLY ISKANDAR!
oh my..
lol
told him a little secret.
well that's how close we are together.=)
he is darn cool to me.the only younger dude that i'm close with.
cheers to iskandar.
Well went to meet tasha and fatin after that about band interview questions.
Mrs Pada bought some food.
LOL.
Pizza and Spegetti.
Even though i'm not a FNN student.
Since i helped out, i got FREE food.
Like zaidi said freeloaders.
Oh well.
THEY'RE FREE!
LOL.
so headed off to Sentosa after that.
Tonnes of fun.
Zaidi, Fariz and shamir had cake all over their faces after the cut-cake ceremony.
LOL.
Swim2.Eat2.
Headed home after that.
=)

Yesterday was love.
Got home.
Disastrous.
Got scolded.
Buh~
whatever.
The feeling of Sentosa was just overwhelming.Too bad parents.blueks.!
hah!
Okay.so today.
i'm going for my session at admiralty around 3 must reach there.
Dragged mizah along to follow me..hehe
Okay LDL see all of you later.!
Oh i'm ill by the way.
ARGGH!
Oh nevermind.
cheers!
pictures are up..for the gym..and sentosa i can't upload just yet.
It's in a process of being sent over from yanti.=)
cheers!
tc,!
-izni

2007-06-05T21:52:00.000+08:00

hey ho..
updates.
currently in a very2 happy mood.LOL.
have no idea why.
didn't go out today.
Oh gosh.
I so miss the beach.
was suppose to go yesterday but was sick.
Today..mum nagged early in the morning and that shoo-ed my mood away.
Went for a jog just now just to get fresh air.
While jogging i saw the cute 'korean' teacher of mine.
He was fishing.LOL.
he was rather embarrassed when he saw me. He looked so cute yet nerdy with reading glasses.LOL.
well smiled and continued my jog.
Sat infront of the computer munching all the way.
Have nothing better to do.
Study..ermm..i'm not feeling it just yet.
Okay.
What else.
Oh i kept viewing amir's profile i have no idea why.
MY GOD!
I must be crazy.
Well anyways.
Going to have session this friday!
Woots.!i can't wait.
I love LDL.
Let's produce music.FAD!!MISS YOU LAH SEH!
BADOT! ADI! PENYU! YAT! IPAN! ZART!

LOOP-DE-LYE back in business........(sister don't tell mum..)

Oh it's fariz's birthday today.!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
heard they are going to the beach on thursday to celebrate.if that is so..maybe i'll be going.i guess.
Hurhur...currently chatting with zura and zuu.
Woohh..they're coolness.
coolness..talked as though we know each other.
Okay planning to go out with the byrds...yeahh..
girls day out.
Yeahness.
PICK A DAY!
and we'll all go out.=)
ok that's all.
take care.
byes.
cheers!
-izni
iii reecckkoonn ii llliikkee hhiimmm..dooess heee liikkeee mmee?
OOHH MMYY !!!
i miss my chicks.---MIZAH!MEY!TASHA!KECIK!YANTI!

2007-06-04T21:41:00.001+08:00

Hey-lo.
updates.
okay lets start.
Didn't go to the beach as planned by tasha mey and kecik.
well..they did.i didn't.
i was SICK!
i had no idea why.
I've been having this headaches ever since the eyebrow piercing.
Does it have to do with the eyebrow piercing?
Hope not.
Oh gosh.
Well..i had to meet up with them.
I don't want to be a person who gives false hopes to the loved ones.
LOL.
so yeah.
As soon as i woke up in the afternoon i called them up and off i went to meet up with them at vivo.
Tasha had a tanned body.I love seeing it.
LOL.
They had a friend whom i didn't know but they called him barbecue pork.lol.
Well sat with them a little while before taking a stroll at vivo.
Had fun laughing and giggling.Oh my head was spinning.I had to control it though.
Headed off to town since there wasn't anything entertaining at vivo.
We alighted at Daugby Ghout? is that how you spell it?
Anyway.....
Walked all the way to orchard.
I love to walk so we did.
Reached orchard.
Saw aidah and amri.
Aweee..they look so sweet together.
Headed to coffee bean at wheelock place?
Is that how you spell it?
LOL.
My spelling really sucks.
LOL.
anyway.
Sat at coffee bean.
Drank pure chocolate.
and ate chocolate brownie.PLUS.bites of a strawberry cake..plus..chicken sandwich.YUMMY!
It made me bloated!..Just two course meal and i was full.
I wonder how the white people eat 6-7 courses of meal for their dinner in restaurants.!
GOSH!
We headed home at around 7.
All of us were tired.
I alight at lakeside.Walked home.
Yanti called me along the way.
Chatted with her for about an hour.
Meanwhile..........
on msn....
i chatted with horny farhan.
lol.
and amir......
yes amir..the one i use to have a crush on when i was in secondary 2?
yeahh.
oh gosh.
i couldn't believe i chatted with him.
But that was reality.
I felt awkward.even though it's like through msn.
I acted natural.
chatted with him...
All memories ran through my mind.
A quick flashback.from secondary 2 all the way up till now.
All bad moments.all happy moments.EVERYTHING.
I just stop.and stared at my computer.
Oh my.....
SO much has indeed happened and past.
*Reflecting*
Well
anyway..
Just now.
lots of people from my past.
as in really2 my past..
Those guys.
messaged me.NOT BRAGGING.
But the truth is i couldn't be bothered.
My handphone is spoiled.
So i don't know whose number it belonged to.
I'll reply "who r u?"
When they tell me who they are.
I couldn't be bothered to reply.
wonder why..
oh well..that's good anyway.
Back to amir.......
lol.(what the hell?!)
Hrmm..
i don't know why.
but i kind of miss him.
weird.
i don't want to betray bubul.she's like a sister to me.
But then again.....
I don't know why....
That feeling.
That i still like him?
i guess.
I wouldn't say the feeling i use to have is there.
That was the childish me back when i was 14.
Now.
its the new me.
I know better what's right and wrong.
For now.....
I guess it's infactuation.
How can i like LIKE a person just after one short conversation with him..
It's ridiculous.
He may already have someone else in mind..How can i just bulge in to someone elses life.
oh what crapp izni!
Then again..Oh this feels utterly weird!
-okay had fun just now.
-Tomorrow with mizah.
-Thursday with farhan and gang.
Gosh..
I'm seeing so much of SENTOSA.
Beach life.
oh what the hell.
lol.
okay that's all.
tc.
cheers!
-izni
P.S.Yanti cheer up!

2007-06-03T17:16:00.000+08:00

Hello.
Days have been hectic.
I've been going out a lot.
Haven't opened the books to study yet.
What's happening to me?
I guess i need my time out from all those enjoyment and start to study huh.
Anything new?
Hell yes!
Eyebrow piercing.
It isn't painful AT ALL. Lip piercing is more harder to take care off.
But make sure if anyone wants to do piercing, you sterilize the pins first to avoid infections! That's an important advice.!
Thanks to tasha.=)

What's this.
There's this feeling.
In me.
I have no idea what.
But it isn't good at all.
The more i follow on to it.
The more I feel down.
Why?Why?Why?
I guess my life's perfect now.
Family..Friends..What is it?
It's down to this few friends that i feel they're the best.
Been there for me.
Well they are the ones who will get my sacrifises.
Apart from family, they will always get my sacrifises.I don't need to think twice for that.
What is it?
Oh gosh.
This is killing me.
Boyfriend?
Oh FUCK that.
I don't need that at the moment.
Boyfriends.
There're useless.!
Why should i waste my time for them.
They only give you high hopes.
They leave a scare on you that makes you feel unconfident of yourself.
It drops your self-esteem.
Because they're heartbreakers.
Why drewl on guys.
oh god.
Get a gripp!
The only guy a girl could depend on is her daddy.
I'm not saying this because i'm trying to be strong.
But i swear.
I realise this and even how empty it feels to have no boyfriend when everyone else has their own boyfriends.Well beat it.You're strong just as you are because you're standing independently alone by yourself and you're still surviving.
Not saying those who have boyfriends can't stand.
Well, they just have a little more that you don't.That is to be loved.
Well singles.you're loved too.
But it's presented in a different way.
So don't worry.
Well..i can't denie the fact that the feeling i'm currently having is the feeling of being empty inside.
But i know i have to face it.That it's better to be this way then to have a boyfriend.I'm more confident now.I have to fight this feeling.
Thank you to the people around who makes me feel occupied.
Singles...don't be bastards and bitches.
those Attached..make full use out of this relationship.

So empty yet so occupied.
Single but unavailable.
=)
cheers!
-izni.

2007-05-31T22:10:00.001+08:00

Updates.
People2.
please check out my exits.There is a link called eveclothings.
Please check it out.
The clothes sold are pretty cool.
I'm just trying to promote the website.Well if you are trying to find new and cheap clothes do check out the website.
okay?
It's just a click away so don't be lazy to check it out.move your fingers.!
Okay let's move on.
Updates.
What has happened currently.
let see.
Oh yeah.
Mey cut my hair for me yesterday and i love it.Its freaking cool and vouge!
It feels so me.
Then that bob hairstyle of mine i used to have.
CLAP FOR MEY.
She cuts damn well!
Other then that.went to changi at night.
With family.
The ria mistery jam 12.is really cocky.LOL.It's not really that hair-raising type of thing.
What else.
Oh.stayed home the whole day today.
Slept.
For the whole day.
Went for a jog in the late afternoon.
Happy birthday to Zana.
Sorry i couldn't make it.
I had some issues.
I reckon i had too much of rest already.
Tomorrow since i've got no plans, i guess i'm going to stay home and study, do revision and go for a jog in the late afternoons.
I just feel that my bulges are too much and i need to cut down some weight here!
Hopefully by the end of the june holidays my weight will go down to what i want.
And also study.
That's what i plan to do during the holidays.
i'll go out once in awhile.
To the beach or something like that.
okay.that's all.
Oh and i can only meet kai in the mornings now.
damn.nevermind it's okay.
mizah, mey, tasha, kecik and yanti they are the best.
i love them.
I WANT TO GET MY EYEBROW, MY NOSE AND MY LOWER LIP PIERCED!
I DON'T CARE!
BY THE END OF THE HOLIDAYS.
I'LL LOOSE WEIGHT.
I'LL HAVE MORE PIERCINGS.
I'LL BE MORE BRAINY AND READY FOR O'LEVEL.
that's all.
tc.
cheers!
-izni

2007-05-29T18:19:00.000+08:00

Currently...

Just sitting my ass down infront of the computer.

Lethargic plus glummy makes the day today.

Went to school in the morning.

Went to dnt buy i guess it was a waste of time for some people.

Well that's none of my business.

I wanted to pierce my eyebrow just now.

But oh well, my hollow pin was already blunt and it was ardous to pierce.

So i'm going to get a new hollow pin soon!

Yeahness.

Okay i don't know what's up with me

But i've been listening to much of punk and that type of songs.

Kelly Osborne is coolness to me.

That's all.

Yanti i want my pictures.

Haiya.!

Take so long to upload.

okay whatever.

Let's go play pool again!

i want.

i feel like going to the beach.

My mood of going out alone again has come.

i have no idea why.

off to cut my hair.[[yeahness.i cut my own hair by the way.]]

okay wots.

k go,.

cheers!

-izni

fucking cool trombone.first time i come across a trombone with so many colours on it.

2007-05-28T22:03:00.000+08:00

Mother Tongue O'Level examination.During the study period.LOL.

Self obsession.hurhur.Destress from study.take photo.=)

2007-05-28T21:19:00.000+08:00

updates.
hello to people.
it's been days since i last updated my blog.
yeaha.
so here goes.
currently feeling lethargic!
wooh!
walked non-stop from J.E. to home plus lots of turns from one place to another.
So it's further then you think it is.
Not only was my legs tired from walking so was my mouth.
Didn't stop talking and laughing too!
gosh.
Had lots of fun with zaidi, wan, yanti, khairul and jun liang.
Went to jun liang's place to play pool.
okay coolness.
i can play pool now.
with practice ill be better.
hopefully better than zaidi?
LOL.(fat hope!)
Went to eat after that at the entertainment with zaidi, wan, khairul and yanti.
Had trouble deciding what we wanted to ate.
LOL.
LJS was our option in the end.
We talked and talked.
uptil late afternoon before making a move.
Zaidi wanted to buy contact lenses.
Since he was late for the appointment at his place.
He walked with us(me n yanti) to our place.
LOL.
taught zaidi how to wear contact lenses after that.
was funny.
LOL.
handicap toilet.
Good idea izni.!
LOL
tomorrow dnt students.
be dazzled by zaidi's new look.
LOL.
had mt o'level paper.
not bad.
not that hard.
okay other then that nothing much.
went to CS gig.
FUN!
COOLNESS!
well..had fun with LDL as well.
everyone was there except for adi and zart.didn't get to see damn.
oh i miss adi and his afro hair.!..eerrrmm..his botak now!.hint2.
lol.
only stayed for the first show. couldn't stay longer due to o
level on the following monday that is today.
oh yeah.went to kai's house before that.fad tagged along.
fad kecoh kan?
lots of vulgar huh with him.
oh well.
standard.
okay.
that's all.
so cheers everyone.
have fun holiday-ing.=)
-izni

2007-05-22T15:28:00.000+08:00

Hey.
updates.
i deleted my most recent entry.
i reckon it was too much of a personal attack to some people.
Nevertheless it shouldn't be posted.
To much revealed.
Oh well.
I feel very deprived.
Depressed.
Demoralised.
Triple D!
teehee.
Anyway.
I guess i have a high standard when it comes to expectations towards flingers.
But now.
i guess i'm feeling this way because i lost the person i was deeply in love with before this.
So when i get someone new, i'll cling on to them.
But then.
Not that dude because i'll just be breaking my heart even more.
He got so many girls flinging with him.
I'm making myself suffer.Which sucks.When i'm just flinging and i DON'T want to have boyfriends until i'm 18.
But this feelings just keeps making me feel down.
At times.
I feel that i really hate all guys.
Exept those from my school that is.
They are cool.
I mean they're different from other guys out there.
Well to me because i can be straight forward to them if they are nonsensical with their love life.
Teehee.
I do advice them.
Well my advice are neutral not siding guys or the girls.
So yerps.
I helped some people...n i feel like a love doctor the one who cures those that were being spitted on,pushes a person to be more confident when he/she is afraid to face the other party or clueless on what to do, help those who are confused with their feelings and obviously reprimands those who toy around with the other party's feelings.Cool ey?
Oh yeah..not forgetting those who have relationship problems.
Always have a postive mind towards your relationship.Because if you think negatively, it will simply show that you would want the relationship to end.
Forget EGO!
This word will always make a relationship fail to last long.
When you don't give in.You will never solve the problem.
Let it go and move along happily.
Okay..why am i typing all this?
I'm suppose to tell people about my day and all!
teehee.
Anyway, i don't wish to have feelings for that particular someone.
It's useless.
Just a friend is cool enough.
Gosh.
I can help people with their love life.
But i can't help myself.
IZNI, APPLY IT TO YOURSELF.
teehee.
I guess i shouldn't be thinking about all this for now,right.?
It's just making me feel bad.
And it isn't healthy for me.
Izni.
Make another promise to yourself please.....
1) Do not have a boyfriend until you're 18.
2) If the boy has a girlfriend don't hesitate to let him go because it's useless.
Think how the girlfriend may feel then.She will be more heartbroken than you.
3) Do not get to know guys for now till you're 18.In other words, do not accept when guys want
to get to know you.
4) Always make it a priority that you're friends are far more important to those dudes out
there.
5) Never get distracted with guys when you're studying.
6) Don't feel down or angry when it comes to all these guys.
You shouldn't feel that way when he is not officially your boyfriend.He may just be a flinger.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Izni you must be strong. Just like before. Be more confident.
Don't matter if they are not on to you.Who cares. Why bother.
Why hurt yourself. You got so many people who loves you and appreciates you as the way you are.
So smile.=)
For now, i hope that someone is loyal.To those who knows about this, then you would understand what i'm talking about.
As i was saying.Just be loyal to that someone.Don't matter that person is a flinger.He isn't your boyfriend.
If that person isn't loyal to you, then you don't have to be loyal to that person anymore, okay?
Don't be sad then.It is best if you stay neutral to all cause just like before.Remember who you are to that person. You're not more that what you are.HE IS NOT YOUR BOYFRIEND.
okay.
that's all.
I felt loved in school just now.
The company by everyone was pleasant.
Thank you.
To my 10 people who i'm close with.
Thank you.
teehee.
okay that's all.=)
smile always.
cheers.
study hard.
pray hard.
stay healthy.
have fun.
take care.
God bless.
-izni

2007-05-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

Hey.
updates.
well there is nothing to update.
hrm.
teehhee.
school been great.
results kind of suck a little bit.
Okay.
thats all.
hrm.
sorry if my entry suck.
Seriously nothing interesting has come up.
Oh yeah.
Please do support Comic Strip on the 26th Of May.(Esplanade)
Please visit my sister's blog as well.
She is selling off her clothes and needs buyers.
Damn cool clothes.
And more to come.
http://eveclothings.blogspot.com
okay that's the link.
Oh cheers to tasha.
Hehe.
Happy birthday to Zaidi. (Please tag after reading my blog please.)
Thanks for saying that me and yanti your closest buddies?Tehee.
Felt honoured for a minute there.LOL.
Sorry wasn't able to turn up at your birthday party.
Hope the cookies will do?
Happy advanced birthday to that girl.
Hehe.
Suaidah.
Oh yeah..
darling..L-O-V-E.?
We'll sing it together during MT class again.
hehe.
That's all.
Cheers to everyone.
Oh yarh to kai.
Cheers to you to mate.*eyebrow thingy*
hehe.
I'm talking crap.
I'm like writing all this making people confuse right and wonder what on earth i'm talking about right.
Never mind.
Those who know.
Then good for you.
Those who don't.
It's okay.....
hehe.
That's all.
Cheers!
Take care!
-izni=)
P.S.I've moved on.But i kind of miss you.That's all.By the way, you showed me not to like guys anymore which is damn coolness for me right now.cheers to hadi.!*This isn't sarcasm *=)
-Mizah
-Aisha
-Mey
-Tasha
-Yanti
-Fad
-Mui Wei
-Zaidi
-Fariz
-Khairul
-Shamir
-Hazwan
-Imran(Graduation night partner.teehee)
Not in any order..
But i think you guys are the best i ever had cheers!.Sorry if i happen to miss anybody out.=)

2007-05-14T18:53:00.000+08:00

Hey
EXAMINATION PERIOD IS OVER!
YEAHAH!
=)
i'm loving it.
hey to all peeps.
hehe.
My day was fun.
Went to queensway with tasha.
Tomorrow going to spend my day at mey's place.
Movie marathon.
Since 4B isn't going to have one.
We'll be making our own.
yeaha.
hehee.
hrmm.
what else.
oh yeah.
there was a small kid in the bus.
Cute!
But he turned un-cute when he hit my head.
Arghh.
Wanted to bite his hand off.
But laughter made me forget all about it.
Made plans with fariz this saturday.
Coolness right?
Yeah!.
We going out to town i guess.
He is NOT my boyfriend.
But my close guy friend since secondary 1.
So yeah.
We been in the same class through out our lifes in hong kah.
Wonder how is it going to turn out.
Hopefully fun.
Anyways.
My hair can be accepted in school!.
I guess i'm going to take it out only when it's freaking messy.
I want to go to town and all on saturday with my afro head.
So yerpS!
i'll take out my conrows on saturday.
I got 46/70 for malay paper 1.
45/70 for malay paper 2.
Is that okay?
Mum says its pretty bad.
Oh well.
Everything's going fine for me now.
No problems.
Studies and enjoy is what i'll do now.
Maybe he still in my mind.
But not as strong anymore.
Besides, i'll only think about relationship when i've reached 18.=)
Single and narcissism is all in me right now.
tomorrow going to crash at mey's place.
We'll have fun for sure.
I'm loving my conrows!
Okay that's all.
I don't have anything new in life.
Oh yeah!
i do.
Since mum doesn't allow me to go to australia on my own and to spend my days at Jen's place.
To think of it, it maybe what mum says is kind of true.
I may trouble her a lot.
To the fact she has school and all.
So yeahh.
I'll be going to Shang Hai(China) during the holidays.
Go with my grandmother.
Return home alone.=)
Coolness ain't it?
yeahah!
Shang Hai here i comE!
that's all.
take care.
-i miss you-..just a little bit.
I love all of you guys who fill my days with laughter.
I love my family.
I love me.
My life ROCKS!
=)
Cheers!
-izni

2007-05-13T15:19:00.000+08:00

updates.
Tomorrow is the last day of the examinations.
I have no mood for it.!
Thought of studying after tuition.
By the way..
hehe.
i scolded a middle finger to a bangla just now.
He was staring at me.
And it pissed me off.
So yeah he deserve it.
teeheeeheee.
But headed home after that.
Staring at the computer.
Listening to songs.
That's about it.
Comic strip performing on the 26th of May.
Yeaheh!
Especially to the horns sections.
GoodLuck guys.
hrmm.
now my mind is fixed on australia.
or shang hai..
=)
i miss him......
just a little bit though.
I'm into caucasian guys now!
They are hot!!!
No malay guys.
No indian guys.
No chinese guys.ermm..maybe..hehe
Caucasian guys!YES!YES!YES!
-izni

2007-05-13T02:49:00.000+08:00

Updates.

had tons of fun!
yerps.
Saturday.....
WAS FREAKINGLY FUN!
teehee,
Went to town(FYI.i hadn't gone to orchard this year!)
Went to take neoprints after so long.Mey and tasha.
Hrmm.i feel very bad that they are always paying for my expenses when i'm out of cash..
I'm not used to it.
And i'm feeling poor!
I hate it.
Start to save up izni!
Anyways.saw my cousin there.hehe.shaminee.
coolness.talked to her a little while before moving on to the next destination.
Bought mum a cookie on stick kind of thing at famous Amos.Hehe.
For Mother's day.
It wrote i Love mum on that cookie.
Well went to esplanade as per usual after that.

It rained heavily there.

sucked.

but the rain stop soon after...

Celebrate tasha's birthday by 7 plus.

Tasha had cake all over her face.
And adanan was there with us too.
It's his birthday too.
The guys gave him a piece of cake on his face too.
Huahua.
haha.
Well.
Headed off from the esplanade after that.
Saw comic strip vocalist and boyfriend, guitarist, and saxophonist.
Was confident that i would see the rest of them later on.
Comic strip..huhu..envy their band lots.
Their bonding is soo soo close with each other.
Okay..
lets just continue.
Saw hendra and sri at the memo.
They were having session!!
Coolness.
So approached hendra.
Kind of miss having sessions at admiralty though.
So he complimented my hair like alicia keys.
Wohoo.
at the same time criticised me said i looked like a minah.
the only thing that went through my mind was.
OH SHIT!NO!.I'M NOT ONE!
teehee.
Bit goodbyes to sri and hen.
headed off after that with my friends.
SOMETHING FREAKY HAPPENED!
Jo was taking a picture while opening the door of an unknow car.
The first pic wasn't cool.
So he took another.
Izat was the photograher.
When he looked back at the second photo.
There was an unknown figure/object next to jo.
It had a figure of a person!.
Freaky ain't it?!
So went off.
I headed towards the airport.
While the rest headed home.
Met family members there at the first terminal.
Ate burger king.
Too many people at swenson!
So ate burger king while we all sat at the viewing hall.
Aeroplanes fly pass.
Looked at people departuring.
I so want to go back to australia.
Can't wait.
Told mum that i want to go out of the country during june.
Not going to city hall after end of may.
yerps.
I told mum about my plan to go to australia.
Stay over at Jen's place.
teehhee.
Just need dad's approval now.
And i can go!!
Well.
another destination would be shang hai.
that one is confirm if i want to go i can.
Mum and dad would allow.
because i can stay over at aunt's place.
well everything is undecide.
Should make plans now before it's too late!
So yeahh.
Was thinking about all that while i was there.
I didn't want to head home.
I love the airport.
Tehhee.
It was mid night.
And we all headed home.
Wished mum and happy mother's day again.
Reached jurong.
Talked to aunt and all until 2 plus.
Uncle had a lot of stories to share about his army days.
teehee.
super notorious kid he was!
Head home then.
had tonnes of fun yesterday(saturday) and plus a little of today(sunday).
hehee.
ok that's all.
I wish to go to the airport on monday if possible.=)
Didn't saw that dude by the way just now.Happyness.!
Saw his friend though.
A stare and a smile that was it.
My heart was beating so fast..
Nervous.
Just for a little while.
Was okay after that..
=)
Izni try to forget him.
Get a boyfriend when you're 18.
study and enjoy for now okay?
COOLNESS.
Australia.
Australia.
Australia.
Australia.
Australia.
-izni

2007-05-11T22:11:00.000+08:00

Hey.
halu2.
to everyone.
hrm
examinations are almost over.
one more day to go and ill be hooraying.
well.
not really.
my results are going to be disastrous to the fact that i didn't complete most of the papers.
Oh gosh.
Well i can study during holidays.
Adi(LDL) going to help me with my mathematics.Coolness huh.
Yerp2.
Thanks mate!
I did conrows!
FINALLY.
Thanks to my aunt.
Well i prefer the one she did for me when i was 14.
haha.
Long time huh since i did that hair of mine.
Yeah my hair got lots of problems.
Damn it so couldn't achieve like how she did two years back.
My hair is freaking tight.
Its pulling my scalp.
Aunt couldn't do the 3 plaits.
I mean when you plait someones hair it would be 3 strains together right. But aunt did 6 plaits.
And eight if i'm not mistaken.
Huahua.
So yerps.it's freaking tight.
I love it.
Anyway,
Going to celebrate tasha's birthday at esplanade tomorrow.
I've been going out with them lots.
As in tasha and mey.
I miss mizah.
Was happy to see her yesterday.
Wanted to give her a big hug.
But hey.
We're cool.
Cool girls don't hug.
haha.
Anyway.
So want mizah to come down to esplanade tomorrow.
Celebrate altogether.
Well.
Got my upper lip pierced again.
So i got my upper and lower lip pierced.=)
Baked cookies.For the first time ever on my own.Turned out to be freakingly delicious but out of shape.
haha.
Other than that.Hrmm.
Nothing else right.?
So yeah.
Exam period was stressful but greatness.
Because it gets me all brainy and get away from everything that has been bothering me.
By the way to that someone.
Want me to mention names?
Better not he doesn't like it.
The person who reads this and who is at guilt will know that he is the one at fault.
And to be more specific its a male okay?
Here goes.
Dude.
I can type whatever i want in my blog.
It's mine.
I have never critise someone on my blog even if i hate the person to the core.
Other than that.
Other than i didn't know that saying i love or like or telling what my heart has to let out on my blog is actually critising or saying things that aren't true.
How is that possible.
This is my online diary.
Whatever is written here is my thoughts and feelings or whatever happen to me in my life.
How can i lie about what happened or what i did.
Ridiculous.
Next time, think 1000 of times before sending me that message.
And Damn you for sending me that message while i was studying.
Wasted my time.
Also.
i don't appreciate it when someone accuses me of doing something.
To Hell with them!
First about the fight.
Next this?
What the hell.
Don't you investigate situations.?
Jumping into conclusions should be the last thing you do.
Can't you just stop with all this crap that you are pulling on to me?
It bugs me a hell lot.
I'm just distant-ing myself away from you and keeping myself quiet and yet you come by
start accusing me with all this crap?
Who is the one who is full of shit now?
Me or you?
Immature!
And everytime you accuse me you say someone told you about it.
Come on.!
Believe that person so much?
Yes that person is the one being the devil indisguise.
I'm NOT creating anything here.
I'm just minding my own business.
Letting out whatever is in my heart and mind into my blog.
And help others that are in trouble if something occurs infront of my eye.
I can't be just standing there doing nothing right?
Come On!!!!!!!!
Oh god.
Stop it with all this nonsense!
I haven't been messaging you or communicating with you.
It's a good thing for you.
No one to bother anymore.
So don't find fault with others just because you find it weird that they aren't on you anymore.
Seriously it was fun and all back in the memories.
But now.
Things change.
And i seriously hate it now!
Well whatever with that.
I've made up my mind.
Ridiculous but true.
Kill me if i'm not fulfilling what i promise to do.
I PROMISE THAT I'LL ONLY GET A BOYFRIEND WHEN I REACH THE AGE OF 18.
crazynesS?
well that's the truth.
I want to enjoy my life for now.
Maybe go on dates.
But no strings attached.
Nextly, during examination period,
there wouldn't be time for me to entertain a boyfriend.
So this year i'll be sitting for my O'level examinations.
Following year, my TEE examinations in Australia(Admissio to University).
And by then i'll be 18.
So yerp.
=)
hehe.
What else.
hrmm.
nothing more?
Errr.
yanti i miss you.
I haven't been exercising!
Mizah i miss you.
hehe.
Oh people2.
take care have fun.
Have good rest.
Enjoy..
=)
-izni

2007-05-07T14:24:00.000+08:00

Updates.

I feel like i'm a living zombie.

I've only slept for 2 hours since yesterday.Been studying since god knows when and this is my break.Chemistry and Mathematics together one day can go make a person go nuts.!

Oh gosh.

I hope i do well in my examinations.

Going to take POA and English paper 2 tomorrow.

POA!

The rest are studying.

I don't feel like studying right now.

I've used too much of my brain juice and i'm exhausted.

What else.

hrmm.

Studies have put my mind off somethings.Which is good!

Yet it's making my head spin till it feels like falling off.

Haven't been eating right either.Which is good because i lost weight.!

Yeahaaa!

Heard that my didn't do well for English paper 1.

Oh god!

By the way.

Saturday.

Was disastrous.

I mean was happy studying with tasha and mey.

Saw hadi and everything went wrong.

He said i look arrogant.And very unfriendly.

What can i say..

It's my nature.I wouldn't want to look like a fool infront of someone who already spitted me on the floor.

Even though i have not moved on.

Yet, i should still pluck up my courage.Be more confident.

Saturday is a smoking day for me.yEaha.

yes.

i'll smoke like hell because i need to study during weekdays and put all bad habits aside.Izni a few days left.Endure!

okay.

The Heart wants to say something.....

Saw hadi's ex girlfriend pic.

She is PRETTY!

Oh god.

What am i compared to her.

Well,

what can i say.

she adds me up but she doesn't even communicate or say anyting.

I hate it when girls do that.

I love making friends with girls because its obvious i'm still on to one person.

I wouldn't be bothered by guys.

Hrmm..........

I sent a message to my walking diary.

But i send it to him.Having to know that i'm used to messaging him and typing his no.

Releasing all of me.

I guess he thinks i'm paranoid.

Well I AM!

OVER HIM THAT IS!

On saturday.

I saw this couple.

the lady is freaking pretty.

Hot, sweet.

But her partner..Is obese and isn't good looking at all.

Which comes to show that.

Love is damn freakingly blind.

It was like ugly and the beast.

Just when i thought maybe the lady want to make use of him.

I saw a ring both their hands.

They are married.

How sweet.

Even if they aren't a match for each other.

It's the heart that counts.

Well.

maybe in my case.

I'm just not good enough.

boohoo.

izni got dumbed.

Oh whatever.

As for now.

Lets just work on Self-confidence.

Asked sister out to Gelare on friday.

Yeahness.

Hopefully she can make it!

Going out on saturday.

Then go meet tasha and mey for a little while and off i'll go.

you guys don't know right.

it's my little secret.To where i enjoy my date alone.=)

Tasha birthday coming soon.

cheers!

okay.

got to go.

ill update some other day.

got to get some rest and study again!!!

-izni

i love hadi.

okay?

shut up.

Happy advanced birthday darling.=)

2007-05-05T07:08:00.000+08:00

okay2.
i'm blogging, i'm blogging.
LOL.
okay.
teehhee.
what can i update.
oh yes.
it was hadi's birthday yesterday.
texted him up.send him a myspace birthday wish as well.
Examinations are on and i have been seeing lots of words and numbers.
Examinations have been alright though.Not hard.
I guess the real challenge isn't there yet huh.
Monday will be having my mathematics paper 1 and chemistry.
Oh god.My hair will either be turning white or will drop off from my scalp.
teeheee.
Well must be guessing why i'm up at this time huh.
LOL.
i'm blogging.off to studying after this.
Crazy pig(giler babi) right?
Missing mizah a hell lots.feel bad that i can't return her calls or messages.
Thanks to mey.
She treats me everytime i go out with her.
Feel bad and awkward though.
But thanks anyway.
Tasha and mey, THEY ARE NUTTY!
LOL.
YEAHNESS!
hehe.
PLUS MIZAH.Would be TRIPLE yeahness!
i'm happy that all of them can get along well with each other and that we all can have fun with each other.
Fad...........i feel as though i'm losing a friend.Sigh**
Yanti my walking diary and i love her.
But haven't been spending lots of time with her.
It's okay she understands me.=)
Family cool.
School Studies examinations.COOL!.
okay.thats all.
Nothing much happening around.
Well going to esplanade to study later.
Be shocked with what i'm going to where for people who are going to see me later.
teehee.
okay2.
*I MISS HADI BADLY*
But have to push him aside.
Make studies your first priority okay izni?
GOOD.
Go study for now.
=)
cheers
-izni
P.S.thanks for taking the initiative to tag my blog okay people?=)

2007-04-29T01:17:00.000+08:00

I guess if i wasn't to update..
No one would tag my blog right.Obviously.
Its 1.21am.
It's way pass my bed time.
My day was fine.
Saw my cussin.
Went to study at esplanade.
Did my folio and mother tongue with yanti and hazwan.Met mey and kecik there.
Mizah tagged along.Had lots of fun.
The day before had an arguement with hadi.The fight that occured two weeks ago still continues.
People(skinheads) really think i'm the one whose behind this?
If i were to know the person who came up with that idea that i was the one who is behind all this. Say your prayers.
To that guy who is in the same school as me.
You're so dead.
I want to confront him.
Coward. Thanks to him all this happened to me.
Why must people be so bad.
Why must people bad mouth me?
Don't they have better things to do?
Would you people think i actually had the time to set everything up?
Shitty.
And to hadi.
Egoistic.
Narrow-minded.
I can't believe he didn't trust me or believed me.
Making me feel bad as per usual.
It's always thanks to you that my days are gloomy.
Why can't i let him go?
People say with time the wound would heal.
It doesn't.
Believe me when the love is freaking strong not even time will heal.
Must i always feel bad when it comes to weekends?
It sucks.When weekends suppose to be great.
I'm home alone right now.
I'm pissed off with mum ruining my weekends.
It's good enough that i'm actually returning home early on saturdays.
What else?
Can't you just fulfill your promises to bring me out?
When i return home late you say i'm the reason you can't go out.
When i'm home you go out without me!
What's all this?
Sitting home alone makes me scared.
Not because of all those super natural things.
But it makes me think.
About life.
About future.
About past.
About what's happening to me currently.
School.Studies.Examinations.
I reckon i'm not pushing myself hard enough.
I really need my time alone.
But when i'm alone, i feel inferior.
Not because i'm aloner and can't do stupid things and if i was to do those stupid things i would be making a fool out of myself.
Not that.
It makes me think about everything.
EVERYTHING.
It hurts.
Very badly.
i regret my actions.*cries*
What i'm left with is studies.Get good grades.
Yet there's this other life that is a barrier between me and what i want to achieve.
I try.
But i don't think i'm pushing myself hard enough!.
Argh!.
I'm sad.
I'm infuriated.
I do have friends.
They really care.
I'm happy everything between me and sister is okay now.
But i can't find anybody who really understands me and will be there 24/7 just for me.
Well not really 24/7 but every waking hours.
Make me feel happy.
Know how i feel inside.
i found that once before.
Who really made me happy.
But now...g o n e.....
I wish that person return.
Make me happy.
Listen to all my blabs.
Be the one who entertains my crappyness.
Listens to me when i'm down.
Listen to whatever i say when i really need to let it out.
It's all gone.
I feel i'm surrounded by lots of people who care and love me.
But....It's just that feeling.That doesn't make me go *gaga* that my life is great.
Tomorrow..i mean today..There will be tuition.Doing my DNT with my DNT friends tomorrow.
Going to complete my english if i'm able to wake up early tomorrow.
Monday school.
Tuesday holiday.
i want to go out.
ALONE.
And i mean it.
Who cares if it's the same place again.
At least i'm alone.
By the way.
I'm not emo.
LOL.
-pheww..!-
i feel better that i'm actually letting this out.
cheers to people.
*I'm still in love with him a hell lots.Hadi.*
take care.
-izni

2007-04-24T22:57:00.000+08:00

I have no idea why i'm publishing a second entry today.
I'll make this quick because it's time to sleep.
As days turns into night.
My feeling for him grows.
And i dislike these feelings because i know he doesn't feel the same way towards me anymore.
And i don't use the word hate because it's to strong to use.
I have no idea why i suddenly want to post this up here.When just a few hours ago i was saying that i was almost over him.
This sucks.
Well.
I suddenly feel i'm turning back to what i used to be.
I want it to stop.
Be studious.
But yet.
Its hard.
Damn it.
I reckon andi feel that i have two personality.
One that wants to enjoy all the way.
The other which speaks for the good side to study and get away from all those thing that has been spoiling and poisoning me.
okay there goes.
Heck. I'm going to spend my days until next week alone.
So peeps in school my mood swing is back.
Not the part that will throw tantrum but the one who shuts up and doesn't speak to anyone.MIA on weekends.
I need to enjoy my fridays, saturdays and sudays alone(as usual-to reflect ya'll know) or with family.
Study okay izni?
Good girl.
Heex.
okay.
go.
thats all.
so much for a short entry huh.
i just remembered it would have been our forth month when the clock strikes 12 midnight.
should i text him up?
i reckon i should.
All the best of luck izni.
-izni

2007-04-24T15:59:00.000+08:00

hey ho.
hehe.
updates.
Firstly to people who view my blog.
Please please tag okay?
I don't mind whether it is critisicm or compliment.
Just tag okay?
Thank you.
If you find any of the vocabulary he quite ardous to understand go check the dictionary for the meanings okay?
I'm practicing for my english vocabulary right now because i suck BIG time at it.
LOL.
Hrmm.
Let's start.
My days have been kind of alright.
Everything has been going on fine this last few days.
I reckon i've gotten over hadi quite a lot.
Hrm.But like i said i don't plan to have a boyfriend.
And i'm having a new eye candy.*eyebrow thingy*
LOL.
yerp.
Not going to mention who.
He is Chinese.*hint2!*
What else.
Haven't been studying lots.haha.
Have no idea why.
Buck up Izni!
Well..i've been feeling very sluggish nowadays.
Have no idea why.
Well the plus point is that i haven't been sleeping in class.
Yeahness.
Coffee Keeps me away.
Thank you.
School haa been cool.
Family is the best.
Friends are damn cool.(MOST of them.LOL)
Well.
Hadi..hrmm.ever since yesterday, i haven't been thinking about him.My feelings for him faded away.Not all of it.But some of it.
I remember i fell into a state of melancholy when he wanted to break up with me.
Oh..that was then.
I may still think of him because i miss his presence.
Yet the LOVE isn't that strong.=)
I'm starting to love and appreciate myself and whatever is around me more.
Hrm,
Is it because i'm in a freaking good mood?
Yet.I still have that inferior feeling to be happy and gregorious as before.I wonder why.
Maybe my self-confidence level dropped.
Well i think it's time for me to stand up and get on my feet and be strong.Emotionally.
If i'm able to be go out alone and not feel lonely and not to feel dependant on others then this is no biggy.
Tomorrow is NAFA test.
I haven't been training like how i did before.
Food has been my companion since the break up.
lol.and i'm loving it.
okay.
I have nothing else to say.
Everything has been going on just fine for me.thanks to everyone who cheered me up in school at home and everywhere els.Especially dedicated to family and friends like tasha,mey,yanti,zaidi,nab,mizah,fariz,shamir,khairul,wan,brandon and Ian..Coolness you guys!
F.Y.I.
if all of you people who seen my myspace comments or friendster, if you noticed, there isn't any people whom i added or chatted through myspace and friendster other than girls.LOL i wonder why.
I guess girls are cool to make friends with compare to guys.
haha.
Crappyness.
Yes i know!
actually, i have no idea on what to update.
That is why all that i've typed here has got no links to anything.
Nothing intriguing has happened lately.LOL.
Okay sorry to post an insipid entry okay?
that about it.
take care.
Cheer to everyone.
Assalammualaikum.
-izni
P.S.Good luck to all F&N students.Do your best for your O'Level practical okay?.=)

2007-04-22T16:41:00.000+08:00

hey.
ho.
lol..
updates.
here goes.

many things have indeed happened.
Well.
fights..
crying..
being dejected...
feeling demoralised...
getting blamed..
many more.
yet..looking from the positive side.
It made me stronger in many ways.

Yes.
SYF..so what if we got a bronze.its still a gold in our hearts.
Why should we be ashamed.
We did our best.
We had last minute problems.
What do people know about what we've gone through.
And i'm proud of the band that they we stayed strong.
I'm loving HKMB.
From there we learnt much more.And appreciate each other more.
Never fail to hug or smile and say that we miss one another when we see each other in school.
Coolness right.
Examinations are indeed nearing.
I've been studying.
Yet i'm starting to get sick of it.
I know i shouldn't
I can't help it.
Been having fun.
Hadi is the only person in my way now.
Yes.
I've got to mention that.
If it isn't for him i would be the one who is cares less.
About everything and be happy and be smiling to everything that happens to me.
Yet nowadays i get mad to the slightest things.
And feel emotional and angry.
And ill start to think about him.
I can't get him out of my head.
Well.
I tried.
By returning his sweater as soon as possible.
Now.
I'm going to return him his valentine gift back.
I don't think it was a sincere present to me.
I thought he just felt bad that i bought him all those stuff.
And he wanted to return.
And the letter.
Meaningless.
Because it doesn't show anything anymore.
Everything's GONE!
People blame me for the things that i didn't commit.
Fights that i tried to help. I end up getting blamed and not appreciated.
It ok.
I don't need to feel appreciated.
At least do not blame me.okay?
I guess they know they owe me an apology.
I hate going to city hall every saturday.
Other then to study.
There isn't any point for me to go there.
Over rated malay population.
And to see his face every saturday.
It sucks.
Well.
at times to enjoy is okay.
But not often.
It will make you get adrift.
Okay?.
that's my advice.
Been in good terms with sister.
Yeahness.
Coolness.
Thanks.
I couldn't cry infront of her.
I did when i thought about what she told me.
Made me feel as though i've turned over a new leaf.
LOL

Nowadays.
I prefer being alone then going out with my peers.
I'll only spent time with them when i'm in school. Or...
i'll go out with them if they want me to help them with their chemistry and maths!
LOL.
my favourite subjects.
Yeah other then that.
sorry.
I got a date with Izni.
Mizah has been taking care of me so much.
thanks.
She like my BF.
LOL.
i'm no lesbo okay?
Well.
hadi.
I' still so into you.
Yet i don't want a boyfriend anymore.
All thanks to you.
I don't want to move on.
If i was to have a BF.
It would only be you.
Yeah.
In three days it would have been our fourth month together.
Yerps.
Well.
whatever.
Narcisscm is written all over my face.
-izni the best-
-Next comes mum-
-Next comes sis-
-Next comes Yanti and mizah-
-Hadi comes next-
-next comes yan-(mizah's bf.Don't mind)
-Finally It dad.-
okay?
ok.
Oh yeah..
not forgetting my cussin.
Hafiy=)
thats all.
Had dun with mizah.
yesterday.
She stayed over at my house for fun=)
Coolness.
Tc.
Everyone is being loved by me.!
Cheers.
Assalammualaikum
-izni-

2007-04-10T19:01:00.000+08:00

updates.

SYF.
in 6 days!
Oh God!
Hopefully my motivations to the band is working.
Sigh**

Hrm.
I've been giving the guys e.g.Faris, hakim, farhan and more a cold shoulder.
If they are to piss me off just once.
Oh god.
I just have no idea why i'm acting this way towards them.
If usually okay when it comes to being disturbed or whatsoever.
Not anymore though.
I've been acting different.
I think the only person that i can get along with is hazwan and zaidi in the class i mean.
To me they talk sense.Not that the rest don't but come to think of it they think far.They talk with standard.
Hrmm.i observe people more nowadays.
Not the way they look but the way they are.Character.etc.
Honestly, i'm kind off pissed with some of the seniors.
They aren't doing their job.
Well they do not show that they are committed.
Well even if they are putting in their effort yet come on its 6 days to syf.So a little bit more of "intensity and committed and set good example".
tomorrow.
The lower secondary assembly we going to perform just to get ourselves ready in a way.
Won't be attending Geography lesson.And some parts of mother tongue and POA if i'm not mistaken.
So, this comes to show that i won't have to bring my school books tomorrow!
Okay whatever.
Lets start with saturday.
Went out with fad,yat(with his girlfriend) , ipan(with his ex girlfriend) , badot and helmy.Met adi our vocalist.He was with his VL group.Oh yeah.Zart and Niz(our old vocalist.)Yes everyone was with their loved ones.
Even if they wen't with their loved ones, they already have a partner.
Unlike me.=(
Although that kind of turn me off a little.
I still enjoyed my night with them.
Smoking was the best part after not smoking for a long long long long time.
It only took a phone call from mum to bring my mood down.
Well.head home afterwards.
Brought hadi's sweater along hoping to bump into him.But i didn't.
Took photos.
Together with the band.Without the drummer, penyu.
While heading home.
A fight had occurred.
Rudies.
and matreps.
I support the rudies of course.
yet some of them are so so soft hearted.
No pride.
Hrmm.
Oh well.
head home.
Took the cabby from lakeside.
At home.
Fought with the boss of the house about some lame crapp.
And i really mean fight.
Fist and fist.=)
Had a drink and send me straight to bed afterwards.
LOL.
Sunday started with a hang over.
LOL.
yeah.
To the fact i had tuition.
Hrmm.
i could study because the hang over was gone soon after i showered.Had breakfast along the way to tuition.
Yes.I've not been eating home lately.
Even if i was to eat.
It wouldn't be infront of mum and dad.
Arrived early at the tuition centre.
Tuition sucked.
Well it didn't actually.
Mr koh just wanted us to be more responsive and not just to absorb and take in information and knowledge from him.He wants us to practice and try it out ourselves.that got him mad and infuriated.
Moving on,
went to esplanade afterwards with hakim and farhan.
I wanted to go alone but they wanted to tag along.
Well.
as they wish.
Hakim pissed me off.
And i couldn't be bothered with him after that.
Did my homework at the library.
They left soon after.
After they left, half and hour or so i left to after completing my assignments.
Someone approached me asking about my music talents.
LOL.
I bet some of you guys must have been approached before right?
Well since it was still early and had nothing better to do so i entertained the stranger who interviewed me.To my surprise, she didn't even know how to spell trombone.
Oh god.
How embarrassing!
well bumped into my cussin after that.
Didn't notice it was him until he approached me first.
Impressive.
My cussin going to city hall?
Lepak2.and jam.
WoohOo.
Hopefully i have a partner in crime in the family.**
LOL.
Went home after that.
Alight at boon lay and took the bus from there.
Bumped into hakim and farhan after that LOL.they took the bus and the bus was super slow.they said.
Met my junior who plays the tuba.
Bit goodbyes and i was off.
Monday.yesterday was alright.
Speech day rehearsal was disastrous.!
A very long day indeed it was yesterday.had chemistry test.and it sucked big time.I got 18.5/30!!..the highest is 25.that is that brainy kid, brandon.Mrs chuah didnt tell us that the test had other chapters.So unfair!
Went for a jog after that.
Was i damn sweating like a pig!
Saw billy and the rest at the park where i was jogging.
remembered when i used to jog there and to lepak after that till late hours.
Oh god!.
LOL.
Talked on the phone with hadi.
One word.Frustrating.
He kept on making me feel as though i'm in contact with other guys.
E.g. badot and yan(ex)
My god!.
I'm not contacting them, okay?
Hrmm.
i don't understand this.
His my ex.yet still acting like a boyfriend.
Well he jealous and having stupid thoughts on me.what the hell.
I'm not that sort of person okay?
hrmmp!
This sucks big time!
Well.talk to him and he kept on talking about badot and yan and blablabla.
are those the only guys he knows?LOL.
what the hell.
Maybe he is the one who is in contact with other girls.
HAH!
Well.
Whatever.
School was very tiring just now.
Had band practice.
Updates on SYF?
Yes.
Victoria and Temasek secondary school got gold with honours last two years.
The got a silver this year.
There is only one gold band.Yuhua.As per usual.
One COP band.
Many bands got a bronze.
It's like a curse this year.
Many CCA and schools getting bronze as a result for competitions!.
I'm scared.!
By the way.
Yesterday The band was very united!..I'm LOVING HKMB!
TODAY THE TROMBONISTS WERE VERY HARDWORKING.KEEP IT UP!
LETS GET ACHIEVE FOR A GOLD okay?
YEAH!.
Been doing my homework lately and i'm really free today!.No homework!.
I'm loving it.
I'm very very happy right now.
Okay.Anything give me a buzz to my home okay?
i haven't top up my credit lah!.
LOL
okay.
Good luck Pei Cai for your SYF tomorrow!
That's all.
Take care
cheers!
Assalammualaikum=)
-izni
P.S. To Fad.I know why you are feeling that way.It is a normal feeling.It's okay to "hate" that girl.It's like that.At first you hate the person because she is still loved by the person you once loved.With time, the hatred grows.To a point you really do not like her.What more if you were to see her face!.Sheesh!.so don't worry okay?..Or second possibility.You still not satisfied that he still wants her and she was the problem between the both of you.And maybe there is a slight jealousy towards her.Think positive.You moved on.Found a much much better person.Who is much much much more worth of you time. To me your current boyfriend is better.Stick to him okay?.Don't think to much about other people.Don't pay attention to other people out there.It may affect your relationship.Because to me when you are in a relationship, the world is been you and him.No one else.And everything would be perfect.I wish you and your boyfriend last long okay?.Coolness.=).

P.S.Hadi i love you.
P.S.Mizah i'm missing you..Can't wait till saturday.=)
IZNI GO AND STUDY!!

2007-04-06T21:37:00.000+08:00

Updates.

ok.

here goes.

LOL.

i feel so dumb.

i should have checked my spelling.

before hitting that key on my keyboard called enter.LOL.

Ms hikmah is so going to make me feel embarrassed in english class!

ok.Better tell you guys now!at least you know first and it wouldnt be that bad.

I spelled sew.as sow.how lame!.how stupid!.

okay.

whatever.

Lets start.

Fad came to my house yesterday with his bro.

Went to her place first.

LOL.

she needed to use the internet.

I *bubbled* her on wednesday.

So made it up for her yesterday.

Okay i lost weight.and i'm happy about it.

So got home.

Did homework while fad used the computer.

Straightened my hair.

Hrmm..i'm losing lots of hair now.

Have no idea why.

Met up with mizah too..she came over to grab her pants.Which is superly torn apart thanks to me.!.

I feel so bad. so need to pay her back when she gets back from paris.

Yes..

She's going tomorrow at 3pm.

And i haven't talk to her yet.

I miss her.

A lot.

Haiz.

thought i could go out with her today.

But she had plans with yan.

Well.

i don't want to interrupt their plans or whatsoever.

I understand.It's okay.

Well.talked to hadi.

He was super nice.

I have no idea why.

Hrmm.

I don't wish to talk to him often if suppose he talks to me nicely because i wouldn't want to fall for him again.I don't want to be hurt.

So yeah.

I tried to stay strong thinking about what we talked about last night and all.

Yeah.THINK IT AS A FRIEND2 TYPE OF THING!

sigh**

okay.

Mum was super angry when she got to know i was talking to him.

Simple reason she didnt me to fall for him anymore.

She said i gave to much to him.

I don't agree.

Well i reckon i did.
I took care of him.

Mum said why should i be hanging around him when he doesn't want me anymore.

Come to think of it, its kind of true.

But i'm still hard headed.

I know.

I'm his friend now.

Okay stop it with him.

Went out alone just now.

how cool.

Went to west mall to check the prices of the ranks.

The pinned on type of ranks are not sold there.

Anyone has any information about all this ranks stuff?

Please text me on msn or handphone.okay?

Thank you.

Anyway.

Went to esplanade.

Read my wonderful book that is overdue.

LOL.

Wanted to do my homework at the library but it was closed.

PUBLIC HOLIDAY.

Shitty.

Went to the roof top to do my homework.

Coolness.=)

Well.completed 3 compositions and my chemistry TYS.yeap!.

Super happy.Yet my head was spinning.

Too much for a day.

LOL.

Relaxed myself.

Before making a move.

Met ifa along the way home.

At the padang.

Yeah.

We were reading books.

Could you believe it.

LOL.

she was reading her book. And i was reading mine when u bumped into each other.

LOL.

She with her mohawg..LOL.

Iffa.The punk.

Yeah..

People change so fast huh.

Well.we just have to keep up with time.

Well.

i donated $2 to some ex-convict thingy.

LOL.

some older people were ashamed.Because i fork out the money while they couldnt be bothered.Sheesh!.

Well.some stupid indian dude.saw me donating from far.

He smiled at me.this sinister smile.

Scary.yet i plucked up courage.

I walked past him.

He said.man you people are really angels huh.and he laughed.

What the hell.

I didn't know what came into my mind.

I turned and said.Well actually you're just the devil that's why.

And i walked off.

LOL.

bloody hell.

Okay izni.Don't be surprise if one day you see yourself in the papers an article abut getting beaten up.

lol.

Okay.

i went straight home after that.

Engrossed in the storybook.

Time flew so fast.

Wanted to spend quality time with myself.

LOL.

hrmm.

well reached home.

And The Cinderella Story was on television.

I love shows like that.

Happy ending.=)

How sweet huh.

hrmm'

Fad said...........

Yat want to go out...

Tomorrow.....

well..

should i go?

Oh well....

Tomorrow.

Band exchange

starts at 8

Trombonists.

All must arrive at 7.30

PT in the morning.

LOL.

okay best!.

coolness.

Take care.

10 days to SYF.

sheesh!

is that all?

hrm.

err.

the house is super noisy.

I hate it.

Okay i'm ending it here.

I want to sleep.

Can't take it.

Anything leave me a message on my cell phone.And ill call you back.

take care.

I love Mr BT..

his juicy lips.

soo..nice too kiss.

can't wait to meet him tomorrow.....

Going to kiss him.

KISS HIM..

Stick my tongue into his Mouth...

Ill kiss him.till i can't feel my lips no more..

Awe...

i can't wait.....

haha.

you guys.

im talking about my bass trombone.MR BT.

haiya..

wrong idea huh.

No time for guys.

I mean there is for one guy.

LOL.

I like/love him.

okay?

haha.

take care.

See you guys around.

Toodles.

Assalammualaikum=)

cheers!

-izni-

Missing mizah a hell lots.

Narcissicm is me.=)

I'm missing Mr. BT.

And of course..Missing..

The nutty skinhead....

Sorry.I reckon.I'm not over him yet.

Dimi.My aussie crush.LOL.FYI

My current love.<<3.LOL

2007-04-03T20:04:00.000+08:00

Hello.

Its been ages since i updated my blog.

LOL.seriously had no time with the computer.

Studying is my first priority.

Thanks to studying, i actually could finally take hadi out of my mind.

Thanks!..to studying?..err..LOL.

But the disadvantages.

Studying has caused me not to take good care of my body.Yes.!.I guess everyone in school has seen the difference in my body.!

What i mean is..I'VE PUT ON WEIGHT!.

Eating.Eating.Eating all the way.

To the fact that i'll eat to make myself happy and destress.

Chocolate makes one feel happy.

Yerps!

Adding on to the fact that there is no time to go to the gym.

Firstly, its because school ends very late!.With band and rehearsals.

I'll reach home around 6 plus or later.

What a bummer.But i have to endure just for this two weeks or so.

Secondly, after school ends, face the comp for about half an hour before mum starts to nag at me to make sure i study.

Which sucks.BIG TIME!

I'll have no mood to eat proper food then and start to study a little bit before i dose of to my dreamland.

Which i don't even dream of anything as if i'm dead to reason that i'll be awfully tired.

I'll wake up around 2am or so to complete my homework and munch on junk food because there isn't any proper food left in the house.Even if there was, I would'nt want to eat it because its to heavy and will waste time in warming the food.*yadayadayada*.

Been feeling very gloomy and frustrated always in school.Have no idea why.

Mui wei thanks for understanding.

Putting on weight sucks.To the fact that people has been saying that i'm fat.

I KNOW!.

So stop saying it.

It irritates me!

I'm starting to have pimples.I hate it.!

Feel a lot smarter ever since i started studying.LOL.

At least i know what's happening in class.LOL.

I wonder why mum isn't nagging at me for using the computer now.

And i wonder why i'm not sleepy.

ok.

thats my day.

Band Rocks!.

I hate fariz for embarrassing me.

Happy birthday hashim.is that how your name is spelled?

OK.

Been in bad terms with my parents lately.So now you guys know why i'm always eating outside and not eating home to right?

OK smart people.

LOL.

Trombone mates are we confirm going out this friday?

I love you guys.

Off to do homework.=)

Here are some sentences that i find really cool in the storybook that i'm currently reading.It's called sweat your prayers.

Honestly, i didn't know what some of the sentenses meant due to the fact my language sucks.

Thanks to Ms hikmah who cleared my doubts.=)..

Well, see if you're as dumb as me.LOL.

Joking.

"To reach the light we first have to travel into the heart of darkness.After all, isn't light created out of darkness?"

"Energy moved in waves.Waves move in patterns. Patterns move in rhythms. A human being is just that, energy, waves, patterns, rhythms. Nothing more. Nothing less. A dance."

To sweat is to pray, to make an offering of your innermost self. Sweat is holy water, prayer beads, pearls of liquid that release your past, anointing all your parts in a baptism by fire. Sweat burns karma, purifying body and soul."

"Your parents gave birth to your body, and your body is the womb of your soul. The birth of your soul is a virgin birth, one you must do on your own. It's a labor of love, and we all know labor ain't easy. If you want to give birth to your true self, you are going to have to dig deep down into that body of yours and let your soul howl."

Take care.

Toodles~

Assalamualaikum.

-Iznieno.

To hadi:-Still in love with you even though i don't have the time to contact you.

To HKMB:-It's 13 more days to SYF.Please PLEASE..Put in all your effort before this big day.

Remember our goal..IS TO GET A GOLD!

TO ME:-LOOSE WEIGHT!.STUDY HARDER!

Cheers!

2007-03-29T19:14:00.000+08:00

Hello..=)
Its 18 days away from SYF.
That's the first thing that came to my mind.
Sigh*
okay..lets start.
Hrmm.
School was alright.Except when i got my maths test back.
i got 8 out of 25.
How pathetic!.
Izni stop wasting time and start to study really hard!.
DNT!!..Haven't even started!.
Another week going to end.How fast right?.
Sigh*
I'm not catching up with studies.
Time to pull up my socks really high up till my thighs!
LOL.
Okay jokes aside.
Back to what i wanted to write..
Tied up my hair in school.
LOL.and the curls were cool.
Natural..
I love my hair today.
LOL.
Was happy that i was able to cheer Nab up today.Well she was upset with her marks to.
I was angry with myself.She was sad.
Thanks to Mui Wei, she calmed me down and i was okay by the end of the lesson.
Nab was alright by the end of the day.
I didn't pass up my SS homework.
Sigh*
I'm not that type of person who doesn't do a homework.
Sigh*
i was so tired yesterday that i slept for 9hrs.
After so long i finally had a real sleep!.
I felt refreshed when i was in school.
Had band pratice.As usual.
Did some conducting.
Nervous is a great word to use at that point of time!.
I did okay though.
It takes a lot of courage okay!?
LOL.
Rehearsal tomorrow.Praying hard**hopefully i won't screw up!
Ended band a little late just now.
Mr hoe was quite happy with our playing towards the end of the practice!.
Iskandar was very entertaining just now.
Well, actually i talked a lot and he actually laughed and respond and listened to all my crappynest!.Is there such a word nadiah?..LOL.
okay moving on.
Went home straight.Searched for yanti but she already left with her bodyguards.
Ms hikmah still hasn't give up about me and hazwan.
Haiya!.
Wan is a friend!.
A childhood friend!
I would rather be a lesbian than to be with him!
ARGH!!!
LOL.
Okay thats about it.
Lame huh today's entry.
Whatever.
Dee i love your blog!.
Nadiah i still LOVE him!.
Mizah i'm so so missing you!
Fad i still feel very bad about what happened on saturday.Thanks to your guy for accompanying you huh.
Yanti don't be so stressed up with band.Do your homework.Okay?LOL.
Hadi i love you lots.
Mui Wei thanks babeh!.
Fatin i'm here to support you!.
Iskandar gile babi!
Okay..is that all?..
hrmm..maybe there's more to mention but i can't be labelling everything here.
My memory isn't so good!.
Tasha,mey,husna,didi,kecik..yeah.the best!.
Oh yeah.Yan..better be good when miza's away to paris.!..if not!.i'll ketok your botak head if you stress my friend too much!
LOL.
hrmm.by the way people.if you call my handphone at night and i don't pick up your calls it means i'm sleeping.Been sleeping early these few days.
okay?
Hadi sorry for not answering your calls.
Was asleep.
got to go.
Mum getting ridiculous each day.
I can't even spend an hour infront of the computer.
To the fact that i don't watch television often.
And No games because stupid bitch spoilt my television.
How cocky!
I hate it.
I guess she wants me to study like mad.
I will after my SYF!
Stop pressurising me!.
i need malboro mentol!.
I need my King Roberts.My vodka.!My amsterdam!.My baron!.My Klassic Q!.My Bacardi!.My Limonya!ARGGGGHHH!!!!Shits!.
No izni resist it all!STOP!STOP!STOP!
Sigh**
okay go.
take care.
Assalammualaikum=)
cheers!
-izni-

2007-03-28T19:07:00.000+08:00

today.
What can i say.
Hrm.
first of all, i'm glad that my entries are being appreciated by lots of people around.
Nadiahh..yanti..fad..didi.
LOL thanks for viewing.

Todays' updates.
Went to school as per normal.
Was kind of happy.
Wore a different skirt to school.LOL.
no more flarry2 skirt.
LOL.
Moving on.
Yanti really stress with SYF and O'level.
Release from dnt early.
As usual.
Had fun during Assembly.
Was craving for Orea chocolate ice blend.LOL..
rushed out of school with tash and nadiah.Thanks for accompanying me.!
LOL.
went to band straight after.
Had sectional.
Did my english homework because had to hand up on that day.
Wasn't happy with the band's attitude.
No one's actually worried about SYF.
Sigh*
No one is concern except for some.
Welll i appreciate and love those people who thinks so.
Keep up guys!.
What the rest are doing?..I can't say much.
What else.
At times we can have fun.
But for now lets struggle and push ourselves and put in all our effort for SYF that is like 19days away.!
Practice!.Practice!.Practice!.
Some people wants band exchange.
Honestly i don't think its beneficial.
It maybe for some people as they do as what they are told to do.e.g. They listen to other bands.See how good they are.
Look at what they are good at and apply to ourselves.
Instead of doing so, to me i reckon our band would only criticise other bands sound and more.
I reckon we should be more humble and see what they are good at and see what we are lacking off and apply it to ourselves.Really i'm not just saying this.But i really.really think so.
We should also not take it to hard.Accept comments given by others.Improve ourselves if the comments aren't positive.
Instead we blame them and saying they aren't musically inclined and they don't have a clue about music.
If to those who aren't musically inclined yet can hear that our sound is awful what more those professionals and judges whose going to judge us on SYF.
Other than that people will be going round asking for digits.
Sigh**
I don't mind.
But it just beats the purpose to why we are there in the first place.
Honestly, i'm very2 worried.!
I reckon we should buck up!..push aside all those conflicts and differences and bond together our relationship just for this few days so that we can get our sound together.
Ok band members.Pull yourself together.Its the last lap of the race.
We can achieve what we want if we do our best.!
Other than that.LOL.
i've got nothing better to say.
LOL.
Take care.
People do your homework.
O'level is so so near.
LOL.
see you people around.
Cheers!
Assalammualaikum
-iznieno-
P.S.I'm starting to accept the fact about hadi.Not so obsessed with him.I reckon i'm more concerned for my O'level and SYF than relationships.But whatever it is.
I'm still not going to give up on him.Simple reason.I LOVE HIM.and will always be my nutty skinhead!
single but unavailable.
To that misterious someone.It's so childish and ridiculous and immature to get to know someone through messaging or whatever.okay?.Sorry i couldn't be bothered.More better things to do.
Mizah i so miss u!
ok goo..

2007-03-27T19:12:00.000+08:00

Updates!.Updates!.
sorry bloggy, i haven't been updating you..lol.
I was only updating my template.lol.
cool huh the pictures on the right hand side of the blog.
LOL.
Credits to yanti for making those animations on those pictures.
Anyway.
Lets flash back to all those things that had happened.

Started tuition last sunday.
Super fun.
Went to esplanade afterwards to study.yeah fun2.
Was suppose to be my third month anniversary with hadieo montana.Sadly.
Talked to him on the phone and all.
Saw comic strip's vocalist at LJS.super friendly.
Monday was alright.That was like yesterday.
went to JE with yanti because our friend here was very careless and forgetful that she left her notepad full of homework and notes under the desk to the fact it was our first tuition lesson.
Oh yeah.Was 18 bucks richer!.
LOL.how cool huh.
Moving onn..
Talked to mizah the whole journey to JE and back.LOL.Sorry yanti.she needed me i guess.=)
Thanks for understanding.
Went home after that.
Went online..then...
Got to know somebody likes me.LOL..
Sorry dude I don't know if you like me as a friend or more.Whatever it is, i'm not into relationship or kenal-kenalans.
Reason..I'm not over him yet.

Waited till about 10 plus before calling him.

Yeah that's the only time i guess he free

Hoping for him to call..But turns out was yanti..and mizah's mum..
FINALLY at around 11 plus he called me up.
Apologising that he called me late.
Said he didn't even look or heard his phone ring as he chucked his phone somewhere because he was lazy to see his phone or whatever.He doesn't think a handphone is useful.
Oh well.
guess what.the call ended in 2minutes.what a brief one huh.
Put down the phone.
Couldn't sleep because i couldn't stop thinking of my maths test that was held the following day that is today.
My file's with my maths teacher.And damn i didn't have notes to study but had to depend on my textbook.Well, slept after that.
Woke up around 3.30..studied.yeah.I can only study in the morning..Quite surprising how i can be so active in school even if i didn't have enough sleep.LOL.
Went to school.Met with yanti before that.Placed fatin's trumpet at her house.
And off to school.
I got caught.As in for grooming.FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE!
I don't think my skirt is tight.
My skirt is the flarest among the malay girls skirts in class.
oh well..had to pay 12 bucks.Mum's screaming at my ears.haiyoo.
I failed my POA.which sucks.
I reckon my maths test i'm going to fail too.
Had rehearsal for speech day during band.
I wasn't confident with conducting just now.And i hate it lots.
I want to go out with mizah before she flies off to Paris in the week or two.
*sigh*..its ok.If she wants to go with her boyfriend.Go ahead.I understand...*rather speechless*
By the way to that girl..i pity her that she's pregnant.Oh well..how sad that an intelligent girl innocent looking like her could end up like that.Sigh**
well..I've put on lots of weight currently.
I can know my butt's getting bigger to the fact that i couldn't fit into my hot pants when it came to fit my butt part.Argh.suck big time.
Its ok.Im still happy with my body.Just have to loose abit of the fats on my tummy thats making look as though i have a bloated stomach.
Okay i guess i'm gona end it here.
Suddenly my heart feels very2 uneasy.
I have no idea why.
I need to sleep before i wake up later to do my Geography.
OK..go.
anything call me up at my handphone.
Ben thanks for being my bitch since those girls that i usually talk on the phone isn't there to talk to me.
I miss talking to Ben on the phone.Yeah when i tell him all those stupid and silly things of myself and the people around me.
Okay..so emotional.
Stop it.
Ben's just a school friend by the way.
I spend 30mins with Fana just now.
What a get together like old times.I miss her.
I miss Mizah.
hrmm.
I guess i'm just expecting too much from a friend.
What more a boyfriend..
Sigh**
ok.stopp it.
i must think positive and know that i'm single.
Sigh**
Still can't accept the fact.
hrmm.
*deep thoughts*

Toodles.
Tc.
Cheers!
Assalammualaikum.
-iznieno-

P.S.I'm still in love with Hadieo Montana.
Still can't get over him.
Hopefully a miracle works and we be back together again.
I don't wish to go for anyone else except for him.
Single but unavailable.**
=)

2007-03-23T19:26:00.000+08:00

"This is what you are supposed to cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things about themselves as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog."

1- I get angry in school all of a sudden or during the times when there's nothing bothering me.[maybe its just temper.]

2- If i don't have a boyfriend at the very moment, a girlfriend would be my substitute for me to fulfill my urges.LOL.[Don't think crap.I'll just jokingly touch their hands or i'll hug and give kisses to them.On the cheeks i mean!.LOL]

3- I tend to look at a person's mouth or nose when they talk to me.I'm not observing anything, its just me.

4- I love pinching my own bulges especially when i sit and all the bulges from my stomach are freaking obvious.LOL!

5- I tend to look at grown females and check their body whether they're hot or not and tell the people who are with me about it.

6- I love to hold and not pee when i feel like it until i have teary eyes then i'll go to the toilet.

I can't think of anymore weird stuffs.

6 people that's chosen to do this.

- Yanti

- Fad

- Didi

- Shikin

- Dee

- AiNni

LOL.i directly copied n paste everything to here from fad.LOL.
kk.copyright from fad.LOL.

I was tagged by fad by the wayy..

Entry for today.
First of all.I haven't been updating for the past few days.
Well didn't have the time to sit and blog.
Went out.On wednesday because had sports day on the following day.
Went to band and had plans with yanti to watch stomp the yard.Damn cool!
yes.I repeat Damn COOL!.highly recommended.
Farhan and Hakim tagged along.
Went to JE first because they wanted to sign up for tuition.
At Just Mathematics.
WooHoo.
I've got friends for tuition.
Some motivations.
Well.was quite crushed with what hadi said.
He told me not to put high hopes on him.
He wasn't ready for a relationship.
He doesn't want me back then.
Well i was hoping we could get back on the 25th.
He doesn't want to.
I can't force.
Had no mood for sports day the following day.
Met with tasha,mirah and husna and kecik too.
They were late.
I was early.
Even though they were late for a few minutes after i was quite pissed.
Not their fault though.
Was just me and my sucky mood.
After they arrived, went to smoke awhile.Felt relieved then.
Kecik was late.
Shook hands and we all boarded the bus to Clementi Stadium.
I wasn't talking to anyone.
They were really concerned.And they think this thing about me and hadi is really getting in my head.
Well,the mood faded away when we were all sitting and watching the race.
Yeah.Hong kah really have good athletes.LOL.
Sat with imran updated him with what had been going on with me.
Talked to yan..sebastian..LOL.
Saw fhamy.Reminded me about hadi.
So tried my best not to think about hadi.
The sun was blaring hot!
Went to JP after that to eat with those that i went to the stadium with.
Ate omelette with fried noodles.DELICIOUS!
Met with mizah at JP she finished school.I miss her.LOL.
Well i guess i just need my friends to be there for me most of the time to get over him.
Oh well.
Went home.Kecik and tasha accompanied me home.
Met fad and went to session with yat afterwards.tasha met fad for the first time and tasha said fad really look like chinese.Okay fad stop smiling okaY?.LOL.
Moving on.
Session and did some excersices that we usually do while during school band practices.LOL.i mean tought yat.LOL..Concert mistress what.
LOL.
Ate roti john..cooked by yats mum.delicious!.
Was really shy at first but i was smiling sheepishly all the way.Have no idea why.
LOL.
Head home after that.
Mum and dad nagged all the way.
Mizah came my house then.
Love her lots.
Thanks for accompanying me do my homework.
Oh yar she slept at my house to for a little while.
LOL.slept like a baby.
Yet she was snoring.LOL!..i know now.
Maybe she was tired thats why.
Anyway.Continuing on.She headed home after that.
And as soon i was home, missed call hadi but he didn't call back.
Was expecting that already.
Slept then.
Lots of messages received the next morning.LOL!
Lazy to reply.Got ready to school.Was early though.
had no mood.
Friends were concerned.
They blamed hadi for what's happening to me.
I have been falling sick easily nowadays.This been happening ever since i had that heated arguement with hadi.
Oh well.I'm stressing myself too much i guess.
Nextly.
In school was so quiet.The only time i talked was when i was to shout at someone or ask somebody about something.Went home straight after school without waiting for everyone.I had to cool myself down before i let out my anger to someone whose innocent.
Ben has been getting on my nerves.
Hasn't been much of a help though.
I'm hoping hakim.yanti.farhan and me to be close.Just thought of it anyway..don't think that would happen though.
Anyway..
Had fun at band.
Had rehearsal for speech day.
Irritated Hazwan as he was the assistant parade commander.LOL.
And i was incharged for the playing of the band.Since i was in the mood to disturb wan, i irritated him by playing songs that were different from marching steps.And the whole squad got confused and couldn't follow the timer.And they had to repeat and repeat.ALL THANKS TO ME!
LOL!.
NO GRUDGES ALRIGHT?..JUST TRYING TO SPICE THINGS UP,LOL!
I think the only time to see me happy is when i'm in band.
I love HKMB.=)
My flu.fever and headache and heartache getting worst.
to the fact that i want to go out tomorrow.And yat said we aren't performing for sundays gig.Sigh**..I already brought home the trumpet.
Damn it.
Got to know the news when i was at macdonald eating with is,yanti,fatin.Saw hafiz our senior.Talked and disturbed him a lot.!.LOL.
got free fries from yasrina too!.[our ex senior too]
LOL.thanks!
Head home.
my mood swing came back.
So i'm kind of pissed right now.
Mizah called talk to me too.
Anyway......
Yat..
fad..
mizah..
tasha..
mey..
husna..
told me to move on.
he is not worth my time.
when someone makes you unhappy, they aren't worth your time.
If they really love you, they will come back.
If someone says not have high hopes on them, in otherwards.it means forget about me and move on because i'm moving on to and i won't turn back to you.
Oh well.
hope he finds a better person, who satisfies his needs.Worth while.Tolerates him.
He says he not ready for relationship?..well.we'll see alright?
Ok.if only he could read my entries.Know how i feel.
And feel a stab on his chest.
I'll love to see that happening.
I got this from yanti by the way.
I think it reminds me of how hadi and i were when were together.
He was as sweet as what this few sentences were.

"I wanted more than just a man
I needed a friend
Someone I can talk to someone who really listens
When you touched my hand the sun got brighter then
Trusting you I closed my eyes and felt our love begin.."

He wasn't just a boyfriend.He was a best friend to me too.
I don't know why its so hard for me to forget and let him go.Sigh**.

LYRICs...Song PLAIN WHITE T's-LETS PRETEND.
If you really gotta know, I'm not doing so good.
turned out to hurt more then I thought it would.
cuz i just can't handle losing you again
but the last thing i want is to just be friends
we've been through the same thing time and time again
Let's pretend.
(Let's pretend everythings fine)
put on our fake smiles and keep wasting our time
Let's pretend we're fine
Go out in style and come home in denile
let's pretend we're fine
If you really gotta kno, I'm not doing so good.
It hurt me way more then I thought it could.
Cuz I just can't handle losing you again
but the last thing i want is to just be friends
we've been through the same thing time and time again
Let's pretend.
(Let's pretend everythings fine)
put on our fake smiles and keep wasting our time
Let's pretend we're fine
Go out in style and come home in denile
let's pretend we're fine
lie to ourselves
lie to everyone else
take anymore of this make believe romance
is killing my make believe mind
(its killing my make believe mind)
but i rather pretend we're together
then know we're apart
Let's pretend.
(Let's pretend everythings fine)
put on our fake smiles and keep wasting our time
Let's pretend we're fine
Go out in style and come home in denile
let's pretend we're fine

Anywayy...
Mey..also said i need to give some space.
Well i think i'm doing that.Lets see if it works.Thanks mey for the suggestions.=)
Didn't talk to him yesterday.Guess maybe not today either.
I'll be going out tomorrow.
Alone?.I guess.with fad if she's free.Hope mizah could tag along if she's free too.
Alright.I'm done here.
i'll update tomorrow if anything happens outside tomorrow.
Hope to see him at cityhall tomorrow.
Guess i'll be going to study first before meeting the rest.That is if they could tag along.
See you tomorrow mey.-->getting cardigen from her!.WooHoo.lovely!.
Alright.I'm running my thought too much.
Take care.
To people who reads my blog please tag!.
I want to know who reads my blog.
Thank you.
See ya'll when i see ya'll alright?
LOL.
Take care.
Toodles~
Assalammualaikum.
-iznieno
P.S.I'm still in love with you.
HeaRts HadieO MonTanA A heLL LoTs.

2007-03-20T19:14:00.000+08:00

hello.
I'm here to update again.
As per usual.
Today has been alright.
I wasn't feeling upset in anyway.
Well did thought of him.
But it wasn't to the extend of till i had no mood that kind of thing.
LOL.
My english so broken right?
Anyway.
Messaged him in the morning.
The same message that i would send him every morning.
Messaged him again whether i could meet him up on thursday.
Sports day.No school.I so need a break.Hrmm.
Holidays weren't holidays.
I've got a POA test tomorrow.
Disposal account thingy.
There's lots of homework undone.
Even if i done my homework there still heaps and heaps of them coming my way.
Anyway.
In school, had lessons.
Everyone was very nice towards me.Jun Liang always creates nick names for me.
I can take criticism for some people.Like him.haha.
He called me an emo punk kid.How lame and crap.to the fact that i hate emo kids.because i think its not a culture anymore.people aren't in it for the real reason.Eg.for the music and custom.They just dress up like what everyone else dress.Trendy Wankers.And to see it now, its over rated for these people.Haiyoo..
LOL.
Mrs chuah wasn't in school.So no chemistry just now LOL!
Yes ahh!
Had physics practical.How fun.
I love practicals.!
Had english just now.
Read the article on the current affairs in ms hikmah's class just now.Interesting about muslims and sex before marriage thingy and being pregnant.
I don't mind if people to have sex.Yet if you going to do sex and cause a hell lots of problem to your parents then what children are you to your parents.Parents get all the blame,shame and burden.Well,i guess teens should be more responsible for their own actions.If they have sex, just don't get pregnant.Even if they do.Solve the matter yourself.
Anyway,read on the article about emo kids to.LOL. A pile of rubbish to what that was written.
I didn't agree with the whole article.
Read it yourself from ms hikmah's class.
My classmates gave me new names.like emo hip hop girl.
How crappy.yet i was laughing like mad.Because i don't reaaly mind.LOL.
Hip hop because of my email addy.Argh!.Again i'm going to mention this.That email add was since i was in primary school!.I was into the genre that was the reason why.But not anymore now!.LOL.
Anyway, we did grammer.
And there was this part where we had spell the words and not use sms language.LOL.
Ms hikmah:-"is there anymore words that all of you use for sms language?"
Yanti:- "yeah..btw..by the way.."
Izni:"ANW."
Ms hikmah..Looked stoinked.LOL.
She thought anw was the fast food restaurant.LOL.when it actually means anyway.
2nd part..
Ms Hikmah:-"anymore?"
Brandon and Jun Liang:-"KNN CCB"
Ms Hikmah:-"huh?"
I was laughing my lungs out..
LOL.
Ms Hikmah:-"Repeat.."
Brandon and JunLiang:-"KNN CCB"
Izni:-"Kanninabu Chao Chibai.HAHAHAHA!!."
Ms Hikmah couldn't be bothered then.LOL!.
Had fun in english lesson.
Had POA.
Had band afterwards.
Accompanied my conductor, Mr hoe to eat his lunch.Talked to him too.
Had band practice outside the bandroom.
Practiced conducting.
I SUCK at it!
LOL.
Tried my best not to make Mr hoe pissed off.
Err.
Had sectional.Practically the whole tbone section was tired.So we went to one spot where no one would be able to see what we were up too.LOL.we talked and rest and had fun.LOL.
ALright.after band took attendence.as per usual.Tried my best to irritate jia chun or how ever its being spelled.LOL.
i love that french horn chinese girl.Mei chiao.or however its being spelled.LOL.
She fun lah!
Well.head home.As per usual.hoping hadi would give me a call on my handphone.but he didn't.Instead dot messaged me.Asking me about band and all.LDL i mean.
Hrm..When i told him i wanted to be active and very enthusiactic back into LDL.he was happy.And i was to,To the fact that some actually made me feel they still want me in the band.Hope he wasn't pretending though.
Reached home.Check for homework.LOTS OF THEM UNDONE.Plan to do my geography if there's time.
Head for computer.
Blogging.Msn-ing.
haha.
Mizah coming over my house.WooHoo.
i miss her.
Anyway.
Hadi still hasn't ring me up.
=(
i miss fad.i have no idea why.Maybe she helped me a lot.giving me advice and all.
Long time didn't talk to her.Miss listening to her talking about sepetism.Korea.and of course on how she observes people.LOL.
i miss hadi.On how he use to call me and talk to me endlessly.
Miss talking and going out with mizah.
Well thank god she's coming my house later.
Don't miss yanti.LOL.see her face every day.
I love her.
Sorry if i've been very touchy2. i won't touch you anymore unless it's necessary.
LOL.
Who else.......
I miss going out with LDL.
yeah,i really do..
By the way..
Ben cheer up.it isn't your fault about the interclass competition thing.
You didn't do it on purpose right?
So stop worrying.=)
I love my friends.
Norin..Wants to bring me M.O.S?
LOL.I miss you.By the way.if i can i will okay darling?.
Thanks for finding a way to help me relieve my stress.But i don't think clubbing is a way out.
Well, if i was to hav fun after my O's.Then yeah.i'll go.LOL.
Oh yerp.Heard the graduation night going to be brought forwad to the 12th of November.
If that's so..How cool!..It would be a day after my Birthday.And the garduation night would be part of my present.A birthday bash to..haha.Oh izni you dreaming way too much!
okay.
I'll end it here.
Now,
waiting for mizah's arrival.
Going to update bout what we will do and talk about in tomorrow's entry.so do keep a look out.
LOL.
See you all around.
Study hard.
O'level around the corner.
take care.
toodles~
assalammualaikum.=)
-izni-

2007-03-19T19:22:00.000+08:00

hello.
updates here.
Well.
What can i say.
Today has been a neutral.just like every other day.
Well.
Last night talked to hadi.
And mizah.
They would both call at the same time always.
And end up putting th phone down almost at the same time.
It sucks.Because hadi will be talking to mizah.
I don't mind.
Neither do i care.It's just that i will feel very left out.To the fact that i can't talk to hadi about whatever infront of mizah.
Even though mizah knows everything.Yet mizah will talk to hadi as normal because they have no issues unlike me.
Well.
I slept after that.
Went to school in the morning.School started.
Well.There's no different.School holiday or not.Sometimes i feel everyday is the same that nothing makes me go wow.till i don't even know what day it is already.
Met up with m dearest yanti.She reprimanded me.I'm sorry i was late.
We headed off to school then.
As per usual met mey, tasha, kecik in the school toilet.Tasha was buzy spraying her hair.
Gosh!...my dear tasha just dye your hair black for this few months okay?.And after our O'level examinations you can dye thousands of colour for your hair.LOL!
Well, parted from yanti and sat with mey and tasha.Yerps.
Our mouths are damn bubbly.Updated them with what i did for my holidays.
So yeps.They know about hadi too.
They couldn't believe what they heard.
Tasha adviced me. And told me heaps of things which i hope wouldn't come true while i'm in this situation with him.
Hrmm..She also said even after 6 days i'm still in this state.
Maybe in taking it a little to hard.
Well JUST A LITTLE!
LOL.
Anyways.Had chemistry for ME.
sucks.but still studied and tried to concentrate.
Physics was alright.Did some cool yet stupid experiments.LOL.
Then had our free period.Did POA.
Talked to nab and the rest.
The girls adviced me too.LOL.
I reckon i need lots of advice.
Oh yeah.
All of them said this one thing.
With time, the wound will heal.
Hopefully not.
Because i want to be with him.
I hope with time things will be alright again.
Yes.I wish for that.
Had recess.Sat with the 4B girls as per usual.That's a must every monday.
Had maths after recess.
I couldn't take it.
My eyes were too heavy to open.Maybe because i had a heavy meal during recess.LOL.
did get to absorb some things.
Izni buck up!!
LOL.anyway.
After mathematics, had DNT for 2hours.
Did a test.Nadiah was so mad.that i thought her tone was a bit harsh towards mdm chuah.LOL.
Yeah i kind of joined he a little bit.To create a little more noise.LOL.
What can i say..
Then i messaged hadi.
LOL.Nothing better to do huh.
Said i wanted to meet up with him.
His first reply was his last reply too.
Oh well.
Was very angry during DNT too.
Ian raised his voice at me just because i told him to repeat what mdm chuah said.I asked mdm chuah to repeat.I said it politely she said no and laughed.And when i asked Ian he did what i mentioned earlier.I turned to fariz hoping he would repeat but he did the same as what Ian did.I was raged with anger.
I was pissed off.
I turned to my original seat.Listened to my Mp3.
Fariz soon came asking me for correction fluid.I said some valguar word and fleed him away.
Everyone knew i was angry.
LOL.
Even Nadiah was afraid to talk to me.
LOL.
She only answered questions when i asked.
Nab didn't talk to me either.
I only started talking to them during break time.
I did my Physics during break.Whoever dared to disturb me will get a free gift of a screaming or a valguar word.LOL.
So i was alright after DNT.
I guess i can't clique with guys anymore.
I mean i can.But for this period of time I can't.
I think hadi's running in my head too much.Oh well.
Any guy that ticks me off, i will confront them.
LOL.
Oh well..
Anyway.
Had POA.new chapter.
Hrmm.
i've got heaps of test coming up.
Maths.POA..*sigh*
die.
Anyway.
Was happy when school ended.
Went to Jurong Point with yanti.toured around jurong point for don't know how many rounds.
LOL.
Ate at Banquet.Rojak India.My favourite.LOL.
can never resist indian food.
Well took photos while eating.Practically sat at banquet for time to pass before continuing our tour in JP.
Yes found a new shop that just open.
A korean shop.
Yanti loved it.
LOL.
i bet fad will too.
Was dazzled looking at guys on the para2 dance machine.LOL.cool.they can really dance.
FYI.It was chinese guys.
My mood went down.And i started talking to yanti about hadi again when we were in toy r us.
Well.its because i suddenly thought of him
And secondly.its because..he called me.
Talked to me for awhile.
Said he reached home already and bla3.
Hrmm.didn't get to meet him though.
Well.
Head home after that.
Lazing at home and updating my blog for now.
Yes.by the way.
sad to say.After the break up with hadi guys have been appearing in my life.
Well.i don't them i just want hadi.
I 'm not over him yet.
hrmm.Sorry.
I'm still very much in love with hadi.
See hadi i'm very sincere towards you.
Well to bad you can't see it.
Hrmm.
Mui Wei didn't make it for the audition thingy.She messaged me earlier just now.Its okay Mui Wei.I admire you for being so brave to sing infront of so many people.No worries alright!.LOL.
Thanks fad for helping me with my myspace profile.I'm loving my profile.my blog.now.Left with friendster only.Argh!.
Anyway, i guess i'm going to start back on my old routine.Not that bad habit stuff.
Its the..Performing at gigs.
Study at home.Get me distracted with all this so i won't have time like i used to flirt around or do anything to have time for guys.LOL.
Yes2.
My bad habits.
Yes i've thrown it all away.
NO more Drinking of alcohol.
NO more smoke everyday.Maybe once in awhile.LOL.*cackles*
NO more piercings.I don't want to show or give people the impression that i'm bad.
I still got to give face to my beloved mum.MUM I LOVE YOU.
I'm trying to turn over a new leaf here.LOL.
alright.
thats all.
i'm done here.
take care.
anything contact me through myspace.friendster.my blog.my handphone.msn.okay?
LOL.
see all of you soon.
cheers!
ToodLes.~
Assalammualaikum=)
-izni-

2007-03-18T16:28:00.000+08:00

hey...
Updates..
Yesterday had concert.yes.even though it was a mini concert, yet it was a blast.
Met with yanti before heading to school.LOL.Someone felt frustrated after not getting her hot chocolate from 7/11.haha!
Well, now you know how i felt then!
Anyway.
Talked to hadi when i was in school.Was a little pissed after that.
Yet tried my best to have fun.
Spilled Slurpee on aidah's uniform.Sorry2.
But lucky i got to clear the mess.*PHEW*
OK..then went off to pei cai..made noise all the way there.
Ms hikmah said i should stop singing.LOL!
But i continued.
Had fun there.!
I reckon we did great.
Mr hoe was happy.
HKMB as usual being crazy and supportive for other bands.
So when it was our turn to perform we got the support to.which brightened up everybody's day.
I had an oral test during the break.yeah.you guys must be wondering how weird is that huh.LOL.
Yes.So when i was buzy goofing around, ms hikmah pulled me aside and had me doing Oral.LOL.well.i did agree with her to do oral during the break.well my friends were all laughing at me.but i don't give a damn.LOL.
Ms hikmah said i could get a 10/12 for reading.with much practice i could get an 11/20.
Hopefully i could.
I'm already weak in my languages.
Err..
Well after a exhausting yet joyful day at pei cai.We head back to our school happily.
Well.thought of going out with LDL.
But dad messaged me saying we going out with the family to our usual place.Changi Beach..Firstly.i can never resist the beach.secondly.it was already late to be going out with friends.thirdly, i didn't want mum to be mad with me.And lastly.i was lazy to rush to go out and waste my ezlink credit.
So yeah.went out with family.
Together with the Atim's family.(Aunt and uncle with three sons.)
I shared ayam penyek with mum.YUMMY!..for the first time i actually ate ayam penyek.LOL.!
Hadi called me up.He called me just to hear my voice he said.Satisfying his needs of missing me?
LOL.Whatever.
Every time he calls me he gives me a heartache.
I have no idea why, but he makes me angry every time we put down the phone.
Making me feel jealous about a lot of things.hrmm.
So moving 0n.
Got home.
Couldn't sleep.Thinking about him.
I know my previous entry i said i wanted to forget about him.
But it seem as though i can't because he keeps coming back.
Contacting me every day.
I love the fact that he still contacts me.
But why the break up if he still on to me.?
Hrmm.
I want him back.
I told him i'm able to tolerate his attitude.
Because i know how it is already.
I don't know how it is now.
Well...
I don't even know whether he loves me still or not.
Mizah said..
If he still loves me.He should still hold on.
Compromise and find a solution to the problem.
Well.maybe to him the best way is to break up.
Even though i've asked for a patch back. I don't think he wants to.
Guess he doesn't love me anymore.
But then mizah mentioned again.
If he doesn't love me how come he still wants to contact me?
Well.maybe there's no others to contact with?
But he got heaps of friends around. Why still find me?..
Hrm..questions that never ends.
How i wish this relationship will have a happy ending.
Anyway.
Woke up just now.Off to the computer.
Yes.I'm addicted to the computer.LOL.c
Chucked my handphone that was on silent mode under my pillow on my bed.In my bedroom.
LOL.
No distractions while i'm having quality time with my computer.
Well.ate breakfast.
Must be wondering doesn't izni take a shower.
LOL.
Niopes.Not on sundays unless im going out!.
LOL.
My dirty little secret.
I reckon now there's no use hiding.
It isn't so nasty anyway.
so yeps.=).
Anyway,
continuing on..
Was already around 11 plus when i checked my handphone.And of course he called me.Twice only.So i messaged him to call me back.Ages later he called.Talked for so called 'very long'. HAH!
Yerps.
I off the computer after that.Because i thought talking to him was more important then my computer.We talked as per normal.though i still feel very uneasy with what had happened.To me at times, I MUST get what i want.At this point of time i so need him!.
SO i want him!.
LOL!
So i said what i wanted.
Well, same respond. he will always say no but in his way that is very long winded and in a way that will make me feel not so bad.Smart isn't him?
Well.He said he would called me back after his sister used the phone.
Ages after that he called.
I was asleep.
But Mui Wei messaged.
I was replying her.
When he called.
Still in my sleepy and stoinky mood i picked up his call.
He wasn't in the mood.
He lost something rather precious that belong to him.
A memory card that contained heaps and heaps of pictures i guess.
That he wanted to print it out on hard copy.
Well, when i asked him when was the last time he hold on to that memory card he said last year.
err... -.- Bravo to him!
Would you still have it with you by now if you were him?
Would you recall where you would have placed it?
The obvious answer is a big NO!.
Oh well.happy searching for it.
He told me to keep on talking to him while he search for that memory card.
Well, i didn't feel like talking to someone who's buzy searching for something and cursing at the same time because he can't find it.
So when i said call me back after you found your stuff he said just continue talking.Mind you, it was in a very harsh manner.
Well, i tolerated.
It's ok by me.
I just kept a positive mind.
I know i don't want to add charcoal to burning fire.You get what i mean right?
So i said nicely.
In the end, he said he'll call me later because he wanted to find his memory card.
Well..what do you think?
LOL.
Doesn't it give u a sheepish slight smile?
Well..i layed in bed after that.
Mui wei messaged me after that..Pressurising me about homework!
LOL.
Feeling uneasy, i started on my homework then.
Mizah entertained me while i did my homework.LOL!
Thank you.
Finally she called me.
I miss her.
You people know why.It's because i love her for being my childhood friend and been contacting me and helping me all this while.Friends since..5 years of age.Cool huh!.=)
I envy her relationship with yanto to.
She spends quality time with yanto.
How cool.
And yanto has been very sweet towards her.
Been making me go'awee!'.
LOL!
Well..talked for about an hour.She was hungry and wanted to eat.So she took her meal.Guess she doesn't want to disturb me doing my "homework".LOL!
Continuing on...I was halfway through doing the homework.
And decided to take a break.A long one.haha!
And now im blogging now.
Chatted with fad and yanti on msn.
Talked to yanti about homework.LOL!
And other stuff.
Chatted with fad about hadi.
yeah.
She will always ask me whether i still love him.
I wonder why.
I'll always say the same thing.
YES I DO!
She told me to move on.Many others out there.
Don't wait.
It will just break my heart even more.
Well i insist. I WILL wait.
No matter what happens.
Or unless..Hadi has someone else.
Then i'll move on.Other then that i'll wait no matter how stupid i'll look.
So hadi if you plan to get rid of me.Find someone else to be your girlfriend.And i'll not bother you neither will you ever see my face ever again.okay?=)
Fad thanks for helping by the way.
I LOVE YOU!
Alright?..LOL.I'm not being sarcastic FYI.LOL.!
Anyway.Exchange pictures with yanti too.
LOL. Thanks yanti!Loving your chubby and high cheekbones face always.LOL!
I was laughing my lungs out looking at the photos.
While that, my mind was flashing back at the memories i once shared with aidah, suhaila and yanti.
Yes,we used to have nicknames for each others.
Our nick names should be guys names.
Mine was Roni.
Yanti was Yan.
Aidah was Hadi.
Su was Rahul.
LOL!
How cool.
Anyway..with time things change.
Alright..
Moving on..
Currently i'm messaging yanti and Mui wei.While listening to no doubt.
LOL.
And waiting for his call.
Hopefully he calls me.
By the way.
Mui Wei good luck for your audition tomorrow.
I'll come along if i'm not lazy and not buzy.hehe!
Alright.
take care to all.
i'll update again tomorrow.
Must be wondering why i'm updating every day now huh.
simple reason because i've got no one to listen to my what my day has been anymore.=(
How sad.Oh well.
So now you all know why my computer is so important to me.
LOL!
Cheers!
take care!
toodLes!~
Assalammualaikum.=)
-izni-
P.S.I love Hadieo Montana

Siti.Me.Su.Aidah.Yanti.

Yanti.Me.

Yanti and I again.

Shahidah.She was the one who tolerated and joined me in making ourselves looking like fools.Thank You.One of the best Sec 3s that i heart.=)

2007-03-17T10:20:00.000+08:00

hallu.
to everyone.
Great day?
It's only 10.22 am.It's still early.
Currently trying my best to multi-task.
LOL.
Doing english composition.While blogging.
I woke up pretty early.I woke up around 7 plus.
yes2.
Couldn't sleep after that.
Started on my homework.
And headed to my computer here.
LOL.
Did english while surfing the internet.
No wonder my english suck big time.
LOL.
Continuing on.
I msged him.He called me soon after but we talked less then five minutes.How sucky is that.
But oh well.
hrmm.
He was going out.to cut his hair.
Yes.He needs to be bald.
Anyway.i talked to him last night.
For like half an hour if i'm not mistaken.
I msged him whether we would ever be back together again.
I'm not shy to post this online.
Yes i may sound desperate.
But not for many guys.Its just for him.
People don't know what i've been through with him to a point i can't let him go that easily.
Hrmm.
Well anyway.
He kept on making me feel that since i'm single and so is he. We could both do anything we want.
Well, he kept on making me feel that i'm running after him.I hate it.It's like to him whatever if he was to do, i would still stick to him.
Please..If you start to be that way, i'll go for someone else even though how painful it is to do that.
Argh..i regret having a boyfriend to the fact that i know i'll be back in Australia end of this year.
Sucks big time.
It's like i can't fall in love with anyone.Until i'm done with school.
Well..that's true.
But oh well.
i Don't know how to explain it in words.
hrmm,
i'm starting to loose my feelings towards him.
Is it because i'm trying hard to forget him?
Because i don't think he still have feelings for me.
Anyway.I don't really care if he doesn't msg me.
I don't really care if he doesn't call me.
Oh well..Am i running away?
I feel like there is no use to wait for someone who is just toying around with you isn't it?
Oh well..
tc.I'm having my performance later.!..Hours aways!.
I can't wait to meet my trombone mates.!.We going nutty later!.
YEah!
Yanti don't be nervous you'll do great.You the best clarinetist ever.
Thank you for fetching me later.LOL.
I'm loving you!.Thanks for being there when i was reaally feeling down.
Mizah..where are you?
Anyway.
happi seventh month with yanto okay?
they've been through lots.Yet they still together.
*I ENVY THEM!*
Happy Birthday Yan.
Cheers mate!
Don't get my friend to Drunk okay?
Take care of her.If not i'll kill you!
LOL!.
Cheers!
LDL the best..LOL.
Hadii..no comments..LOL.
OK go..I just finished my english composition.
Can you believe it.I've been a medic in the school band since secondary 2.
LOL.
Okay ms hikmah i'll bring the first aid kit.=)
Yes. She told me to bring it to our performance so in any case anyone falls sick or have any minor injuries.I'll be there to help them out.
True to what Ms hikmah says.
Start to train myself.
Train what u must be wondering right?
Yes. I want to be a nurse in the future.=)
How cool right.
alright.
take care.
My mood has been great even if i'm alone.
A good sign.=)
I have no idea what's with the change in mood.LOL.
Oh well.
take care again.
cheers!
I love Mum.
I love Dad.
I love Mizah.
I love Yanti.
I love my trombone.
I love my trombone mates.
I love my digital camera.
I love Loop-De-Lye
I...errmm..Lovvvee..Hadi?..er..dunOo ehh.
LOL.
Ok stop it.
toOdLes.
-izni-

2007-03-16T21:46:00.000+08:00

Hey..
I'm updating for the second time for today.
Went out to school for social studies remedial.
Hrmm..gonna miss mr tommy lee because his going away for a couple of weeks and we're going to be stuck with a new teacher.
Err.Hope she's as cool and fun as mr lee.
Anyway after school went to macdonald with yanti, zaidi, fariz and farhan.
We had lunch.The funny thing was first farhan bought food for himself.I felt hungry soon after that.Bought mac spicy.Fariz then bought the same set of meal because he said my mac spicy meal look appetizing.LOL!.Zaidi too bought the same thing to.How cool is that.
Anyway.Followed on with my plans then.
Invited yanti to come along.At first the whole group wanted to come.Then plans got changed as they said esplanade was too far for them to travel.
So yes.I went on with my original plan.That was to go and study alone at esplanade.
I guess i'm used to the place already and it's the only place that i could sit and do my homework or to study.
So yeah went to fads house to do my hair.
Together with mizah.Mizah made my plans run a lil off just now.Honestly i was starting to have mood swings when she came.But i have no idea why i still smiled when she came i guess i was just happy that she arrived.
Went to fad house thank god she was already awake.LOL.
yerp.Did my hair.As per usual.Will take a very long time to do so.
When i look at the time after my hair was done.Damn.I couldn't wait anymore.
I went out of fads house.Left mizah behind.LOL.Not on purpose.But i had to catch up with time.
So reached esplanade around 4 plus 5 i guess.Yes.i had less than 2 hours to do my homework.Reason because...I MET UP WITH HADIEO MONTANA!..yes2!Met him up ard 6.45.i came 10mins late though.Sorry..
I couldn't stand a chance not to meet up with him.
So i did.
I looked at him.with his school uniform and his bagpack.Awee..so adorable!I LOVE U!.
Yes.He looked stunned when he saw me.
I had no idea why.
He said the way i dress up just now was really different from what i usually wore.
Indeed the comment from him was true.I,myself think so too.
Anyway.
He said i look different to.As in my face.Well, maybe he hasn't seen me for a long time with make up i guess.
Hrmm..
We talked as though everything was as per normal.
IT ISN'T OKAY?
LOL.
yes.i've got to admit it was kind of awkward.
Well we kept a distance from each other.
No hand holdings.
No huggies.
No kisses.
LOL.
At the beginning.
But then.
After some time i couldn't take it anymore.i miss him.
Well, i couldn't resist.So i did the three things i listed on top.
I couldn't be bothered even if we have no strings attached.
Well...
he asked me..what i meant by i hate the fact that he's single.
LOL.Well, what i meant was.i want him to be mine.ONLY MINE.
haiz.
Anyway.
he getting chubby.His tummy gone up.Where has his tight unflabby tummy gone to?
OMG!.
Oh well.I still love him!.
Well head home after that.
Heart him loads.
Hopes he call me later.
*praying hard*.
Should i still wait for him?
Or just move on.?
Should patch back with him?
Or just move on?
Leave your comments please..
thank you.
By the way.
I'll be performing tomorrow at PeiCai Sec school
yes2.Don't worry no cute guys to recommend.LOL.
I'll be performing with loop-de-lye..wooHHooo..yes2.can't wait.
okay.
i'm done here.
I LOVE HADIEO MONTANA.
take care.
see all of you around.
cheers!.
oh..by the way..
Assalammualaikum.=)
-iznieno-

2007-03-16T09:13:00.000+08:00

hey..
To everyone.
well.the reasons for me not to be updating my blog like how i used to because i was too buzy, lazy and of course i was'nt in a mood to update.
As simple as that.
Now that i've so called have regained the mood back to actually update it.
Well here goes.
I got my result slip back for the first term.
yeah,i failed my mathematics.which suckz a lot to the fact that mathematics is my FAVOURITE subject.
I've only got one pathetic A1.for POA.
Shitty ain't it.well i guess i have too much of distractions during the time i had my test.And of course i can't blame it all on what had happened.I've got to say that it's particially my fault too.
Hrm..i can't denie to the fact that what happened recently didn't affect my studies.
And i thank god for making this problem occur during the "holidays".If it was to happen during school days, i don't think i would be able to think nor study.
Well, i guess all of you must be wondering what had actually happened isn't it?
LOL.
The only thing that hasn't made me feel happy or having me at my happiest mood is really2 hadi.
He made me feel as though i was really not needed in his life.
Well, kind of cocky to be saying this, i need him.I want the old him back.
The reason being, I LOVE HIM.
He ignored me for the whole week before my school holidays.
I blame myself for what had happened on the previous saturday.That was on.Last,last saturday.
Get what i mean right?
Anyway.
We were all going out as per normal.
Hadi,mizah,me.then met his friends.Like mun and whoever that was there.
Well, when we were all at peninsula, i bumped into a friend of mine.I have no idea why i bumped into so many of my school mates on that particular day.
So back to the story, bumped into my friend Fhamy.Yes Fhamy Esmeth.
Well, cut the story short of what happened then, after we've seated down.I told hadi fhamy is good looking.I thought he wouldn't take it seriously.But he did.And he blurted out words that made me kind of infury. To the fact that i was having my menses.So it was easy for me to let out my anger.So i tried to control.well.as stupid as i can be.i just walked away.told mizah to come along with me.yeah.i needed a smoke.
So went to buy ciggaretes.I didn't say anything to him then.There was where it all started from.
I BLAME MYSELF.
From there we were either turning on cold shoulder to each other,acting sarcastic to one another.And not forgetting trying to avoid each other too.
Well,i was trying to get close to him.I was devastated.At my lowest point.I was sad.I didn't want to talk to anyone about this other then yanti and mizah.yeah.thanks you ladies.I cried every waking hours when i'm alone.And i'll be awake when everyone else's asleep.
That week was a nightmare for me.Yet i present a smile to everyone else.To me there's no good reason to be moody towards the person who isn't in any wrong towards us.
Yerp.
Moving on.
My holidays.
I wanted to spend quality time with him.But with what had happened, there was no way we were to even have time for each other.
Then from what i know, he told me its just him.He was already fine with what happened. Since his probation was finishing, the other him was coming out.His other personality.His fucked up attitude.
Well, i couldn't take it anymore.
So i decided to meet him.He came down.
At first i thought the problem will never get solved.
To me he wasn't serious at all.Then we talked and it took him into deep thoughts.
I told him the decision is in his hands.I'll continue the relationship and he has to change.To the old him.And not have a split personality.
We head home after that.
He msged me afterwords.
Saying it was better if we were friends.So he won't be hurting me anymore.
Well, I never thought breaking up would ever be an option.But he said it..at that point of time.My mind was already calm because we already talked the matter out.
Yet i couldn't control my emotions.
I cried like hell. He called me up.
He felt really bad.
He regretted his actions but its the best way.
*I'M CURRENTLY HAVING TEARY EYES*
Well..things had to be this way.
I just thought of having a long term relationship because i've never been in one.
Hrmm..
I love him.
Really i do.
His the first person who really stole my heart away.
Things don't go the way it always do huh.
Well.the following day i met with yanti.I cried again.
Met mizah yesterdae.and had teary eyes.I know it would be along time for me to get over him.
But i don't think i could find anyone better then him.
His the best.
And i'm gonna win his heart back.
During this time.The song i've been listening to is.Tears.By comic Strip.yes.
Every time i listen to that song, it will remind me of him.
Oh well.....
Only time will tell....
I LOVE YOU LOTS HADI.
MY ONE AND ONLY NUTTY SKINHEAD.
tc.
tooOdLeesS~

2007-03-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

Hey you.
Don't watch that.
Watch this.
This is a heavy heavy montrous sound.
The nuttiest sounds around.
So if you coming up the street and you're beginning to feel the heat.
Well listen buster! You better start to move your feet.
To the rockiedies rocksteady beat of MADNESS!
ONE STEP BEYOND!

haha..sorry for being so irritating and annoying for those taking dnt class with me!.
haha.well i've been reciting those words up there for many2 times that they were so irritated with me!Well you all know me right?.haha.hrmm
talking about school, I don't think i've been doing very well like how i used 2 when i was in secondary 3.I gues i've too many distractions around me now.
Well lets list somethings that has proven about what i wrote in the above paragraph.
1)MATHEMATICS TEST.
First test:-12/20
Second test:-5/20
Third test:- 4/25
2)POA TEST
First Test:-19/25
Second Test:- 25/20
Well..mathematics has been my best subject.
oh wow.
what a drastic change in me
well.i think i know what had caused me to be like that.
well..i have been in no good terms with my nutty skinhead.
including today, it's been 6 days that we haven't been argueing.
I HATE IT!
He is the closest one to me.
MY BOYFRIEND,MY BEST FRIEND.
THANKS TO YANTI AND MIZAH FOR COMFORTING ME ALL THIS WHILE.
=)
hrmm..I'm burning up a fever!
Some said i'm just too stressed.
Some said i'm just pressurised by a lot of stuff.
OH WELL.
I'M just praying that things would turn out to be fine.
alrite.got to rest now.
tc
to all.
cheerZ!
ill update lata.
my cuzzie using computer.
=)
iznieno

24th-25th Feb 2007

2007-02-24T23:46:00.001+08:00

halu.
peepz.
hrmm.its da end of da week.
n so..i need 2 update my blog.
ahakz.
hrm
well.
lets start.
hrmm..i got 3rd position in class for chemistry test!
wohhoo..
im back on top!..yeah..
hehe
nextly.mum bdae was on da 22nd.n apperently no one remembered.except for me.
haha.*evil laughter*
ms hikmah hasnt turned up in skul for 2 daes.
suprisingly im kinda worried.=\
nextly.
mrs chuah.our form teacher cum ME teacher.cum chemistry teacher.gave us $2.woohhoo.
since it was CNY..haha..oh yeah not forgettin da chocolate..ferrero rocher..is tt how its spelleD?
anw.cikgu mardiana gave us chocolate 2.haha.cuz we came 2 her remedial lesson.which was held on a fridae.at 2.30 when skul ends at 12.30.dang!..bt yerp.good students lyk me will always go!.ahah.
hrm.wate else.
oh yeah..afta soo long i finalli met wif fad.
cuz i wana straighten my hair n cut my fringe.
in de end she help me cut my fringe n straighten my hair.save my money!
her hair now veri descent seh!..steady uh fad!.
ahaah!..hrmm
went 2 cthall jus now.
yerpp!..had a drink.
wif my dearest n his fwen.
yerp.accompanied him hm.well.i also had 2 reach hm early.
2 da fact tt its on a saturdae!
argh!
oh well anw.
he was kinda high.haha
i wasnt at all.wat a bummer.
anw.
he was realli cute when he was high.
ehehe.
no good ting.he wasnt feelin well.
kinda worried abt him.
i hate EVA!
she's da onli person who turns my mood down.
oh wateva.
gona do hmk on sunday..er.
oh yeah. stayin home.
been veri good lately.
i gues.
gettin fatteR!
ahah..
ive been eatin.
n hubby said all da fats gone 2 my butt!
i gues ttx true.
cuz ive been sittin lots.cuz there's ntg else 2 do other den study
n da onli excersice i hav is on saturday when i go out n when i hav PE on thursdaes.
which is realli fun! anione who tinkx PE is stupid.it's dem who r stupid.STUPID!,hehe.
anw..TIRA!!arghh..u uhh...overtook me during PE!
darnn!! i olways run n get first when it cumz 2 running ard da field durin PE!.arg.nvm2.u win diz time.
my dearest yanti been sick!.for 2 daes.didnt cum 2 skul for 2 daes.
hrm..everyone nt feelin well aiya.
im scared.!
oh well.
get well soon all of u!.
k.
tts all.
my whole week been veri boring!plain study!study!study!test!test!test!.
hrmmm..
heard new news bout L.D.L n its new ori's..and recording soon...
heard its nice n da songs r addictive 2 da ears!.ahakz..
good luck L.D.L wif ur new songs n hope yall will make it far n be successful!.=).*wondering whether im still in da band..oh well.*
oh btw.still veri touched wif da gift tt hubby gave me for valentine!..wohhoo..hhehee..
oh yeah.
happi tunang2 for miza bro.
happi advanced bdae miza.
happi belated bdae 2 mum n sadiq(miza bro)
happi belated bdae 2 miza mum.
how cooll..all da bdae dkt2.hahaha
kk..luv all of yall!!
yeah..tml is my 2nd mth wif my hubby.=)
Luv him loadz!
Im missin australia.
i mis jen
i mis mcgee.
i mis olivia.
i mis dimi.
i mis jordan.
i mis dylon.
i mis jessica.
i mis nick.
i mis alot more den tt.
hrmm.oh well.
cheerz 2 all.
ill cya soon afta my o's..
going 2 aussie afta my graduation nyte ALONE!..wooHhhOo..!!
ill b flying 2 australia on MY OWN!!woohhoo..cooll..rytee..
hahaha
..kk..
tc.
luv yall.
cheerz!
-izni-

19 feb 2007

2007-02-19T14:12:00.000+08:00

halu 2 everyone out there.
izni here.
obviously.
hrmm..my hols has been quite alrite.
i mean da holz for tiz CNY.
anw.spend my saturdae and sunday at da beach.
woohhoo..paradise.
nt realli actualli.
it was fun.2 catch crabs.ahakz.was cooll..felt lyk as if it was back in da kampong life.
wana bring my fwens there one of da days.cool ryte.
show them how cool to play wif mud.ahakz.
hrmm..
i tink ive been attacked food poisoning!!
cnt stop going 2 da toilet.
had 2 go 2 da toilet every 20 mins or soo.even when i was camping at changi
didnt swim thou.was veri engrossed wif crab hunting.not only crabs.bt oso other sea creature!.
dang i luv nature!..
k ive got a buddy for tis.n itz yanti!!..yerp2.yanti shud follow me one of da daes k2?
hehe..
todae is mondae!.
damn it.im not enjoying my hols!
im stuck in tis hse.
i wana go out.
hubby soo bad.
nvm.
watever.
dun giv a shit.
ill go out wif miza!
*prayin' hard she could go out 2dae*
had a fight wif da king and queen of da hse.oh helll!!
im stressed i nid 2 go out.
argh!!.
oh well..
currently.veri bored.
not in a gd mood.n im having diarrhoea.shitz!
wat ever,i wana go city hall.wif miza!.pls 2 say u cn make it!
im counting on tizx.
fad ive updated.!
kk..i tink da only reason im updating its bcuz of fad!
aha.
ur lyk a teacher tellin a student not 2 be lazy 2 do her hmk!
ahahaha
kk.
gtg now.aniting.
ppl u noe how 2 contact me!
hehe.
tc
cheerz!
-iznieno-

16th Febuary 2007

2007-02-16T20:42:00.000+08:00

hey.to everyone reading my blog.a very good evening.
ahakz.
hrmm.hows my week been?..its been lyk a week since iive updated my blog.
i guess ive got 2 say tt from now onwards, ill update my blog every week.Not every day.=)
Anw.tiz week.2 me has realli past veri veri fast.couldnt believe its already Chinese New Year in a few days time.
Oh well...
hrm.My valentine was celebrated quite alrite.I met up wif him.gave him a chocolate cake.which i gues he realli did loved it.Hrm..gues its finished already,ahaks.Bought mum n dad a cake 2 4 valentine since valentine is for the loved ones.n parents are da loved ones.oh yeah mum bdae is on nxt thursdae.duno wat 2 buy for her!..oh miza bdae oso cuming!..duno wat 2 buy 4 her 2!
anw..spend 3 hrs of my time in da detention room or shud i put it as da reflection room bcuz of wat i did laz fri.N 2 da fact tt i got a beta record for the first time eva!..ive been a good gerl n for da first time ever i got into trouble in skul..argh!...anw.had 2 test in skul just now...back 2 back...ryte afta ss test was chemistry test!..yerp managed 2 do it...ehehe.eVEryone in da class was relieved afta all da test pressure was ova!..wohhoo.at de end of da dae da clas esp da bois.made soo much noise in other werds tryin 2 show tt school ova,n da holss has arrived evn thou itx for on 2 pethatic days=).btw.maths test sux!..i got a 5/20!.[first maths test i failed ever since ms amy lim/lee took ova]..Sorri mum..ill do better next time.k dun werii..i was pissed off anw..
had diarrhoea jus now in skull..veri irritating!!...i was going in n out of da toilet almost every 20 mins!!.didnt go 2 mt remedial jus now cuz was veri weak n tired.but went 2 queensway lata tt dae wif yanti n tira.yerp dey accompanied me 2 queensway.cuz i wanted 2 buy my stad for my lip piercing.yerp i hav 2 piercings.one on da lower lip n one on da upper lip.
weehOooO!!
[tis happened on thursdae morin.ard 1 plus am]fad sLept ova at my place...yerp2.ayoo..fad next time dun go hm late hor...ahakz..was super tired for da whole day afta tt..she slept while i did my hmk.im a good gerl!
.........eerrrr...soorii ifff yaalll cannttt reaaalllyy llliinnnkkk daaa stttooorriii allltooogeeethheerr..
...waaaatttevvveerrr tttthhhatt waasss iiinnntteeerreessttiiinngg ttaaattt pppoooppedd ooouuttt ooofff mmyyy heeaadd..ii jjjuuusss wrrrooottee iittt iiiinnnn hhheeerrreee..=)
oh yeah..tt was my day.
happi chinese new yr to everyone out there.btw.thankz 2 everyone who gave me sweet n chocolates on valentines' day.
k.i owe yanti a milky choc.bar
i owe mizah a choc. cake
hehe-
`toodles!~
tc.
cheerz!
-iznieno-

11th Of Jan

2007-02-11T10:38:00.000+08:00

I'll update my blog everyday from now on.
well.anw..its 10.38am currently.
Yesterdae was great going out wif hubby.but 2 bad time didnt allow us 2 stay til late at nyte cuz hubby had 2 go home.err!!
Well anw.i cnt do aniting much.oh well..we had fun 2gether though.
ahakz.wEHhhoOoo.
hOpes he loves da presents i gave him for valentine.=p.
hrm.i gues mum was quite happi since im always cumming home early on saturdays.
ahakz.i reached jurong at ard 7 plus.da sun hadnt even set yet.
oh well.but then met up wif mizah after tt cuz she had sum issues.
sOo.called mum to seek permission whether she could cum ova 2 our place.bt turns out mum was gona go 2 changi 2 chill ard.
she told me 2 bring miza n spend our time there.so we followed.how coOol aint it.
since my whole big fam noes mizah,so it wasnt kekok at all.yerps!
had fun wif miza.gues she also did.
was so tired after tt.we all went 2 sleep.haha..da whole way frm changi n back hm.ahakz.
ate quite alot 2 yesterdae.
im having a bloated stomach ryte now!!arr!!
anw.so tt was how i spent my day yesterdae.
todae.hav 2 sit hm 2 do hmk!.
yeah must be displine..but errmm..not gona start jus yet.
gona start doing hmk later in da afternoon.=)
ohh..btw..i got my lip pierced!..how coOl ryte?
ahakz.well.mum noes..she couldnt be bothered.jus not 2 wear da big stad infront of her or da big fam i gues even thou they all knew it already.thankz 2 ermm..da drama tt happened on fridae in skul..oh wow.watever..nvm.i dun wana care bout tt.
alryte.tts all.
cheers 2 everyone!
psstt..luvin him always.=x
hehe.
tc.bb.
tag my tagboard.
oh btw.ive got da pic of my hubby n me.
woohhoo..
alryte..
smile olways
`toodles~

iznieno

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