Hello..=)
Its 18 days away from SYF.
That's the first thing that came to my mind.
Sigh*
okay..lets start.
Hrmm.
School was alright.Except when i got my maths test back.
i got 8 out of 25.
How pathetic!.
Izni stop wasting time and start to study really hard!.
DNT!!..Haven't even started!.
Another week going to end.How fast right?.
Sigh*
I'm not catching up with studies.
Time to pull up my socks really high up till my thighs!
LOL.
Okay jokes aside.
Back to what i wanted to write..
Tied up my hair in school.
LOL.and the curls were cool.
Natural..
I love my hair today.
LOL.
Was happy that i was able to cheer Nab up today.Well she was upset with her marks to.
I was angry with myself.She was sad.
Thanks to Mui Wei, she calmed me down and i was okay by the end of the lesson.
Nab was alright by the end of the day.
I didn't pass up my SS homework.
Sigh*
I'm not that type of person who doesn't do a homework.
Sigh*
i was so tired yesterday that i slept for 9hrs.
After so long i finally had a real sleep!.
I felt refreshed when i was in school.
Had band pratice.As usual.
Did some conducting.
Nervous is a great word to use at that point of time!.
I did okay though.
It takes a lot of courage okay!?
LOL.
Rehearsal tomorrow.Praying hard**hopefully i won't screw up!
Ended band a little late just now.
Mr hoe was quite happy with our playing towards the end of the practice!.
Iskandar was very entertaining just now.
Well, actually i talked a lot and he actually laughed and respond and listened to all my crappynest!.Is there such a word nadiah?..LOL.
okay moving on.
Went home straight.Searched for yanti but she already left with her bodyguards.
Ms hikmah still hasn't give up about me and hazwan.
Haiya!.
Wan is a friend!.
A childhood friend!
I would rather be a lesbian than to be with him!
ARGH!!!
LOL.
Okay thats about it.
Lame huh today's entry.
Whatever.
Dee i love your blog!.
Nadiah i still LOVE him!.
Mizah i'm so so missing you!
Fad i still feel very bad about what happened on saturday.Thanks to your guy for accompanying you huh.
Yanti don't be so stressed up with band.Do your homework.Okay?LOL.
Hadi i love you lots.
Mui Wei thanks babeh!.
Fatin i'm here to support you!.
Iskandar gile babi!
Okay..is that all?..
hrmm..maybe there's more to mention but i can't be labelling everything here.
My memory isn't so good!.
Tasha,mey,husna,didi,kecik..yeah.the best!.
Oh yeah.Yan..better be good when miza's away to paris.!..if not!.i'll ketok your botak head if you stress my friend too much!
LOL.
hrmm.by the way people.if you call my handphone at night and i don't pick up your calls it means i'm sleeping.Been sleeping early these few days.
okay?
Hadi sorry for not answering your calls.
Was asleep.
got to go.
Mum getting ridiculous each day.
I can't even spend an hour infront of the computer.
To the fact that i don't watch television often.
And No games because stupid bitch spoilt my television.
How cocky!
I hate it.
I guess she wants me to study like mad.
I will after my SYF!
Stop pressurising me!.
i need malboro mentol!.
I need my King Roberts.My vodka.!My amsterdam!.My baron!.My Klassic Q!.My Bacardi!.My Limonya!ARGGGGHHH!!!!Shits!.
No izni resist it all!STOP!STOP!STOP!
Sigh**
okay go.
take care.
Assalammualaikum=)
cheers!
-izni-

today.
What can i say.
Hrm.
first of all, i'm glad that my entries are being appreciated by lots of people around.
Nadiahh..yanti..fad..didi.
LOL thanks for viewing.

Todays' updates.
Went to school as per normal.
Was kind of happy.
Wore a different skirt to school.LOL.
no more flarry2 skirt.
LOL.
Moving on.
Yanti really stress with SYF and O'level.
Release from dnt early.
As usual.
Had fun during Assembly.
Was craving for Orea chocolate ice blend.LOL..
rushed out of school with tash and nadiah.Thanks for accompanying me.!
LOL.
went to band straight after.
Had sectional.
Did my english homework because had to hand up on that day.
Wasn't happy with the band's attitude.
No one's actually worried about SYF.
Sigh*
No one is concern except for some.
Welll i appreciate and love those people who thinks so.
Keep up guys!.
What the rest are doing?..I can't say much.
What else.
At times we can have fun.
But for now lets struggle and push ourselves and put in all our effort for SYF that is like 19days away.!
Practice!.Practice!.Practice!.
Some people wants band exchange.
Honestly i don't think its beneficial.
It maybe for some people as they do as what they are told to do.e.g. They listen to other bands.See how good they are.
Look at what they are good at and apply to ourselves.
Instead of doing so, to me i reckon our band would only criticise other bands sound and more.
I reckon we should be more humble and see what they are good at and see what we are lacking off and apply it to ourselves.Really i'm not just saying this.But i really.really think so.
We should also not take it to hard.Accept comments given by others.Improve ourselves if the comments aren't positive.
Instead we blame them and saying they aren't musically inclined and they don't have a clue about music.
If to those who aren't musically inclined yet can hear that our sound is awful what more those professionals and judges whose going to judge us on SYF.
Other than that people will be going round asking for digits.
Sigh**
I don't mind.
But it just beats the purpose to why we are there in the first place.
Honestly, i'm very2 worried.!
I reckon we should buck up!..push aside all those conflicts and differences and bond together our relationship just for this few days so that we can get our sound together.
Ok band members.Pull yourself together.Its the last lap of the race.
We can achieve what we want if we do our best.!
Other than that.LOL.
i've got nothing better to say.
LOL.
Take care.
People do your homework.
O'level is so so near.
LOL.
see you people around.
Cheers!
Assalammualaikum
-iznieno-
P.S.I'm starting to accept the fact about hadi.Not so obsessed with him.I reckon i'm more concerned for my O'level and SYF than relationships.But whatever it is.
I'm still not going to give up on him.Simple reason.I LOVE HIM.and will always be my nutty skinhead!
single but unavailable.
To that misterious someone.It's so childish and ridiculous and immature to get to know someone through messaging or whatever.okay?.Sorry i couldn't be bothered.More better things to do.
Mizah i so miss u!
ok goo..

Updates!.Updates!.
sorry bloggy, i haven't been updating you..lol.
I was only updating my template.lol.
cool huh the pictures on the right hand side of the blog.
LOL.
Credits to yanti for making those animations on those pictures.
Anyway.
Lets flash back to all those things that had happened.

Started tuition last sunday.
Super fun.
Went to esplanade afterwards to study.yeah fun2.
Was suppose to be my third month anniversary with hadieo montana.Sadly.
Talked to him on the phone and all.
Saw comic strip's vocalist at LJS.super friendly.
Monday was alright.That was like yesterday.
went to JE with yanti because our friend here was very careless and forgetful that she left her notepad full of homework and notes under the desk to the fact it was our first tuition lesson.
Oh yeah.Was 18 bucks richer!.
LOL.how cool huh.
Moving onn..
Talked to mizah the whole journey to JE and back.LOL.Sorry yanti.she needed me i guess.=)
Thanks for understanding.
Went home after that.
Went online..then...
Got to know somebody likes me.LOL..
Sorry dude I don't know if you like me as a friend or more.Whatever it is, i'm not into relationship or kenal-kenalans.
Reason..I'm not over him yet.

Hoping for him to call..But turns out was yanti..and mizah's mum..
FINALLY at around 11 plus he called me up.
Apologising that he called me late.
Said he didn't even look or heard his phone ring as he chucked his phone somewhere because he was lazy to see his phone or whatever.He doesn't think a handphone is useful.
Oh well.
guess what.the call ended in 2minutes.what a brief one huh.
Put down the phone.
Couldn't sleep because i couldn't stop thinking of my maths test that was held the following day that is today.
My file's with my maths teacher.And damn i didn't have notes to study but had to depend on my textbook.Well, slept after that.
Woke up around 3.30..studied.yeah.I can only study in the morning..Quite surprising how i can be so active in school even if i didn't have enough sleep.LOL.
Went to school.Met with yanti before that.Placed fatin's trumpet at her house.
And off to school.
I got caught.As in for grooming.FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE!
I don't think my skirt is tight.
My skirt is the flarest among the malay girls skirts in class.
oh well..had to pay 12 bucks.Mum's screaming at my ears.haiyoo.
I failed my POA.which sucks.
I reckon my maths test i'm going to fail too.
Had rehearsal for speech day during band.
I wasn't confident with conducting just now.And i hate it lots.
I want to go out with mizah before she flies off to Paris in the week or two.
*sigh*..its ok.If she wants to go with her boyfriend.Go ahead.I understand...*rather speechless*
By the way to that girl..i pity her that she's pregnant.Oh well..how sad that an intelligent girl innocent looking like her could end up like that.Sigh**
well..I've put on lots of weight currently.
I can know my butt's getting bigger to the fact that i couldn't fit into my hot pants when it came to fit my butt part.Argh.suck big time.
Its ok.Im still happy with my body.Just have to loose abit of the fats on my tummy thats making look as though i have a bloated stomach.
Okay i guess i'm gona end it here.
Suddenly my heart feels very2 uneasy.
I have no idea why.
I need to sleep before i wake up later to do my Geography.
OK..go.
anything call me up at my handphone.
Ben thanks for being my bitch since those girls that i usually talk on the phone isn't there to talk to me.
I miss talking to Ben on the phone.Yeah when i tell him all those stupid and silly things of myself and the people around me.
Okay..so emotional.
Stop it.
Ben's just a school friend by the way.
I spend 30mins with Fana just now.
What a get together like old times.I miss her.
I miss Mizah.
hrmm.
I guess i'm just expecting too much from a friend.
What more a boyfriend..
Sigh**
ok.stopp it.
i must think positive and know that i'm single.
Sigh**
Still can't accept the fact.
hrmm.
*deep thoughts*

Toodles.
Tc.
Cheers!
Assalammualaikum.
-iznieno-

P.S.I'm still in love with Hadieo Montana.
Still can't get over him.
Hopefully a miracle works and we be back together again.
I don't wish to go for anyone else except for him.
Single but unavailable.**
=)

"This is what you are supposed to cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things about themselves as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog."


1- I get angry in school all of a sudden or during the times when there's nothing bothering me.[maybe its just temper.]

2- If i don't have a boyfriend at the very moment, a girlfriend would be my substitute for me to fulfill my urges.LOL.[Don't think crap.I'll just jokingly touch their hands or i'll hug and give kisses to them.On the cheeks i mean!.LOL]

3- I tend to look at a person's mouth or nose when they talk to me.I'm not observing anything, its just me.

4- I love pinching my own bulges especially when i sit and all the bulges from my stomach are freaking obvious.LOL!

5- I tend to look at grown females and check their body whether they're hot or not and tell the people who are with me about it.

6- I love to hold and not pee when i feel like it until i have teary eyes then i'll go to the toilet.

I can't think of anymore weird stuffs.

6 people that's chosen to do this.

- Yanti

- Fad

- Didi

- Shikin

- Dee

- AiNni

LOL.i directly copied n paste everything to here from fad.LOL.
kk.copyright from fad.LOL.

I was tagged by fad by the wayy..

Entry for today.
First of all.I haven't been updating for the past few days.
Well didn't have the time to sit and blog.
Went out.On wednesday because had sports day on the following day.
Went to band and had plans with yanti to watch stomp the yard.Damn cool!
yes.I repeat Damn COOL!.highly recommended.
Farhan and Hakim tagged along.
Went to JE first because they wanted to sign up for tuition.
At Just Mathematics.
WooHoo.
I've got friends for tuition.
Some motivations.
Well.was quite crushed with what hadi said.
He told me not to put high hopes on him.
He wasn't ready for a relationship.
He doesn't want me back then.
Well i was hoping we could get back on the 25th.
He doesn't want to.
I can't force.
Had no mood for sports day the following day.
Met with tasha,mirah and husna and kecik too.
They were late.
I was early.
Even though they were late for a few minutes after i was quite pissed.
Not their fault though.
Was just me and my sucky mood.
After they arrived, went to smoke awhile.Felt relieved then.
Kecik was late.
Shook hands and we all boarded the bus to Clementi Stadium.
I wasn't talking to anyone.
They were really concerned.And they think this thing about me and hadi is really getting in my head.
Well,the mood faded away when we were all sitting and watching the race.
Yeah.Hong kah really have good athletes.LOL.
Sat with imran updated him with what had been going on with me.
Talked to yan..sebastian..LOL.
Saw fhamy.Reminded me about hadi.
So tried my best not to think about hadi.
The sun was blaring hot!
Went to JP after that to eat with those that i went to the stadium with.
Ate omelette with fried noodles.DELICIOUS!
Met with mizah at JP she finished school.I miss her.LOL.
Well i guess i just need my friends to be there for me most of the time to get over him.
Oh well.
Went home.Kecik and tasha accompanied me home.
Met fad and went to session with yat afterwards.tasha met fad for the first time and tasha said fad really look like chinese.Okay fad stop smiling okaY?.LOL.
Moving on.
Session and did some excersices that we usually do while during school band practices.LOL.i mean tought yat.LOL..Concert mistress what.
LOL.
Ate roti john..cooked by yats mum.delicious!.
Was really shy at first but i was smiling sheepishly all the way.Have no idea why.
LOL.
Head home after that.
Mum and dad nagged all the way.
Mizah came my house then.
Love her lots.
Thanks for accompanying me do my homework.
Oh yar she slept at my house to for a little while.
LOL.slept like a baby.
Yet she was snoring.LOL!..i know now.
Maybe she was tired thats why.
Anyway.Continuing on.She headed home after that.
And as soon i was home, missed call hadi but he didn't call back.
Was expecting that already.
Slept then.
Lots of messages received the next morning.LOL!
Lazy to reply.Got ready to school.Was early though.
had no mood.
Friends were concerned.
They blamed hadi for what's happening to me.
I have been falling sick easily nowadays.This been happening ever since i had that heated arguement with hadi.
Oh well.I'm stressing myself too much i guess.
Nextly.
In school was so quiet.The only time i talked was when i was to shout at someone or ask somebody about something.Went home straight after school without waiting for everyone.I had to cool myself down before i let out my anger to someone whose innocent.
Ben has been getting on my nerves.
Hasn't been much of a help though.
I'm hoping hakim.yanti.farhan and me to be close.Just thought of it anyway..don't think that would happen though.
Anyway..
Had fun at band.
Had rehearsal for speech day.
Irritated Hazwan as he was the assistant parade commander.LOL.
And i was incharged for the playing of the band.Since i was in the mood to disturb wan, i irritated him by playing songs that were different from marching steps.And the whole squad got confused and couldn't follow the timer.And they had to repeat and repeat.ALL THANKS TO ME!
LOL!.
NO GRUDGES ALRIGHT?..JUST TRYING TO SPICE THINGS UP,LOL!
I think the only time to see me happy is when i'm in band.
I love HKMB.=)
My flu.fever and headache and heartache getting worst.
to the fact that i want to go out tomorrow.And yat said we aren't performing for sundays gig.Sigh**..I already brought home the trumpet.
Damn it.
Got to know the news when i was at macdonald eating with is,yanti,fatin.Saw hafiz our senior.Talked and disturbed him a lot.!.LOL.
got free fries from yasrina too!.[our ex senior too]
LOL.thanks!
Head home.
my mood swing came back.
So i'm kind of pissed right now.
Mizah called talk to me too.
Anyway......
Yat..
fad..
mizah..
tasha..
mey..
husna..
told me to move on.
he is not worth my time.
when someone makes you unhappy, they aren't worth your time.
If they really love you, they will come back.
If someone says not have high hopes on them, in otherwards.it means forget about me and move on because i'm moving on to and i won't turn back to you.
Oh well.
hope he finds a better person, who satisfies his needs.Worth while.Tolerates him.
He says he not ready for relationship?..well.we'll see alright?
Ok.if only he could read my entries.Know how i feel.
And feel a stab on his chest.
I'll love to see that happening.
I got this from yanti by the way.
I think it reminds me of how hadi and i were when were together.
He was as sweet as what this few sentences were.

"I wanted more than just a man
I needed a friend
Someone I can talk to someone who really listens
When you touched my hand the sun got brighter then
Trusting you I closed my eyes and felt our love begin.."

He wasn't just a boyfriend.He was a best friend to me too.
I don't know why its so hard for me to forget and let him go.Sigh**.


LYRICs...Song PLAIN WHITE T's-LETS PRETEND.
If you really gotta know, I'm not doing so good.
turned out to hurt more then I thought it would.
cuz i just can't handle losing you again
but the last thing i want is to just be friends
we've been through the same thing time and time again
Let's pretend.
(Let's pretend everythings fine)
put on our fake smiles and keep wasting our time
Let's pretend we're fine
Go out in style and come home in denile
let's pretend we're fine
If you really gotta kno, I'm not doing so good.
It hurt me way more then I thought it could.
Cuz I just can't handle losing you again
but the last thing i want is to just be friends
we've been through the same thing time and time again
Let's pretend.
(Let's pretend everythings fine)
put on our fake smiles and keep wasting our time
Let's pretend we're fine
Go out in style and come home in denile
let's pretend we're fine
lie to ourselves
lie to everyone else
take anymore of this make believe romance
is killing my make believe mind
(its killing my make believe mind)
but i rather pretend we're together
then know we're apart
Let's pretend.
(Let's pretend everythings fine)
put on our fake smiles and keep wasting our time
Let's pretend we're fine
Go out in style and come home in denile
let's pretend we're fine

Anywayy...
Mey..also said i need to give some space.
Well i think i'm doing that.Lets see if it works.Thanks mey for the suggestions.=)
Didn't talk to him yesterday.Guess maybe not today either.
I'll be going out tomorrow.
Alone?.I guess.with fad if she's free.Hope mizah could tag along if she's free too.
Alright.I'm done here.
i'll update tomorrow if anything happens outside tomorrow.
Hope to see him at cityhall tomorrow.
Guess i'll be going to study first before meeting the rest.That is if they could tag along.
See you tomorrow mey.-->getting cardigen from her!.WooHoo.lovely!.
Alright.I'm running my thought too much.
Take care.
To people who reads my blog please tag!.
I want to know who reads my blog.
Thank you.
See ya'll when i see ya'll alright?
LOL.
Take care.
Toodles~
Assalammualaikum.
-iznieno
P.S.I'm still in love with you.
HeaRts HadieO MonTanA A heLL LoTs.

hello.
I'm here to update again.
As per usual.
Today has been alright.
I wasn't feeling upset in anyway.
Well did thought of him.
But it wasn't to the extend of till i had no mood that kind of thing.
LOL.
My english so broken right?
Anyway.
Messaged him in the morning.
The same message that i would send him every morning.
Messaged him again whether i could meet him up on thursday.
Sports day.No school.I so need a break.Hrmm.
Holidays weren't holidays.
I've got a POA test tomorrow.
Disposal account thingy.
There's lots of homework undone.
Even if i done my homework there still heaps and heaps of them coming my way.
Anyway.
In school, had lessons.
Everyone was very nice towards me.Jun Liang always creates nick names for me.
I can take criticism for some people.Like him.haha.
He called me an emo punk kid.How lame and crap.to the fact that i hate emo kids.because i think its not a culture anymore.people aren't in it for the real reason.Eg.for the music and custom.They just dress up like what everyone else dress.Trendy Wankers.And to see it now, its over rated for these people.Haiyoo..
LOL.
Mrs chuah wasn't in school.So no chemistry just now LOL!
Yes ahh!
Had physics practical.How fun.
I love practicals.!
Had english just now.
Read the article on the current affairs in ms hikmah's class just now.Interesting about muslims and sex before marriage thingy and being pregnant.
I don't mind if people to have sex.Yet if you going to do sex and cause a hell lots of problem to your parents then what children are you to your parents.Parents get all the blame,shame and burden.Well,i guess teens should be more responsible for their own actions.If they have sex, just don't get pregnant.Even if they do.Solve the matter yourself.
Anyway,read on the article about emo kids to.LOL. A pile of rubbish to what that was written.
I didn't agree with the whole article.
Read it yourself from ms hikmah's class.
My classmates gave me new names.like emo hip hop girl.
How crappy.yet i was laughing like mad.Because i don't reaaly mind.LOL.
Hip hop because of my email addy.Argh!.Again i'm going to mention this.That email add was since i was in primary school!.I was into the genre that was the reason why.But not anymore now!.LOL.
Anyway, we did grammer.
And there was this part where we had spell the words and not use sms language.LOL.
Ms hikmah:-"is there anymore words that all of you use for sms language?"
Yanti:- "yeah..btw..by the way.."
Izni:"ANW."
Ms hikmah..Looked stoinked.LOL.
She thought anw was the fast food restaurant.LOL.when it actually means anyway.
2nd part..
Ms Hikmah:-"anymore?"
Brandon and Jun Liang:-"KNN CCB"
Ms Hikmah:-"huh?"
I was laughing my lungs out..
LOL.
Ms Hikmah:-"Repeat.."
Brandon and JunLiang:-"KNN CCB"
Izni:-"Kanninabu Chao Chibai.HAHAHAHA!!."
Ms Hikmah couldn't be bothered then.LOL!.
Had fun in english lesson.
Had POA.
Had band afterwards.
Accompanied my conductor, Mr hoe to eat his lunch.Talked to him too.
Had band practice outside the bandroom.
Practiced conducting.
I SUCK at it!
LOL.
Tried my best not to make Mr hoe pissed off.
Err.
Had sectional.Practically the whole tbone section was tired.So we went to one spot where no one would be able to see what we were up too.LOL.we talked and rest and had fun.LOL.
ALright.after band took attendence.as per usual.Tried my best to irritate jia chun or how ever its being spelled.LOL.
i love that french horn chinese girl.Mei chiao.or however its being spelled.LOL.
She fun lah!
Well.head home.As per usual.hoping hadi would give me a call on my handphone.but he didn't.Instead dot messaged me.Asking me about band and all.LDL i mean.
Hrm..When i told him i wanted to be active and very enthusiactic back into LDL.he was happy.And i was to,To the fact that some actually made me feel they still want me in the band.Hope he wasn't pretending though.
Reached home.Check for homework.LOTS OF THEM UNDONE.Plan to do my geography if there's time.
Head for computer.
Blogging.Msn-ing.
haha.
Mizah coming over my house.WooHoo.
i miss her.
Anyway.
Hadi still hasn't ring me up.
=(
i miss fad.i have no idea why.Maybe she helped me a lot.giving me advice and all.
Long time didn't talk to her.Miss listening to her talking about sepetism.Korea.and of course on how she observes people.LOL.
i miss hadi.On how he use to call me and talk to me endlessly.
Miss talking and going out with mizah.
Well thank god she's coming my house later.
Don't miss yanti.LOL.see her face every day.
I love her.
Sorry if i've been very touchy2. i won't touch you anymore unless it's necessary.
LOL.
Who else.......
I miss going out with LDL.
yeah,i really do..
By the way..
Ben cheer up.it isn't your fault about the interclass competition thing.
You didn't do it on purpose right?
So stop worrying.=)
I love my friends.
Norin..Wants to bring me M.O.S?
LOL.I miss you.By the way.if i can i will okay darling?.
Thanks for finding a way to help me relieve my stress.But i don't think clubbing is a way out.
Well, if i was to hav fun after my O's.Then yeah.i'll go.LOL.
Oh yerp.Heard the graduation night going to be brought forwad to the 12th of November.
If that's so..How cool!..It would be a day after my Birthday.And the garduation night would be part of my present.A birthday bash to..haha.Oh izni you dreaming way too much!
okay.
I'll end it here.
Now,
waiting for mizah's arrival.
Going to update bout what we will do and talk about in tomorrow's entry.so do keep a look out.
LOL.
See you all around.
Study hard.
O'level around the corner.
take care.
toodles~
assalammualaikum.=)
-izni-

hello.
updates here.
Well.
What can i say.
Today has been a neutral.just like every other day.
Well.
Last night talked to hadi.
And mizah.
They would both call at the same time always.
And end up putting th phone down almost at the same time.
It sucks.Because hadi will be talking to mizah.
I don't mind.
Neither do i care.It's just that i will feel very left out.To the fact that i can't talk to hadi about whatever infront of mizah.
Even though mizah knows everything.Yet mizah will talk to hadi as normal because they have no issues unlike me.
Well.
I slept after that.
Went to school in the morning.School started.
Well.There's no different.School holiday or not.Sometimes i feel everyday is the same that nothing makes me go wow.till i don't even know what day it is already.
Met up with m dearest yanti.She reprimanded me.I'm sorry i was late.
We headed off to school then.
As per usual met mey, tasha, kecik in the school toilet.Tasha was buzy spraying her hair.
Gosh!...my dear tasha just dye your hair black for this few months okay?.And after our O'level examinations you can dye thousands of colour for your hair.LOL!
Well, parted from yanti and sat with mey and tasha.Yerps.
Our mouths are damn bubbly.Updated them with what i did for my holidays.
So yeps.They know about hadi too.
They couldn't believe what they heard.
Tasha adviced me. And told me heaps of things which i hope wouldn't come true while i'm in this situation with him.
Hrmm..She also said even after 6 days i'm still in this state.
Maybe in taking it a little to hard.
Well JUST A LITTLE!
LOL.
Anyways.Had chemistry for ME.
sucks.but still studied and tried to concentrate.
Physics was alright.Did some cool yet stupid experiments.LOL.
Then had our free period.Did POA.
Talked to nab and the rest.
The girls adviced me too.LOL.
I reckon i need lots of advice.
Oh yeah.
All of them said this one thing.
With time, the wound will heal.
Hopefully not.
Because i want to be with him.
I hope with time things will be alright again.
Yes.I wish for that.
Had recess.Sat with the 4B girls as per usual.That's a must every monday.
Had maths after recess.
I couldn't take it.
My eyes were too heavy to open.Maybe because i had a heavy meal during recess.LOL.
did get to absorb some things.
Izni buck up!!
LOL.anyway.
After mathematics, had DNT for 2hours.
Did a test.Nadiah was so mad.that i thought her tone was a bit harsh towards mdm chuah.LOL.
Yeah i kind of joined he a little bit.To create a little more noise.LOL.
What can i say..
Then i messaged hadi.
LOL.Nothing better to do huh.
Said i wanted to meet up with him.
His first reply was his last reply too.
Oh well.
Was very angry during DNT too.
Ian raised his voice at me just because i told him to repeat what mdm chuah said.I asked mdm chuah to repeat.I said it politely she said no and laughed.And when i asked Ian he did what i mentioned earlier.I turned to fariz hoping he would repeat but he did the same as what Ian did.I was raged with anger.
I was pissed off.
I turned to my original seat.Listened to my Mp3.
Fariz soon came asking me for correction fluid.I said some valguar word and fleed him away.
Everyone knew i was angry.
LOL.
Even Nadiah was afraid to talk to me.
LOL.
She only answered questions when i asked.
Nab didn't talk to me either.
I only started talking to them during break time.
I did my Physics during break.Whoever dared to disturb me will get a free gift of a screaming or a valguar word.LOL.
So i was alright after DNT.
I guess i can't clique with guys anymore.
I mean i can.But for this period of time I can't.
I think hadi's running in my head too much.Oh well.
Any guy that ticks me off, i will confront them.
LOL.
Oh well..
Anyway.
Had POA.new chapter.
Hrmm.
i've got heaps of test coming up.
Maths.POA..*sigh*
die.
Anyway.
Was happy when school ended.
Went to Jurong Point with yanti.toured around jurong point for don't know how many rounds.
LOL.
Ate at Banquet.Rojak India.My favourite.LOL.
can never resist indian food.
Well took photos while eating.Practically sat at banquet for time to pass before continuing our tour in JP.
Yes found a new shop that just open.
A korean shop.
Yanti loved it.
LOL.
i bet fad will too.
Was dazzled looking at guys on the para2 dance machine.LOL.cool.they can really dance.
FYI.It was chinese guys.
My mood went down.And i started talking to yanti about hadi again when we were in toy r us.
Well.its because i suddenly thought of him
And secondly.its because..he called me.
Talked to me for awhile.
Said he reached home already and bla3.
Hrmm.didn't get to meet him though.
Well.
Head home after that.
Lazing at home and updating my blog for now.
Yes.by the way.
sad to say.After the break up with hadi guys have been appearing in my life.
Well.i don't them i just want hadi.
I 'm not over him yet.
hrmm.Sorry.
I'm still very much in love with hadi.
See hadi i'm very sincere towards you.
Well to bad you can't see it.
Hrmm.
Mui Wei didn't make it for the audition thingy.She messaged me earlier just now.Its okay Mui Wei.I admire you for being so brave to sing infront of so many people.No worries alright!.LOL.
Thanks fad for helping me with my myspace profile.I'm loving my profile.my blog.now.Left with friendster only.Argh!.
Anyway, i guess i'm going to start back on my old routine.Not that bad habit stuff.
Its the..Performing at gigs.
Study at home.Get me distracted with all this so i won't have time like i used to flirt around or do anything to have time for guys.LOL.
Yes2.
My bad habits.
Yes i've thrown it all away.
NO more Drinking of alcohol.
NO more smoke everyday.Maybe once in awhile.LOL.*cackles*
NO more piercings.I don't want to show or give people the impression that i'm bad.
I still got to give face to my beloved mum.MUM I LOVE YOU.
I'm trying to turn over a new leaf here.LOL.
alright.
thats all.
i'm done here.
take care.
anything contact me through myspace.friendster.my blog.my handphone.msn.okay?
LOL.
see all of you soon.
cheers!
ToodLes.~
Assalammualaikum=)
-izni-

Siti.Me.Su.Aidah.Yanti.

Yanti.Me.

hallu.
to everyone.
Great day?
It's only 10.22 am.It's still early.
Currently trying my best to multi-task.
LOL.
Doing english composition.While blogging.
I woke up pretty early.I woke up around 7 plus.
yes2.
Couldn't sleep after that.
Started on my homework.
And headed to my computer here.
LOL.
Did english while surfing the internet.
No wonder my english suck big time.
LOL.
Continuing on.
I msged him.He called me soon after but we talked less then five minutes.How sucky is that.
But oh well.
hrmm.
He was going out.to cut his hair.
Yes.He needs to be bald.
Anyway.i talked to him last night.
For like half an hour if i'm not mistaken.
I msged him whether we would ever be back together again.
I'm not shy to post this online.
Yes i may sound desperate.
But not for many guys.Its just for him.
People don't know what i've been through with him to a point i can't let him go that easily.
Hrmm.
Well anyway.
He kept on making me feel that since i'm single and so is he. We could both do anything we want.
Well, he kept on making me feel that i'm running after him.I hate it.It's like to him whatever if he was to do, i would still stick to him.
Please..If you start to be that way, i'll go for someone else even though how painful it is to do that.
Argh..i regret having a boyfriend to the fact that i know i'll be back in Australia end of this year.
Sucks big time.
It's like i can't fall in love with anyone.Until i'm done with school.
Well..that's true.
But oh well.
i Don't know how to explain it in words.
hrmm,
i'm starting to loose my feelings towards him.
Is it because i'm trying hard to forget him?
Because i don't think he still have feelings for me.
Anyway.I don't really care if he doesn't msg me.
I don't really care if he doesn't call me.
Oh well..Am i running away?
I feel like there is no use to wait for someone who is just toying around with you isn't it?
Oh well..
tc.I'm having my performance later.!..Hours aways!.
I can't wait to meet my trombone mates.!.We going nutty later!.
YEah!
Yanti don't be nervous you'll do great.You the best clarinetist ever.
Thank you for fetching me later.LOL.
I'm loving you!.Thanks for being there when i was reaally feeling down.
Mizah..where are you?
Anyway.
happi seventh month with yanto okay?
they've been through lots.Yet they still together.
*I ENVY THEM!*
Happy Birthday Yan.
Cheers mate!
Don't get my friend to Drunk okay?
Take care of her.If not i'll kill you!
LOL!.
Cheers!
LDL the best..LOL.
Hadii..no comments..LOL.
OK go..I just finished my english composition.
Can you believe it.I've been a medic in the school band since secondary 2.
LOL.
Okay ms hikmah i'll bring the first aid kit.=)
Yes. She told me to bring it to our performance so in any case anyone falls sick or have any minor injuries.I'll be there to help them out.
True to what Ms hikmah says.
Start to train myself.
Train what u must be wondering right?
Yes. I want to be a nurse in the future.=)
How cool right.
alright.
take care.
My mood has been great even if i'm alone.
A good sign.=)
I have no idea what's with the change in mood.LOL.
Oh well.
take care again.
cheers!
I love Mum.
I love Dad.
I love Mizah.
I love Yanti.
I love my trombone.
I love my trombone mates.
I love my digital camera.
I love Loop-De-Lye
I...errmm..Lovvvee..Hadi?..er..dunOo ehh.
LOL.
Ok stop it.
toOdLes.
-izni-

Hey..
I'm updating for the second time for today.
Went out to school for social studies remedial.
Hrmm..gonna miss mr tommy lee because his going away for a couple of weeks and we're going to be stuck with a new teacher.
Err.Hope she's as cool and fun as mr lee.
Anyway after school went to macdonald with yanti, zaidi, fariz and farhan.
We had lunch.The funny thing was first farhan bought food for himself.I felt hungry soon after that.Bought mac spicy.Fariz then bought the same set of meal because he said my mac spicy meal look appetizing.LOL!.Zaidi too bought the same thing to.How cool is that.
Anyway.Followed on with my plans then.
Invited yanti to come along.At first the whole group wanted to come.Then plans got changed as they said esplanade was too far for them to travel.
So yes.I went on with my original plan.That was to go and study alone at esplanade.
I guess i'm used to the place already and it's the only place that i could sit and do my homework or to study.
So yeah went to fads house to do my hair.
Together with mizah.Mizah made my plans run a lil off just now.Honestly i was starting to have mood swings when she came.But i have no idea why i still smiled when she came i guess i was just happy that she arrived.
Went to fad house thank god she was already awake.LOL.
yerp.Did my hair.As per usual.Will take a very long time to do so.
When i look at the time after my hair was done.Damn.I couldn't wait anymore.
I went out of fads house.Left mizah behind.LOL.Not on purpose.But i had to catch up with time.
So reached esplanade around 4 plus 5 i guess.Yes.i had less than 2 hours to do my homework.Reason because...I MET UP WITH HADIEO MONTANA!..yes2!Met him up ard 6.45.i came 10mins late though.Sorry..
I couldn't stand a chance not to meet up with him.
So i did.
I looked at him.with his school uniform and his bagpack.Awee..so adorable!I LOVE U!.
Yes.He looked stunned when he saw me.
I had no idea why.
He said the way i dress up just now was really different from what i usually wore.
Indeed the comment from him was true.I,myself think so too.
Anyway.
He said i look different to.As in my face.Well, maybe he hasn't seen me for a long time with make up i guess.
Hrmm..
We talked as though everything was as per normal.
IT ISN'T OKAY?
LOL.
yes.i've got to admit it was kind of awkward.
Well we kept a distance from each other.
No hand holdings.
No huggies.
No kisses.
LOL.
At the beginning.
But then.
After some time i couldn't take it anymore.i miss him.
Well, i couldn't resist.So i did the three things i listed on top.
I couldn't be bothered even if we have no strings attached.
Well...
he asked me..what i meant by i hate the fact that he's single.
LOL.Well, what i meant was.i want him to be mine.ONLY MINE.
haiz.
Anyway.
he getting chubby.His tummy gone up.Where has his tight unflabby tummy gone to?
OMG!.
Oh well.I still love him!.
Well head home after that.
Heart him loads.
Hopes he call me later.
*praying hard*.
Should i still wait for him?
Or just move on.?
Should patch back with him?
Or just move on?
Leave your comments please..
thank you.
By the way.
I'll be performing tomorrow at PeiCai Sec school
yes2.Don't worry no cute guys to recommend.LOL.
I'll be performing with loop-de-lye..wooHHooo..yes2.can't wait.
okay.
i'm done here.
I LOVE HADIEO MONTANA.
take care.
see all of you around.
cheers!.
oh..by the way..
Assalammualaikum.=)
-iznieno-

hey..
To everyone.
well.the reasons for me not to be updating my blog like how i used to because i was too buzy, lazy and of course i was'nt in a mood to update.
As simple as that.
Now that i've so called have regained the mood back to actually update it.
Well here goes.
I got my result slip back for the first term.
yeah,i failed my mathematics.which suckz a lot to the fact that mathematics is my FAVOURITE subject.
I've only got one pathetic A1.for POA.
Shitty ain't it.well i guess i have too much of distractions during the time i had my test.And of course i can't blame it all on what had happened.I've got to say that it's particially my fault too.
Hrm..i can't denie to the fact that what happened recently didn't affect my studies.
And i thank god for making this problem occur during the "holidays".If it was to happen during school days, i don't think i would be able to think nor study.
Well, i guess all of you must be wondering what had actually happened isn't it?
LOL.
The only thing that hasn't made me feel happy or having me at my happiest mood is really2 hadi.
He made me feel as though i was really not needed in his life.
Well, kind of cocky to be saying this, i need him.I want the old him back.
The reason being, I LOVE HIM.
He ignored me for the whole week before my school holidays.
I blame myself for what had happened on the previous saturday.That was on.Last,last saturday.
Get what i mean right?
Anyway.
We were all going out as per normal.
Hadi,mizah,me.then met his friends.Like mun and whoever that was there.
Well, when we were all at peninsula, i bumped into a friend of mine.I have no idea why i bumped into so many of my school mates on that particular day.
So back to the story, bumped into my friend Fhamy.Yes Fhamy Esmeth.
Well, cut the story short of what happened then, after we've seated down.I told hadi fhamy is good looking.I thought he wouldn't take it seriously.But he did.And he blurted out words that made me kind of infury. To the fact that i was having my menses.So it was easy for me to let out my anger.So i tried to control.well.as stupid as i can be.i just walked away.told mizah to come along with me.yeah.i needed a smoke.
So went to buy ciggaretes.I didn't say anything to him then.There was where it all started from.
I BLAME MYSELF.
From there we were either turning on cold shoulder to each other,acting sarcastic to one another.And not forgetting trying to avoid each other too.
Well,i was trying to get close to him.I was devastated.At my lowest point.I was sad.I didn't want to talk to anyone about this other then yanti and mizah.yeah.thanks you ladies.I cried every waking hours when i'm alone.And i'll be awake when everyone else's asleep.
That week was a nightmare for me.Yet i present a smile to everyone else.To me there's no good reason to be moody towards the person who isn't in any wrong towards us.
Yerp.
Moving on.
My holidays.
I wanted to spend quality time with him.But with what had happened, there was no way we were to even have time for each other.
Then from what i know, he told me its just him.He was already fine with what happened. Since his probation was finishing, the other him was coming out.His other personality.His fucked up attitude.
Well, i couldn't take it anymore.
So i decided to meet him.He came down.
At first i thought the problem will never get solved.
To me he wasn't serious at all.Then we talked and it took him into deep thoughts.
I told him the decision is in his hands.I'll continue the relationship and he has to change.To the old him.And not have a split personality.
We head home after that.
He msged me afterwords.
Saying it was better if we were friends.So he won't be hurting me anymore.
Well, I never thought breaking up would ever be an option.But he said it..at that point of time.My mind was already calm because we already talked the matter out.
Yet i couldn't control my emotions.
I cried like hell. He called me up.
He felt really bad.
He regretted his actions but its the best way.
*I'M CURRENTLY HAVING TEARY EYES*
Well..things had to be this way.
I just thought of having a long term relationship because i've never been in one.
Hrmm..
I love him.
Really i do.
His the first person who really stole my heart away.
Things don't go the way it always do huh.
Well.the following day i met with yanti.I cried again.
Met mizah yesterdae.and had teary eyes.I know it would be along time for me to get over him.
But i don't think i could find anyone better then him.
His the best.
And i'm gonna win his heart back.
During this time.The song i've been listening to is.Tears.By comic Strip.yes.
Every time i listen to that song, it will remind me of him.
Oh well.....
Only time will tell....
I LOVE YOU LOTS HADI.
MY ONE AND ONLY NUTTY SKINHEAD.
tc.
tooOdLeesS~

Hey you.
Don't watch that.
Watch this.
This is a heavy heavy montrous sound.
The nuttiest sounds around.
So if you coming up the street and you're beginning to feel the heat.
Well listen buster! You better start to move your feet.
To the rockiedies rocksteady beat of MADNESS!
ONE STEP BEYOND!

haha..sorry for being so irritating and annoying for those taking dnt class with me!.
haha.well i've been reciting those words up there for many2 times that they were so irritated with me!Well you all know me right?.haha.hrmm
talking about school, I don't think i've been doing very well like how i used 2 when i was in secondary 3.I gues i've too many distractions around me now.
Well lets list somethings that has proven about what i wrote in the above paragraph.
1)MATHEMATICS TEST.
First test:-12/20
Second test:-5/20
Third test:- 4/25
2)POA TEST
First Test:-19/25
Second Test:- 25/20
Well..mathematics has been my best subject.
oh wow.
what a drastic change in me
well.i think i know what had caused me to be like that.
well..i have been in no good terms with my nutty skinhead.
including today, it's been 6 days that we haven't been argueing.
I HATE IT!
He is the closest one to me.
MY BOYFRIEND,MY BEST FRIEND.
THANKS TO YANTI AND MIZAH FOR COMFORTING ME ALL THIS WHILE.
=)
hrmm..I'm burning up a fever!
Some said i'm just too stressed.
Some said i'm just pressurised by a lot of stuff.
OH WELL.
I'M just praying that things would turn out to be fine.
alrite.got to rest now.
tc
to all.
cheerZ!
ill update lata.
my cuzzie using computer.
=)
iznieno

Izni.
18 ish.
The beach is the best place to be.
Part Time employee.
Full Time Student.
Fullest Time dedicated to sleep and party.
If one day there wasn't any food left to eat,
I'd live on Malboro Reds and Ice Lemon Tea Seasons.
& Last, I live by this quote..
Work Hard, party HARDER.