Monday, March 19, 2007;
7:22 PM
hello.
updates here.
Well.
What can i say.
Today has been a neutral.just like every other day.
Well.
Last night talked to hadi.
And mizah.
They would both call at the same time always.
And end up putting th phone down almost at the same time.
It sucks.Because hadi will be talking to mizah.
I don't mind.
Neither do i care.It's just that i will feel very left out.To the fact that i can't talk to hadi about whatever infront of mizah.
Even though mizah knows everything.Yet mizah will talk to hadi as normal because they have no issues unlike me.
Well.
I slept after that.
Went to school in the morning.School started.
Well.There's no different.School holiday or not.Sometimes i feel everyday is the same that nothing makes me go wow.till i don't even know what day it is already.
Met up with m dearest yanti.She reprimanded me.I'm sorry i was late.
We headed off to school then.
As per usual met mey, tasha, kecik in the school toilet.Tasha was buzy spraying her hair.
Gosh!...my dear tasha just dye your hair black for this few months okay?.And after our O'level examinations you can dye thousands of colour for your hair.LOL!
Well, parted from yanti and sat with mey and tasha.Yerps.
Our mouths are damn bubbly.Updated them with what i did for my holidays.
So yeps.They know about hadi too.
They couldn't believe what they heard.
Tasha adviced me. And told me heaps of things which i hope wouldn't come true while i'm in this situation with him.
Hrmm..She also said even after 6 days i'm still in this state.
Maybe in taking it a little to hard.
Well JUST A LITTLE!
LOL.
Anyways.Had chemistry for ME.
sucks.but still studied and tried to concentrate.
Physics was alright.Did some cool yet stupid experiments.LOL.
Then had our free period.Did POA.
Talked to nab and the rest.
The girls adviced me too.LOL.
I reckon i need lots of advice.
Oh yeah.
All of them said this one thing.
With time, the wound will heal.
Hopefully not.
Because i want to be with him.
I hope with time things will be alright again.
Yes.I wish for that.
Had recess.Sat with the 4B girls as per usual.That's a must every monday.
Had maths after recess.
I couldn't take it.
My eyes were too heavy to open.Maybe because i had a heavy meal during recess.LOL.
did get to absorb some things.
Izni buck up!!
LOL.anyway.
After mathematics, had DNT for 2hours.
Did a test.Nadiah was so mad.that i thought her tone was a bit harsh towards mdm chuah.LOL.
Yeah i kind of joined he a little bit.To create a little more noise.LOL.
What can i say..
Then i messaged hadi.
LOL.Nothing better to do huh.
Said i wanted to meet up with him.
His first reply was his last reply too.
Oh well.
Was very angry during DNT too.
Ian raised his voice at me just because i told him to repeat what mdm chuah said.I asked mdm chuah to repeat.I said it politely she said no and laughed.And when i asked Ian he did what i mentioned earlier.I turned to fariz hoping he would repeat but he did the same as what Ian did.I was raged with anger.
I was pissed off.
I turned to my original seat.Listened to my Mp3.
Fariz soon came asking me for correction fluid.I said some valguar word and fleed him away.
Everyone knew i was angry.
LOL.
Even Nadiah was afraid to talk to me.
LOL.
She only answered questions when i asked.
Nab didn't talk to me either.
I only started talking to them during break time.
I did my Physics during break.Whoever dared to disturb me will get a free gift of a screaming or a valguar word.LOL.
So i was alright after DNT.
I guess i can't clique with guys anymore.
I mean i can.But for this period of time I can't.
I think hadi's running in my head too much.Oh well.
Any guy that ticks me off, i will confront them.
LOL.
Oh well..
Anyway.
Had POA.new chapter.
Hrmm.
i've got heaps of test coming up.
Maths.POA..*sigh*
die.
Anyway.
Was happy when school ended.
Went to Jurong Point with yanti.toured around jurong point for don't know how many rounds.
LOL.
Ate at Banquet.Rojak India.My favourite.LOL.
can never resist indian food.
Well took photos while eating.Practically sat at banquet for time to pass before continuing our tour in JP.
Yes found a new shop that just open.
A korean shop.
Yanti loved it.
LOL.
i bet fad will too.
Was dazzled looking at guys on the para2 dance machine.LOL.cool.they can really dance.
FYI.It was chinese guys.
My mood went down.And i started talking to yanti about hadi again when we were in toy r us.
Well.its because i suddenly thought of him
And secondly.its because..he called me.
Talked to me for awhile.
Said he reached home already and bla3.
Hrmm.didn't get to meet him though.
Well.
Head home after that.
Lazing at home and updating my blog for now.
Yes.by the way.
sad to say.After the break up with hadi guys have been appearing in my life.
Well.i don't them i just want hadi.
I 'm not over him yet.
hrmm.Sorry.
I'm still very much in love with hadi.
See hadi i'm very sincere towards you.
Well to bad you can't see it.
Hrmm.
Mui Wei didn't make it for the audition thingy.She messaged me earlier just now.Its okay Mui Wei.I admire you for being so brave to sing infront of so many people.No worries alright!.LOL.
Thanks fad for helping me with my myspace profile.I'm loving my profile.my blog.now.Left with friendster only.Argh!.
Anyway, i guess i'm going to start back on my old routine.Not that bad habit stuff.
Its the..Performing at gigs.
Study at home.Get me distracted with all this so i won't have time like i used to flirt around or do anything to have time for guys.LOL.
Yes2.
My bad habits.
Yes i've thrown it all away.
NO more Drinking of alcohol.
NO more smoke everyday.Maybe once in awhile.LOL.*cackles*
NO more piercings.I don't want to show or give people the impression that i'm bad.
I still got to give face to my beloved mum.MUM I LOVE YOU.
I'm trying to turn over a new leaf here.LOL.
alright.
thats all.
i'm done here.
take care.
anything contact me through myspace.friendster.my blog.my handphone.msn.okay?
LOL.
see all of you soon.
cheers!
ToodLes.~
Assalammualaikum=)
-izni-
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