4:28 PM

hey...
Updates..
Yesterday had concert.yes.even though it was a mini concert, yet it was a blast.
Met with yanti before heading to school.LOL.Someone felt frustrated after not getting her hot chocolate from 7/11.haha!
Well, now you know how i felt then!
Anyway.
Talked to hadi when i was in school.Was a little pissed after that.
Yet tried my best to have fun.
Spilled Slurpee on aidah's uniform.Sorry2.
But lucky i got to clear the mess.*PHEW*
OK..then went off to pei cai..made noise all the way there.
Ms hikmah said i should stop singing.LOL!
But i continued.
Had fun there.!
I reckon we did great.
Mr hoe was happy.
HKMB as usual being crazy and supportive for other bands.
So when it was our turn to perform we got the support to.which brightened up everybody's day.
I had an oral test during the break.yeah.you guys must be wondering how weird is that huh.LOL.
Yes.So when i was buzy goofing around, ms hikmah pulled me aside and had me doing Oral.LOL.well.i did agree with her to do oral during the break.well my friends were all laughing at me.but i don't give a damn.LOL.
Ms hikmah said i could get a 10/12 for reading.with much practice i could get an 11/20.
Hopefully i could.
I'm already weak in my languages.
Err..
Well after a exhausting yet joyful day at pei cai.We head back to our school happily.
Well.thought of going out with LDL.
But dad messaged me saying we going out with the family to our usual place.Changi Beach..Firstly.i can never resist the beach.secondly.it was already late to be going out with friends.thirdly, i didn't want mum to be mad with me.And lastly.i was lazy to rush to go out and waste my ezlink credit.
So yeah.went out with family.
Together with the Atim's family.(Aunt and uncle with three sons.)
I shared ayam penyek with mum.YUMMY!..for the first time i actually ate ayam penyek.LOL.!
Hadi called me up.He called me just to hear my voice he said.Satisfying his needs of missing me?
LOL.Whatever.
Every time he calls me he gives me a heartache.
I have no idea why, but he makes me angry every time we put down the phone.
Making me feel jealous about a lot of things.hrmm.
So moving 0n.
Got home.
Couldn't sleep.Thinking about him.
I know my previous entry i said i wanted to forget about him.
But it seem as though i can't because he keeps coming back.
Contacting me every day.
I love the fact that he still contacts me.
But why the break up if he still on to me.?
Hrmm.
I want him back.
I told him i'm able to tolerate his attitude.
Because i know how it is already.
I don't know how it is now.
Well...
I don't even know whether he loves me still or not.
Mizah said..
If he still loves me.He should still hold on.
Compromise and find a solution to the problem.
Well.maybe to him the best way is to break up.
Even though i've asked for a patch back. I don't think he wants to.
Guess he doesn't love me anymore.
But then mizah mentioned again.
If he doesn't love me how come he still wants to contact me?
Well.maybe there's no others to contact with?
But he got heaps of friends around. Why still find me?..
Hrm..questions that never ends.
How i wish this relationship will have a happy ending.
Anyway.
Woke up just now.Off to the computer.
Yes.I'm addicted to the computer.LOL.c
Chucked my handphone that was on silent mode under my pillow on my bed.In my bedroom.
LOL.
No distractions while i'm having quality time with my computer.
Well.ate breakfast.
Must be wondering doesn't izni take a shower.
LOL.
Niopes.Not on sundays unless im going out!.
LOL.
My dirty little secret.
I reckon now there's no use hiding.
It isn't so nasty anyway.
so yeps.=).
Anyway,
continuing on..
Was already around 11 plus when i checked my handphone.And of course he called me.Twice only.So i messaged him to call me back.Ages later he called.Talked for so called 'very long'. HAH!
Yerps.
I off the computer after that.Because i thought talking to him was more important then my computer.We talked as per normal.though i still feel very uneasy with what had happened.To me at times, I MUST get what i want.At this point of time i so need him!.
SO i want him!.
LOL!
So i said what i wanted.
Well, same respond. he will always say no but in his way that is very long winded and in a way that will make me feel not so bad.Smart isn't him?
Well.He said he would called me back after his sister used the phone.
Ages after that he called.
I was asleep.
But Mui Wei messaged.
I was replying her.
When he called.
Still in my sleepy and stoinky mood i picked up his call.
He wasn't in the mood.
He lost something rather precious that belong to him.
A memory card that contained heaps and heaps of pictures i guess.
That he wanted to print it out on hard copy.
Well, when i asked him when was the last time he hold on to that memory card he said last year.
err... -.- Bravo to him!
Would you still have it with you by now if you were him?
Would you recall where you would have placed it?
The obvious answer is a big NO!.
Oh well.happy searching for it.
He told me to keep on talking to him while he search for that memory card.
Well, i didn't feel like talking to someone who's buzy searching for something and cursing at the same time because he can't find it.
So when i said call me back after you found your stuff he said just continue talking.Mind you, it was in a very harsh manner.
Well, i tolerated.
It's ok by me.
I just kept a positive mind.
I know i don't want to add charcoal to burning fire.You get what i mean right?
So i said nicely.
In the end, he said he'll call me later because he wanted to find his memory card.
Well..what do you think?
LOL.
Doesn't it give u a sheepish slight smile?
Well..i layed in bed after that.
Mui wei messaged me after that..Pressurising me about homework!
LOL.
Feeling uneasy, i started on my homework then.
Mizah entertained me while i did my homework.LOL!
Thank you.
Finally she called me.
I miss her.
You people know why.It's because i love her for being my childhood friend and been contacting me and helping me all this while.Friends since..5 years of age.Cool huh!.=)
I envy her relationship with yanto to.
She spends quality time with yanto.
How cool.
And yanto has been very sweet towards her.
Been making me go'awee!'.
LOL!
Well..talked for about an hour.She was hungry and wanted to eat.So she took her meal.Guess she doesn't want to disturb me doing my "homework".LOL!
Continuing on...I was halfway through doing the homework.
And decided to take a break.A long one.haha!
And now im blogging now.
Chatted with fad and yanti on msn.
Talked to yanti about homework.LOL!
And other stuff.
Chatted with fad about hadi.
yeah.
She will always ask me whether i still love him.
I wonder why.
I'll always say the same thing.
YES I DO!
She told me to move on.Many others out there.
Don't wait.
It will just break my heart even more.
Well i insist. I WILL wait.
No matter what happens.
Or unless..Hadi has someone else.
Then i'll move on.Other then that i'll wait no matter how stupid i'll look.
So hadi if you plan to get rid of me.Find someone else to be your girlfriend.And i'll not bother you neither will you ever see my face ever again.okay?=)
Fad thanks for helping by the way.
I LOVE YOU!
Alright?..LOL.I'm not being sarcastic FYI.LOL.!
Anyway.Exchange pictures with yanti too.
LOL. Thanks yanti!Loving your chubby and high cheekbones face always.LOL!
I was laughing my lungs out looking at the photos.
While that, my mind was flashing back at the memories i once shared with aidah, suhaila and yanti.
Yes,we used to have nicknames for each others.
Our nick names should be guys names.
Mine was Roni.
Yanti was Yan.
Aidah was Hadi.
Su was Rahul.
LOL!
How cool.
Anyway..with time things change.
Alright..
Moving on..
Currently i'm messaging yanti and Mui wei.While listening to no doubt.
LOL.
And waiting for his call.
Hopefully he calls me.
By the way.
Mui Wei good luck for your audition tomorrow.
I'll come along if i'm not lazy and not buzy.hehe!
Alright.
take care to all.
i'll update again tomorrow.
Must be wondering why i'm updating every day now huh.
simple reason because i've got no one to listen to my what my day has been anymore.=(
How sad.Oh well.
So now you all know why my computer is so important to me.
LOL!
Cheers!
take care!
toodLes!~
Assalammualaikum.=)
-izni-
P.S.I love Hadieo Montana

Yanti and I again.




Shahidah.She was the one who tolerated and joined me in making ourselves looking like fools.Thank You.One of the best Sec 3s that i heart.=)

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