Tuesday, May 22, 2007;
3:28 PM
Hey.
updates.
i deleted my most recent entry.
i reckon it was too much of a personal attack to some people.
Nevertheless it shouldn't be posted.
To much revealed.
Oh well.
I feel very deprived.
Depressed.
Demoralised.
Triple D!
teehee.
Anyway.
I guess i have a high standard when it comes to expectations towards flingers.
But now.
i guess i'm feeling this way because i lost the person i was deeply in love with before this.
So when i get someone new, i'll cling on to them.
But then.
Not that dude because i'll just be breaking my heart even more.
He got so many girls flinging with him.
I'm making myself suffer.Which sucks.When i'm just flinging and i DON'T want to have boyfriends until i'm 18.
But this feelings just keeps making me feel down.
At times.
I feel that i really hate all guys.
Exept those from my school that is.
They are cool.
I mean they're different from other guys out there.
Well to me because i can be straight forward to them if they are nonsensical with their love life.
Teehee.
I do advice them.
Well my advice are neutral not siding guys or the girls.
So yerps.
I helped some people...n i feel like a love doctor the one who cures those that were being spitted on,pushes a person to be more confident when he/she is afraid to face the other party or clueless on what to do, help those who are confused with their feelings and obviously reprimands those who toy around with the other party's feelings.Cool ey?
Oh yeah..not forgetting those who have relationship problems.
Always have a postive mind towards your relationship.Because if you think negatively, it will simply show that you would want the relationship to end.
Forget EGO!
This word will always make a relationship fail to last long.
When you don't give in.You will never solve the problem.
Let it go and move along happily.
Okay..why am i typing all this?
I'm suppose to tell people about my day and all!
teehee.
Anyway, i don't wish to have feelings for that particular someone.
It's useless.
Just a friend is cool enough.
Gosh.
I can help people with their love life.
But i can't help myself.
IZNI, APPLY IT TO YOURSELF.
teehee.
I guess i shouldn't be thinking about all this for now,right.?
It's just making me feel bad.
And it isn't healthy for me.
Izni.
Make another promise to yourself please.....
1) Do not have a boyfriend until you're 18.
2) If the boy has a girlfriend don't hesitate to let him go because it's useless.
Think how the girlfriend may feel then.She will be more heartbroken than you.
3) Do not get to know guys for now till you're 18.In other words, do not accept when guys want
to get to know you.
4) Always make it a priority that you're friends are far more important to those dudes out
there.
5) Never get distracted with guys when you're studying.
6) Don't feel down or angry when it comes to all these guys.
You shouldn't feel that way when he is not officially your boyfriend.He may just be a flinger.
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Izni you must be strong. Just like before. Be more confident.
Don't matter if they are not on to you.Who cares. Why bother.
Why hurt yourself. You got so many people who loves you and appreciates you as the way you are.
So smile.=)
For now, i hope that someone is loyal.To those who knows about this, then you would understand what i'm talking about.
As i was saying.Just be loyal to that someone.Don't matter that person is a flinger.He isn't your boyfriend.
If that person isn't loyal to you, then you don't have to be loyal to that person anymore, okay?
Don't be sad then.It is best if you stay neutral to all cause just like before.Remember who you are to that person. You're not more that what you are.HE IS NOT YOUR BOYFRIEND.
okay.
that's all.
I felt loved in school just now.
The company by everyone was pleasant.
Thank you.
To my 10 people who i'm close with.
Thank you.
teehee.
okay that's all.=)
smile always.
cheers.
study hard.
pray hard.
stay healthy.
have fun.
take care.
God bless.
-izni
♥somewhere
