Sunday, April 06, 2008;
9:18 PM
i'm gona start bloggin again now.
it's the only wat i can let out my emotions.
im currently not in THE very best mood.
oh thanks to people around me.
you tickled the wrong nerve to allow the wrong impulses to get 2 my brain mates.
bloody macaroni.!
Holidays are coming.
i wana go 2 singapore just for a quick holiday dad didnt allow me to.
well i didnt really bother about it first.but mum kept on talking bout it.much enough to get me indulged n think all about singapore.
argh.!
and bf.
true what he says about not wasting money and stuff.
but when i got no bloody mood 2 communicate to anyone.
and anyone who knows my true attitude if i dont wish to talk dont force me to.
i hate it.
i'd leave you alone if u need your own bloody precious quality time with yourself.
piss off mate!
i dont mean to be rude or hurt anybody in anyway but geess..
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One thing of it is.
i've always been lazy during the weekends.
Now that the school holidays are coming soon.
it worries me if i wont be able to displine myself to sit and study for long hours like i used to..
damnit.i'll try.i'll try.
bummer....
i feel like shit the past few days.!
anything that makes me feel moody puts me right off from studying.
bloody boyfriend puts me off.
pushes me aside now..
every time lately.
becus why..
since im nt around anymore.he goes out with his friends alot .
i aint important.
his used to nt having me around anymore.
so yerps..fill his time with friends.
i don't mean he should stay home everyday.
but i don't mean he should go out every bloody day.
and forget all about me!
everytime i call.
he'll say like..............................i'll call ya back.
EVERY BLOODY TIME.
shit ol'
you dont even call me.unless we're fighting.and tt is if u bother to call.
shitzu.
so there's no point going back to singapore.
let's see what will make me want to go to singapore?
geee..what i miss?
isn't worth the flight ticket.!
what else friends?
bloody hell they don't even ask me for my bloody updates(but some do).
what happened to the rest.
if its the only reason then probably cuz of my band.
my passion 2 perform.but then again gee..
nothing.
bf...speechless**
if u tink i too over my head.well i am.!
beat it.!
i bet after bf reads this he aint talking to me.
but for sure.
he'll do it again n again.
oh not forgetting...
life here.
freaking laid back.
i can't wait for this year to end.
i'm not looking forward to visit singapore.
people there don't mean much to me.cuz i don't mean much to them.
i want to end this year n get TEE over and done with.
if i get into a uni.
i'd b happy enough.
that's wat i aim for.
sorry if i said anything offensive.
but seriously.
i observe.
from what i observe..
people put up a show at the beginning making you feel important.
make it a month or two.
then you're a ghost.
oh did i mention.
i just realised how much ive been giving in to people making them feel like proud of themselves while i be the one feeling like shit.
but its okay.
i always believe in retribution.
cheers to eevryone who reads this.
if u wish to leave nasty comments i'd reply to you as honest as i can.
because you're really honest 2 tell me indirectly you don't like me.
and to those people who act as though they care oh please stop it.it disgust me
to people who really do care thanks for your concern.
cheers.
=)
♥somewhere
