Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin to family and friends.Especially Ayah..

This is the first raya that i'm not celebrating with family and friends.
Saddest one of all..
For the first time..i try my very best to be the closest to ibu and ayah..Trying not to disappoint ibu and ayah in any way..This hari raya is said to me the time of forgiveness and to turnover a new leaf. Now i understand how it feels and to go through it is wonderful but hard.Let alone to celebrate hari raya with an incomplete family is just a big obstacle for me, physcologically.

I feel remouseful eyy for what i did..How i reacted.Its like having all those past memories flashing in my mind on previous rayas that i take for granted.

My godd.....

Now sitting here.Typing this entry listening to Warna...people praying and listening to takbir.
I must say this is the first time i ever cried so much for raye..or for anything actually.

While everyone else is getting ready to celebrate hari raya..
going to grandparents houses..
Opening those jars filled with cookies..
Ketupat and lepat set on the table..
The smell of rendang, sambal goreng, lontong and everything else......
Moms out there still stress cooking in the kitchen..
aha,
im here in my school uniform...getting ready for my maths exam.

well i'll end it here.
selamat hari raye and maaf zahir dan batin to the Oleh family, friends...
and Especially Ayah..
Much Love from me, Izni.

Izni.
18 ish.
The beach is the best place to be.
Part Time employee.
Full Time Student.
Fullest Time dedicated to sleep and party.
If one day there wasn't any food left to eat,
I'd live on Malboro Reds and Ice Lemon Tea Seasons.
& Last, I live by this quote..
Work Hard, party HARDER.